Having begun writing about the matters contained in this volume, we have received many emails from readers who have thanked us for bringing these issues to the fore. As one reader pointed out, for those who resonate strongly with most of the material, this now gives a platform from which they can “revisit the concepts with a mental filter allowing for new interpretations.” I have noted before there are many instances when the experiences behind the scenes had a great deal to do with the direction of the questions, and now we begin to understand exactly how the internal drives of the participants could act to skew that 30 percent of material that felt “off” even to the casual reader. On August 8, 1998, an interesting series of remarks were made that seem to be almost a prediction about the present events:
Q: We have been discussing the strange visitors to our website. [This referred to an extremely high number of .mil and .gov organizations. We tried to just pass it off as the fact that even people who work for the military and government have interests in channeling, but this really didn’t explain the daily visits from certain sites, and even from some sites that had IP numbers that resolved into servers where public access to information about them was restricted.] It seems that there is a lot of interest from groups that are connected with intelligence and military organizations. Can you tell us what their interest is in our material?
A: Material is largely accurate.
Notice that above, Cs are pointing out that it is only “largely” accurate, and this is the statement upon which the next comments are predicated.
Q: Do they understand that this material is largely accurate, and is this the reason for their interest?
Q: Do we have to be concerned about any ramifications as a result of their interest?
A: If so, the need for concern began with your respective births!
Q: Why did the interest begin with our births?
A: Not interest we speak of; destiny.
This remark refers specifically to me (Laura) and Ark, since the question related specifically to our efforts to publicize the material on the website. The Cs repeatedly, throughout the sessions, talked about a certain “destined” activity for the two of us in concert with others we had yet to meet. I once asked specifically about this destiny and the answer was very curious, especially the reference to Frank’s role:
August 31, 1996
Q: (L) What do these guys [the folks in the underground bases and laboratories with designs on taking over the world] plan on doing?
A: This is where “The Master Race” is being developed.
Q: (L) And what is the timeframe they have planned for this activity?
A: Never mind.
Q: (L) Is Ark going to be able to help us with technology, to help other people, or to protect ourselves in some way? In this really bizarre stuff going on on our planet?
A: Too much, too soon, my dear. Curiosity killed the cat.
Q: (L) Well, satisfaction brought him back!
A: Not in this case!!!
Q: (T) You’ve got to let this go along. It’s picking up momentum every day, it seems. So, just let it roll along and let it see where it goes. (L) All right, let’s … (T) He’s coming to protect you. That’s what he said.
A: Maybe, but there is so, so, so much more in store than that!!!!!!
Q: (L) Stop! … Is that an ominous, “maybe, but there’s so, so, so much more in store?” Or is that a positive, “there is so, so, so much more in store?”
A: Why would you think it ominous?
Q: (L) Well I don’t know … because I’m scared of what I don’t know! (T) Faith, we’re back to faith again.
A: What have we helped you to discover so far? Would you rather discontinue this operation?
Q: (L) Oh, hell no! (T) After two years, you know she’s always going to ask those kinds of questions!
A: Not two years, eternity. […] We have helped you build your staircase one step at a time. Because you asked for it. And you asked for it because it was your destiny. We have put you in contact with those of rare ability in order for you to be able to communicate with us. Again, because you desired it, in order to realize your path. By now, you should recognize the signs … Those who display thinking patterns which in many ways deviate from that which is considered ordinary. The more unusual, the more telling. They have past lives on 3rd density earth, but not recently, but for this one. And they are not oriented to the earth frequency vibrations.
The remark about being put in touch with those of “rare ability” (clearly plural) undoubtedly referred to Frank with the agenda of his controllers to extract information and destroy, and Terry with his role as protector and Ark with his role in the mission. It is quite clear that even though the agenda of those operating behind Frank was not favorable, as noted in the January 10 session, the effect was to “wake me up.” I am still somewhat uncertain about the last remark: which individuals are the Cs referring to as not having had a recent past life on third density earth? Ark, or Frank or Terry? We had started out discussing Ark’s role in the mission, and the Cs brought up the issue of their having put me in contact with those of rare ability in order to communicate, and then they came back to “recognizing signs … ” which takes us back to Ark. For the moment, my interpretation is that Ark is the only one with a recent past life on the earth, and that of the three, neither Terry nor Frank had recent past lives on earth.
Q: (T) … It is destiny for you to find out what your path was, you had to make this contact, because it was what you were supposed to do. (L) Are we not talking about Frank in terms of being put in contact with someone who enables me to communicate with you, so you can put me on my path, which is building the staircase, etc., etc.? Is that not what we’ve got going here?
A: He is one, but not the only one, just the one who awakened your sense of recognition.
So my question as to whether Frank was the channel was effectively answered. The material that came through when Terry was present to counterbalance the negative agenda of Frank was obviously far more reliable, and we will encounter this factor more than once as we go along. Going back now to the prediction given in August of 1998:
Q: Well, since we have revamped the website, there has been a huge amount of interest, so we have decided that it would be a good idea to get a book out since I can already see signs of plagiarism on other sites, and they are taking whole chunks of our material and passing it around on some of the news groups. I need to put the whole thing together. Any advice about the book? Anything you would like to add or suggest?
A: Be careful to make attributions valid.
Q: I don’t think that will be a problem. Anything else?
A: Resist urge to place credit/onus on yourself. E.G. if “you know what hits the fan,” do you wish to be in the line of fire?
Now, the interesting thing about the website at this particular point in time, i.e. 1998, was that we carefully avoided any distinction of persons in talking about the work of the Group. At this point in time, we simply referred to the Cassiopaean Group, with no distinction as to persons, and certainly no hint that all of us felt funny about Frank’s claims and participation. I refused to make any one person the “source,” referring to it always as a group, and that irritated him to no end. Frank had been agitating a very long time for us to proclaim him as the channel, and to attribute all of the material to him. This process had been an ongoing theme of manipulation on his part for several years, at that point, and I strenuously resisted making the Cs a cult of personality for Frank, which he clearly resented, but attempted (ineffectively) to conceal. There were numerous instances in the transcripts where it was his agenda, or the agenda of his controllers, to proclaim him as the channel, but usually this occurred when Terry was absent, or when there were not sufficient others of positive energy present in the room to counterbalance what we now see was a very powerful STS force.
In the above excerpt, it seems that there is a hint of an accusation that we are taking credit away from Frank, and that is certainly the way Frank felt; but his view was largely constructed in his own mind and had no basis in reality. Since he did not have a computer, he did not have an opportunity to view and read the website (though we often suggested to him that he ought to do it at our house, and even write and contribute to it, which he never did because it took time away from his watching of sports on television). The facts were that no one individual was being credited with the Cs material. It was presented as a group effort. That was all. So, at one and the same time, we see a personal prejudice of Frank’s skewing the response, but the Cs managed to turn it into a save by inserting the word “onus” and giving the warning about something “hitting the fan.”
I ought to make it clear that my own view of Frank was very sympathetic. And that is one of the chief things that can be learned from this account that I am sharing. The fact is, those with powerful STS agendas can and do utilize all kinds of ways and means of manipulating emotions and perception in order to make themselves appear to be helpful, benevolent, giving, kind, and usually to evoke pity and sympathy. They can speak or channel truth in order to insert a single twist that leads the uncritical thinker off-track, and that is why we have always promoted the idea of critical channeling.
We received a post from an individual who says that telling the story of the behind the scenes dynamics “discredits the entire channeled material from beginning to end.” And such a view, of course, relates directly to the Cs remark above: “Resist urge to place credit/onus on yourself. E.G. if ‘you know what hits the fan,’ do you wish to be in the line of fire?”
By “saving” the remark this way, the Cs were warning us that there would be an operation put in motion to discredit that portion of the material that was “largely accurate,” as they put it. And this is most certainly what has been identified as the current activity of Bridges and Williams and Co. And indeed, by not telling this story of the background earlier, we have most certainly left ourselves open to these attacks.
The Cs are very precise in their use of words, and the remark included the word “onus.” This is a word that generally refers to a dirty task, or a burden or the burden of proving something. The evidence will show that we certainly were not claiming credit for the material ourselves, but we were most definitely protecting Frank by not sharing the issues that we are now discussing. In this way, we had taken upon ourselves the onus of defending corrupted material that was indefensible. And, by taking on ourselves the burden of this defense, by not dealing with the issue of what we already suspected to be a source of corruption, by continuing to keep the door open for Frank to make a different choice, even though, by that point in time, we knew that his days with the group were numbered, we still continued to protect him. This protection even extended to the point of giving him a pseudonym in Amazing Grace so that I could compromise between telling the story as accurately as possible, and still protect Frank. As one observer on the sidelines once remarked (and it incensed me greatly because I was protecting Frank), “Frank plays on your sympathy like a Stradivarius.”
As to whether our decision to try to give Frank every chance possible to make a different choice was the correct one, and whether the present “hitting of the fan” of the operation suggested by the Cs in the above excerpt will permanently damage and discredit all of the material, will have to be up to the reader. We think that telling the truth is the only way. It is then up to the reader to decide what he/she wants to credit and what not. One learn lessons, one learns truth, and one tells truth. That is how we see it. We do believe that the truth will survive the attacks.
Getting back to the August, 1998 excerpt, since I had been so careful to not make the material a cult of personality, I simply did not see what the Cs were trying to tell me. I brushed aside their remark about something “hitting the fan” if I did not make clear who was doing what in the project.
Q: I don’t think that’s a problem either.
A: Oh, but it could be!
And regarding how I ought to deal with telling the story, the Cs clearly said: “Tell the story as it happened.” This made me a little uncomfortable because I knew that I would have to tell about the many issues with Frank, and I tried to squeak out of doing that:
Q: I had thought that I would limit the story and concentrate on the material.
A: The material is part of the story. So are the participants.
And that was the thing that the Cs wanted me to tell: the whole story, and the material as part of the story, and the dynamics of the individuals in the interaction of bringing through material that was “largely accurate,” needed to be told “as it happened.” Thus I began to write the Wave series. And oh, did the stuff hit the fan. But, I am getting ahead of myself here. Let’s go back and pick up some threads that need to be discussed before we get to the events that led to the writing of this recapitulation.
As the readers who have read Amazing Grace know, I pretty much left off at the point when the Cassiopaeans first made their debut. It was my intention to continue the story in two more volumes; the second one would cover the period from the beginning of the Cassiopaean Transmission to the point in time when Ark arrived on the scene. This is a period of only two years, but it was so full of lessons and experiences that seem to have been activated by the contact itself, and some plan or destined mission, that it would take an entire book to tell it all. Jan used to joke about having to raise the bizarre bar daily to accommodate the truly weird things that happened in the lives of all of us involved in this project. The third volume was to include our many experiences, research, and what we have learned since Ark’s arrival. Again, it would take an entire volume to tell it all!
Since the present circumstances are not at all out of sync with previous attacks, and merely represent the ramping up of what has gone before, I will try to cover that period quickly, briefly, and with some links to other pages where some of the matters have already been discussed to save time.
As it turned out, interacting with the Cassiopaeans has been a lot like Neo and the cookie-baking Oracle in the movie, The Matrix. It seems that, very often, in order to not only preserve free will, but also to circumvent the activity of Agents of the Control System, many strategies must be developed and utilized, and some of them are as fun and interesting as the double and triple reverse psychology of a spy thriller. In fact, it may turn out to be the grandest spy thriller of them all because it has operated at several levels of density at once, across years into the past and future, and most certainly involving time loops, changing of the program, and a whole host of fun maneuvers to deceive and beguile the most perspicacious of Grail Questors!
Having said all that, let me go back to where I left off in Amazing Grace. At the time of the second Cassiopaean Contact, the following exchange occurred.
July 22, 1994
Q: (L) What is causing the earth changes?
A: Electromagnetic wave changes.
Q: (L) Can you be more specific?
A: Gap in surge heliographic field.
Q: (L) I don’t understand.
A: Put Frank on processor channel open.
Q: Do you mean that Frank can channel on the computer?
A: Yes. Do it now.
Considering what I already had learned about channeling, and how easily it was taken over and corrupted, I did not see this as a viable suggestion. In fact, I recognized it as one of the first attempts at corruption. Just to prove my point, we did try it and it was nonsense. In light of all that has occurred since, my conclusion that this was an attempt at sidetracking the process has proven to be correct.
A little further on in the same session, the next attempt was made:
Q: (L) What is the Zindar Council?
A: Two cycle exchangers mission.
Q: (L) What does that mean?
A: References vast. Use Laura channel computer.
Again the computer and direct channeling was being suggested, only this time it was specifically addressed at me. But, I wasn’t buying it. Yes, I had experienced some stupendous success with the information that had been received about Cosmic Metamorphosis that led to the research I did to write Noah, but I knew that even deeper and more accurate information was needed, and that the developing of the unconscious circuit to access those layers required time and effort and strengthening.
The issue of Frank himself was, of course, an interesting one. Having observed him for some period of time, I knew that he was emotionally arrested in his development. I’m not claiming to be a psychotherapist with this remark, and in my own description of his make-up that was written in Amazing Grace, I relied heavily on his own descriptions and assessments. His major claim was that his birth had been a mistake and that he really did not belong in this world because he was, effectively, just too sensitive and spiritual. He couldn’t have normal relations with other people because they “didn’t understand” him. The reason they didn’t understand him was because he was “spiritual” and the mass of humanity was not. At least not spiritual enough to appreciate his spirituality. He couldn’t work at a “real job” because he was “too sensitive” and he couldn’t tolerate pressure. It was unfair of ignorant, unwashed hoi-polloi to put expectations on him to perform a job, when they were so un-spiritual and did not grok his truly superior spiritual nature. His parents were horribly abusive (according to him), and he spent endless hours describing in great detail how much he despised his parents for what they had done to him. Again, this was because they did not recognize his superior spirituality.
Well, naturally, I was moved by all of this pain and suffering that he described and I was determined to make a place for Frank to express the one thing that he claimed he was good at: channeling. As he repeated over and over again, it was the one thing he could do, that he wanted to do, that he was comfortable doing, and which did not seem to require any great effort on his part. Because, in the end, it was effort that he could not tolerate. It required effort to get along with other people. It required effort to work at a job. It required effort to understand that parents generally do the best they can with what they know, and to be able to adjust our own thinking so as not to carry so much anger for the fact that they do, often, unconsciously hurt us.
As I wrote in Amazing Grace, it’s not likely that my own mother will ever wake up and figure out how her own emotional actions and reactions were so hurtful to me and other people. But I am not angry at her, I still maintain relations with her, and if she had a need I could fulfill, I would do it without question. But all of that requires effort. And Frank did not seem to have anything inside him that could result in externally directed effort. He never had a girlfriend, he never dated (he claimed to have had one experience with sexual intercourse that was so disgusting that he vowed never to repeat it), he had very few friends, and his main activity outside of his telemarketing job that he took after the embezzlement episode, was watching football on television.
I had the idea that being accepted for himself would lead to Frank being able to blossom as a human being. I was always making suggestions that he ought to become more socially active, to go back to college, or do some writing (since he had such an excellent command of language). All of these suggestions were met with, “You just don’t understand! I can’t do any of those things!” And this was followed by a monologue on how spiritual he was and why being spiritual and a highly developed being prevented one from being capable of interacting with ordinary human beings in normal ways.
At one point I asked him if he thought that a highly developed spiritual being ought to be defined as one who had mastered the lessons of this human level. He hesitantly said yes. I then asked him why, if such a being had mastered such lessons, that being would be unable to just handle ordinary life as easy as falling off a log? It seemed to me that if a college graduate knows the ABC’s, it should be so easy for them to recite them that even if it was boring, it should certainly not be stressful to do it.
He had no answer.
What was even more disturbing was his view of humanity as a whole. He had nothing but contempt for other human beings who were not as spiritual as he was. This, of course, led back to his claims that his birth was a mistake, and that then, of course, led to the idea that this mistake was easily corrected by suicide. Naturally, I was horrified and spent hundreds, if not thousands of hours, pouring energy into preventing him from doing this. I didn’t realize at the time that it was merely a means of draining my life force.
But, the suicide issue led to a series of exchanges in which I asked Frank if he thought that it could really be a mistake that he was born? And if so, how could such a mechanism operate? He described a “psychic memory” of a harsh voice commanding him to “Go!” and a pointing finger that forcefully ejected him from the delights of the higher levels of ethereal existence into incarnation in the present body.
I didn’t say so at the time, but such an image was very troubling for a lot of reasons, not the least of which was what kind of higher being would act in such a way as to forcefully eject an innocent soul from realms of bliss into incarnation? The bottom line was this: I saw Frank as a soul crying out for help, and I was going to be the one to help him. The channeling project was going to be the platform for me to do this.
There had been so many synchronicities that popped up when we met, and I naturally thought that this was a positive thing. After all, Frank’s middle name was “Grant” and that had been the name of my first boyfriend. I just ignored the fact that the boyfriend had created so much turmoil and destruction in my life. (As it happens, the “friend” with whom the first boyfriend interacted that caused me so much extreme grief had the last name “Bridges,” though it was her married name. Another item I ignored in giving people the benefit of the doubt. Those of you who have read Amazing Grace will know exactly what I am talking about.)
The first thing on my mind was to settle the issue of abduction, since Frank incessantly talked about his abductions by aliens and how his parents had never believed he was being tormented this way and failed to protect him. I truthfully didn’t see how any parent could have been blamed for such a failure since any such activity is most definitely not considered to be a reality in our culture. But, the fact was, Frank had conscious memories of many abductions. In my own case, even if there is some circumstantial evidence of possible abductions, there was most definitely no conscious memory, and to this day, I cannot say that I have ever seen an alien in any sort of conscious state, nor in any way that could not be explained as a dream, or the result of hypnagogic or hypnopompic states. Having said that, let me add that I do not subscribe to the view that just because such things can be explained in such ways, that they ought to be. There is too much evidence that something strange is going on to do that. But the point is, one has to be very careful in this kind of research.
So, dealing with Frank’s abductions seemed to be a natural issue to discuss with the Cassiopaeans. We asked about the numbers of times we each had been abducted and received different answers on different occasions. (I considered this variance to be evidence of attempts to corrupt the information.) On the first occasion the question was asked, the answer was:
July 16, 1994
Q: (L) How many times?
A: Frank-57 … Laura-12.
Over two months later, we asked about Frank again and the answer was four less than the first answer:
September 30, 1994
Q: (L) How many times has Frank been abducted?
A week or so later, I asked again about my own purported abductions:
October 9, 1994
Q: (L) How many times have I been abducted?
Q: (L) How many times have they abducted Frank?
Q: (L) Why have they abducted Frank more than me?
A: You fight it.
Now, in this last instance, the number given for me is five more than previously stated, though the number given for Frank is the same as the number given the second time, which was four less than the first answer. However, even this number is suspect because two years later, more specifics were given, and in this case, they matched real life clues, so this next figure regarding myself, if it is true at all, might be the correct one.
April 24, 1996
Q: (L) Can you tell me what ages?
A: 2, 4, 7, 10, 17, 22, 44
Now, if we consider the fact that, as I described in Grace, the incident when I was four was a human abduction, and that at the time of the first answer, I was not yet 44 years old and the last figure in the above recitation would be necessarily deducted, this means that this last figure of only five instances is probably accurate regarding myself.
Regarding Frank, in all cases, whichever number we accept as the correct one, his experiences are five times as frequent then, and probably since. And the answer as to why he was abducted more frequently was very telling and disturbing: effectively, he was abducted more because he did not fight it. And that means, he either accepted it out of weakness, or agreement.
And here I want to make it perfectly clear that I am not talking about conscious agreement by any stretch of the imagination. A person can be paralyzed and brutalized (or so they say) in an abduction, and be completely helpless. There is obviously some other quality or quantity of something that makes one person more or less susceptible than another. Why else would the Cassiopaeans have made such a remark? I am certain that if I was abducted (and there is certainly circumstantial evidence that it was so), I never managed to stop it because I “fought it.” (Until, of course, the last attempt which is recounted in my book, High Strangeness). But clearly, something in me fought it at some level of which I was (and am) completely unaware. And this is most definitely something we need to research for the sake of others who have similarly fought such battles, with greater or lesser success.
Frank, of course, was certain that these abductions were what gave him his “channeling” ability. We discussed it and decided to ask if this was the case: that he had been programmed to be a channel. In the session of October 9, 1994, I asked:
Q: (L) Is Frank’s mind programmed?
Q: (L) To do what?
A: To be an open channel.
Q: (L) By whom?
Q: (L) You said one other time that he was also programmed by the Grays.
Q: (L) To do what?
A: To destroy himself.
Q: (L) Is this why it is important for him to channel?
The above remarks, of course, raise the all-important question as to who was giving the answer. We certainly know from the vast body of material that the Cassiopaeans do not “program” anybody. So it seems fairly obvious that this response, due to the wishful thinking of Frank, either drew in a corrupting energy, or was answered by Frank himself.
Throughout this period I was, of course, doing all of my testing of the source, and asking of wide ranging questions on hundreds of subjects. The information was checking out and I was becoming more convinced that we had most certainly achieved a significant contact and so I asked:
October 16, 1994
Q: (L) Why did it take so long for us to get a good source through this medium?
A: Too many interactions with channel cancellers.
Q: (L) Who are the individuals who are channel cancellers?
A: It would not be our way to name names.
Q: (L) Do you mean people we have had involved in our lives?
Q: (L) Does it have anything to do with our activities?
Q: (L) Does it involve other entities that have tried to come through that have blocked the channel?
Q: (L) Are they Lizards?
These remarks were most revealing to me though, as usual, I kept my deeper speculations to myself. When discussing it with Frank, his answer was, of course, that all “channel cancellers” were individuals he did not like or who didn’t like him because they were repelled by his disdainful and superior attitude. As usual, I always put the most positive spin on this, giving Frank the benefit of the doubt and attributing this behavior to a defense mechanism. I knew perfectly well that many people who act superior only do so because they are covering up deep inferiority feelings inside, and again, I had the idea that Frank was certainly a person with many talents and abilities and that helping him was a good thing to be doing.
Through all these months, Frank regularly repeated the claim that the only reason the Cassiopaeans were able to communicate was because of him. I was certainly open to this possibility, and the possibility of further tuning as a trance channel, since that was what he was pushing for so regularly and repeatedly. Even though I pointed out to him that trance channeling, by definition is disabling, and therefore pathological, he was anxious to work on it and presented arguments that it was not disabling if it was the only thing a person could really do in life, and if it was what they had been born to do. These were compelling arguments, so reluctantly, I agreed to the experiment.
The trance material was very good, of that there was no doubt. There were several problems, however, that were disturbing. The first one was the “air” that was emanated by Frank when channeling from a trance. There is no way to describe this other than to say it felt very uneasy, faintly repellant or “off” in some way. Even though the words were high sounding, and the information was good, the sensation that I had was unpleasant.
Another factor was a sort of resistance to freely answering questions. There was an obfuscatory action that was in play, utilizing a lot of words to avoid exactly direct answers. I had seen this in so much other channeled material that I knew that it was bordering on a source that rambles on and on with many words and little content. In short, the word density deteriorated when Frank channeled from a trance.
I decided to ask about this the next night at a board session, and this was the very first clue that Frank was not the channel.
October 23, 1994
Q: (L) Was Frank operating as a clear channel last night?
Q: (L) What was the nature of the interference?
A: Static electromagnetic.
Q: (L) What was the origin of this static?
A: Various. Channels must be grooved as this one has been.
Q: (L) Is it correct that we should persist with practice for him to become a clear channel?
Q: (L) How often should we do this?
A: Open, but one time per week would work.
Q: (L) How long will it take to “groove” or clear the channel?
When the Cs said “channels must be grooved as this one has been,” it certainly could have referred to the board channeling. There is also the possibility that the “grooved channel” that the Cs were referring to was simply me, as other comments later indicated. In any event, it was already becoming clear to me that the Cs were communicating against some sort of block, and I was pretty sure it wasn’t me. And, if no one else but Frank was present, who else could it be? The one thing that was certain from these remarks was: Frank was not the Cassiopaean channel in the exclusive way that he was repeatedly trying to suggest.
At about this point in time, I visited a local lady psychic with a friend who praised her abilities to the skies. She wasn’t a professional, and didn’t charge anything, but she did have a study group and a small local following, so I was reassured that this was not going to be another psychic scam. She was very nice, and we visited around her kitchen table. She told me many accurate things about my then-current situation which I have long since forgotten. The most remarkable and surprising thing she said was that she saw a little red-haired girl following me around and she believed it was representative of the soul of the next baby in my life. The funny thing was, this was merely a reiteration of the same thing that several other psychic friends had said to me.
Well, at that point in time, having another baby was not something I wished to contemplate. My health had been so seriously compromised in that respect that I knew another pregnancy would just kill me. (Yeah, I know, a little dramatic, but the ladies will understand!) Of course, I couldn’t wait to ask the Cs about that! (And of course, I did not want to be too specific since Frank knew nothing about this visit to the psychic and I wanted to see what the Cs would say without any leading.)
October 28, 1994
Q: (L) Now, several people have told me that there is a small child who is with me constantly. Who is she and why is she here?
A: Next in line.
Q: (L) Next in line for what?
Q: (L) Am I going to have another child?
Q: (L) How many are there in line?
Q: (L) Male or female?
Q: (L) Is this to happen within the next year?
Q: (L) I am 42 years old. If I were to get pregnant would I be able to have a normal pregnancy and produce a healthy infant?
A: Yes. Your consciousness will soon give you spectacularly sharp, exact and correct information.
Q: (L) Will this be due to ingesting the Melatonin?
Q: (L) Is soon within a month?
A: You will know.
Q: (L) I get the feeling that this has a lot to do with trusting my own intuition.
Q: (L) What occurred to make my pool clear up?
A: You restored your own energy.
Q: (L) And it had nothing to do with rituals?
A: Correct. In spite of rituals but you were lucky could have gone the other way.
Q: (L) What prevented this from happening?
A: Divine intervention. [energy surge]
Q: (L) Well, my life seems to have been full of incidents of divine intervention. Is this true?
Q: (L) What is the purpose of this intervention?
A: To preserve and prepare you for work.
Q: (L) What is this work?
A: You are extremely valuable to all on your planet.
Q: (L) What particular value? Is this common to all people?
Q: (L) Is this something meaningful? What is the mission?
A: Faith in your opening channel you will learn as you go. We cannot tell you all at once.
This bit of dialogue was very interesting and very troubling at the same time. First the Cassiopaeans were indicating that asking questions as we were at that point was only a step in a process, the end result of which would be that “your consciousness will soon give you spectacularly sharp, exact and correct information.” Of course, I was thinking that this would be just some sort of magical “opening up of awareness,” and asked if it would be because of taking melatonin.
Because I had relied upon this intuition regarding the Green Pool affair, it was only natural to ask about it in the context of developing psychic awareness. I most certainly did not expect the answer that came about divine intervention. The energy surge that is noted in brackets related to the fact that the planchette began to move very fast and actually nearly flew off the table. It seems that opening the door to that subject by asking the question, allowed me to receive a real surge of positive energy.
I knew I was treading on thin ice when I asked why divine intervention would be activated on my behalf and frankly, I didn’t put a lot of stock in the answer that I was “extremely valuable to all on your planet.” That struck me as an ego hook, and I was really wary of such things. The only thing that restored my confidence at that moment was the fact that the Cs wouldn’t tell me the answer. How many people are led astray by being told that they are here to save the world or some such nonsense! For all I knew, the value of my life consisted in being burned at the stake or something gross like that. Nevertheless, in response to the question “what is the mission,” again the Cassiopaeans slipped something past Frank that obviated his claim to be the Cassiopaean channel: “Faith in your opening channel you will learn as you go. We cannot tell you all at once.” And I knew for certain that there was a problem in working with Frank. The Cs were declaring as clearly as they could, that they would tell me many things in bits and pieces via the current medium, and that the opening channel was something deep in me. Further, that it would only be from my own consciousness that the ultimate answers would come.
But, as was usual, I shoved it under the rug. At the same session, another very interesting series of remarks was made:
Q: (L) Since the energy is high at this time, we would like to know if you have anything to give in the form of a teaching.
A: Not ready for that yet; establish clear channel and forum first; one step at a time.
Q: (L) What is the forum?
A: What do you think?
Q: (L) Do you mean that we need to bring more people into this work?
Q: (L) We need to create a forum.
A: Yes. A direction will open if you persevere.
Q: (L) So things will be brought to us and happen for us if we just persevere?
A: Soon expect big opportunity.
Q: (L) I assume that we are not to ask what it is, we are to have faith, is that correct?
A: Yes. Danger you may misinterpret opportunity.
Q: (L) Should we all three be able to realize in congruence whether the opportunity is good?
A: Varying degrees.
Q: (L) If there is a danger we may misinterpret the opportunity, could you give us a couple of clues so that when it occurs we won’t miss it?
A: At least one of you will have instant recognition but others may not. Wait and see.
The first remark was that we needed to establish a clear channel first. This related back to the immediately previous remark about having faith in my own opening channel, that “your consciousness will soon give you spectacularly sharp, exact and correct information.” I didn’t realize it at the time, but the Cassiopaeans certainly knew in advance how the drama would play out, and no clearer evidence of this, as well as their refusal to interfere with free will and my own need to learn things by experience, could be given. When I asked about a “forum,” naturally, I was thinking in small, local terms. A forum to me was something like a study group or a minimal number of people who would meet to discuss things. What was most curious was the remark about a “big opportunity” that there was some danger of misinterpreting on the part of all of those present except for one person.
As it turned out, this opportunity was meeting Ark. And it was certainly true that it was misinterpreted by everyone but me. I had “instant recognition” to a depth and extent that can barely be explained or expressed. Frank, on the other hand, literally spent days trying to convince me that I ought not to communicate with Ark, that he was a spy or KGB agent sent to kidnap me and use me for vile purposes. (Funny how real agents always accuse others of what they are doing themselves.) What was more, he managed to convince other members of the group that Ark was a danger to the all of us, and I basically had to stand alone against them repeating to me over and over again that I was falling into a trap.
But because the Cs had cleverly used the exact phrase that would communicate to me the essential thing to know – that there would be instant recognition – I knew that Ark was the One, and that his coming and importance to the mission had been known and predicted 21 months in advance.
But I still had 21 months of serious learning ahead of me before I would even be ready for Ark, and the Cassiopaeans must have been smiling all the while at what was waiting for me at the end of what I could only describe as a long tunnel of suffering.
Not too long after the above session, Terry and Jan became regular members of the group. The Cassiopaeans were almost overjoyed at their presence, and it is only in retrospect that the reasons become clear. Nevertheless, they willingly and readily put in many hours of labor on analyzing and collating material.
Frank continued to ask that we convert the channeling process to the trance method with him as the subject/channel. With Terry and Jan present, we experimented with it a number of times. I didn’t express my own feelings about it in advance since I wanted them to witness it without prejudice, and it turned out that their reaction was exactly the same as my own. In fact, it almost seemed that the repellant aspects of the voice and presence of Frank’s trance source was amplified with the three of us on the other side. It was this experience that prompted us to discuss at some length the role that Frank played in the process. It was also this that prompted us to devise ways and means of wording inquiries so that we could bypass Frank’s “controller” as well as whatever programming he was operating under. There are quite a number of questions in the transcripts that are asked, seemingly about someone else, when a prearranged agreement was made that these questions were inquiries about Frank himself. In some cases these questions were about Terry and in other cases, they were about other individuals. In later sessions, Ark and I used this same method. In the course of this series of articles, I will reveal where and what these questions are, what the circumstances were that prompted them, and what the coded answers meant.
But again, the bottom line was that, despite the fact that we knew we had to find ways to circumvent the corruption that was evident in Frank, we all saw Frank as a valuable human being who had been abducted and kidnapped as a child, and that his free will had been violated, and we felt that if we continued to work with him, to encourage him, that something of strength and true STO will would grow in him. I clung stubbornly to the belief that Frank was, at the core, an STO being who had just been presented with so many challenges that he needed help to meet them. It took us a long time to fully realize that when such things happen, the soul is not an infant. If I could resist or fight back as a child so could Frank; only he didn’t. And ultimately, that was an expression of his soul choice.
Over the next six years, the Cassiopaeans gave clue after clue about many things, including Frank himself, that were delivered to us based on a secret signal system that was unknown to Frank, and is only now being revealed. And this, of course, leads to another reason why we did not choose to publish all the transcripts at once, unedited, and without commentary. Without this background, without the information about the code and the questions that were asked in code and answered in code, there is no way that the casual reader can fully realize the truly amazing nature of the transmissions.
What is more: we wanted to wait for the “rest of the story.” Right up to the very last minute, we left the door open for Frank to make a different choice.