I listened to the dvd for the first time in a couple of months on Sunday. I wanted take a break whilst processing issues that have come up since my previous EE sessions and reading the Wave series, and to see how I felt by not doing EE, just trying to form my own judgements of the merits again by experience. I know now that EE is very beneficial for me, but rather than practising it on a 'timescale' - certain time / day; I am finding that it may work better for me on a more intuitive rather than regimented basis.
As for the session, I felt initially teary during three stage breathing and beatha, but relaxed into it. During the beatha I started to cry and saw comets hitting the earth only see it change to sperms attracted to an egg, and I felt acceptance and gratitude thereafter. Slept soundly - which is something I didn't do during my period of EE absence.
"I went through a bit of a rocky start by doing too much too quickly, instead of adhering to the suggested regimen. I recognize now that this sort of obsessive overdoing of a thing is a product of an unfounded feeling of inadequacy, a defect in thinking that generates fears of being hopelessly behind, that I must catch up, etcetera, that has dogged me my entire life. I credit EE for my being able to achieve this small but helpful introspective observation
." Patrick April 20th
My experiences have been very similar to yours Patrick, initially when practising EE about 6 months ago, and I am still learning to proceed at my own pace. I experimented recently by only doing the PoTS, with no breath work, and I observed myself getting more stressed and feeling less protected. There is so much knowledge on this forum and the recommended reading material, I have felt panicky sometimes that I am constantly playing 'catch up', but EE helps me to grow in spirit, shed emotional toxins and feel at peace with myself. I too have felt inadequate my entire life, never quite fitting in, but I cannot reiterate how beneficial the Prayer of the Soul is to me now in particular. It truly resonates deeply. Glad you are getting significant observations too.
I recited the PoTS to my girls (14, 12) a couple of months ago. I have shared care of them and we always have some quiet time before they go to bed. They love PoTS too and learned it easier than me
, and we take turns reciting it just before bedtime now. When sometimes I struggle with the probabilities / possibilities I am learning about, and in particular how it relates to my children, just knowing that they have chosen to say the PoTS and we can talk more easily about spiritual matters, means so much to me. Thanks again to all of you for EE.