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Another Hit for the Cassiopaeans - DNA
Nightmajic:
Thanks, Pinkerton ... I'll make its use a priority.
Pepperfritz~ I'll give you an example ... upon waking up in bed this morning I had the experience of a flood of negativity rushing into the body. Worries about the day, fears and inner considerings about certain encounters I was bound to have, and in short, everything which made me feel like going back to sleep was the 'best case scenario.' Still, the wish to be responsible, and to be of service was active in me; I was aware of its presence. At times in the past, this just wasn't enough to move the body, the shake the negativity. I would have gone back to sleep (literaly and spiritualy) only to awaken some time later when the responsibilities of my day were no longer avoidable. With effort, however, beginning with intentional preparing the night before to 'meet' myself upon awakening, the so-called 'resistance' of the body is greatly reduced, and my wish to be is able to become the active force, instead of being passive to the fear. As my Work continues (with the practice of self-remembering ( intentional 'meetings') and self-observation at the expense of daydreams and fantasies of my self-image, work with sensation, etc.), the resistances I had previously experienced as residing in the body become less a factor as I strengthen my connection to wish and aim. I say 'substance' because in those moments of pushing against the latency, I have the very real experience of a 'fluid' or some type of material moving in the respective limbs and actually mobilizing my body, not in the way which my body usually moves, that is, of it's own accord (or according to some force outside itself), but from within. It has been my experience that the presence of this substance increases according to my sincerity of aim and purpose, and with sensation of my body.
anart:
--- Quote from: Nightmajic on December 12, 2008, 03:06:50 AM ---Thanks, Pinkerton ... I'll make its use a priority.
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That would be great.
--- Quote from: nm ---Pepperfritz~ I'll give you an example ... upon waking up in bed this morning I had the experience of a flood of negativity rushing into the body. Worries about the day, fears and inner considerings about certain encounters I was bound to have, and in short, everything which made me feel like going back to sleep was the 'best case scenario.' Still, the wish to be responsible, and to be of service was active in me; I was aware of its presence. At times in the past, this just wasn't enough to move the body, the shake the negativity. I would have gone back to sleep (literaly and spiritualy) only to awaken some time later when the responsibilities of my day were no longer avoidable. With effort, however, beginning with intentional preparing the night before to 'meet' myself upon awakening, the so-called 'resistance' of the body is greatly reduced, and my wish to be is able to become the active force, instead of being passive to the fear. As my Work continues (with the practice of self-remembering ( intentional 'meetings') and self-observation at the expense of daydreams and fantasies of my self-image, work with sensation, etc.), the resistances I had previously experienced as residing in the body become less a factor as I strengthen my connection to wish and aim.
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At this point, you are describing 'remembering yourself' and being conscious, as opposed to being 'acted upon'. You are speaking of developing an ability to recognize that there is more than one part of you, and choosing with which part you will align. This is discussed - in depth - on this forum. I really would like to ask you, again, to please read more and post less. No offense is intended by that, it is just that as you go full steam ahead posting whatever it is that crosses your mind, you are using the energy and attention of others, thus taking instead of contributing, since these things have been discussed already.
--- Quote from: nm --- I say 'substance' because in those moments of pushing against the latency, I have the very real experience of a 'fluid' or some time of material moving in the respective limbs and actually moving my body, not in the way which my body usually moves, that is, of it's own accord (or according to some force outside itself).
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And here is where you move off into the subjective; likely due to your apparent identification with what we refer to as 'being speshul' - with 'magic' and some mystical force - when the objective fact of the matter is that it is merely the NORMAL function of man. Humanity lives in an abnormal state, and as we begin to awaken, we begin to access our natural state - it is not something separate from us or from another world acting 'of its own accord' - it is the natural, conscious function of a normal human being. It is awakening and it is Work.
From what you've posted thus far, you seem quite identified with all that is 'magic' and sparkly and shiny and all that might make you 'special' - 'special' knowledge, 'special' abilities, 'special' experiences - when all of this is distraction.
Glad to hear you will be making a priority of using the search function - there is an enormous amount of material here, so please take the time necessary to read it.
Heimdallr:
Nightmajic, I think you'd do well to stop thinking you are doing anything other than fooling yourself about this supposed substance, as well as writing about it as though it were anything besides self-deception intended to prop up your self-importance.
Nightmajic:
anart/pinkerton~ I simply disagree with you. What you call distraction, I call a question. You see reality through filters just like the rest of us, and as such, will always see in my posts what seems to validate your prejudice and internal representations of reality. It is not my intent to distract your energy but if you are, for some reason, finding yourself distracted, then I will simply refrain from posting until I have managed to conform myself to your requirements for participation. My only suggestion would be to go back over the very few posts I have made leaving your own subjectivity and distrust aside to see that perhaps, I too am striving to come from a sincere place, which is my own experience.
Again, sorry to have been a distraction, I will go and read the Wave and see you all again in the near future.
anart:
--- Quote from: Nightmajic on December 12, 2008, 03:29:48 AM ---anart/pinkerton~ I simply disagree with you. What you call distraction, I call a question.
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Can you not see that you have turned your 'question' into an obsession? You are identified with it - you are it, for all intents and purposes. Your defense of it in this post speaks volumes.
--- Quote from: nm --- You see reality through filters just like the rest of us, and as such, will always see in my posts what seems to validate your prejudice and internal representations of reality.
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Unfortunately, you are mistaken. The contents of your posts are very, very clear. It has absolutely nothing to do with 'prejudice' or 'internal representations of reality' - it has to do with reading your words. You cannot See yourself, nightmajic (this is not at all unusual, by the way!).
--- Quote from: =nm --- It is not my intent to distract your energy but if you are, for some reason, finding yourself distracted, then I will simply refrain from posting until I have managed to conform myself to your requirements for participation.
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You have missed the point. It is a matter of external consideration. You are familiar with external consideration, being a student of Gurdjieff, are you not?
--- Quote from: nm ---My only suggestion would be to go back over the very few posts I have made leaving your own subjectivity and distrust aside to see that perhaps, I too am striving to come from a sincere place, which is my own experience.
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Again, it is your identification that reads any of this as 'distrust' - you have mentioned 'magic', in one form or another, in almost every single post you have written. You have written as if you have 'special knowledge' and experience 'special things' - and when you have that pointed out to you, you get defensive - this could not be more clear. You cannot see yourself objectively, thus you accuse others of subjectivity.
--- Quote from: nm ---Again, sorry to have been a distraction, I will go and read the Wave and see you all again in the near future.
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I don't think you have been a distraction. I think you came here expecting to 'impress' and expecting what you did not find and it has frustrated you a bit. Instead of sincerely considering that the truth has been presented to you in a very small mirror, you turn and accuse those attempting to help you of subjectivity and distrust. No offense has been intended at all, it is just that you jumped into the deep end and are being held accountable for what you write.
Perhaps at some point you will be more willing to consider that you do not see yourself at all. Perhaps not. It is, of course, up to you and there is objectively nothing wrong with you deciding this forum is 'not for you'.
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