Hey, thanks for the feedback all
Obyvatel, I do have a semi-consistent schedule - meditating a half hour to an hour with EE mixed in either in the morning or at night 3-4 nights a week. I've actually noticed it's much harder to meditate in the mornings, and reach the same level of non-anticipation/focus/awareness as I do at night. I was wondering if it had something to do with how my centers were being plundered. Similar to how a water bucket with a hole on the side of it rapidly gushes out water initially, then reduces as the water line matches the hole's position. Maybe my sex center energy, which is plundered a lot by my mental center, has much more energy in the morning and gushes out through the leaks in my machine, but does so in a way that's much easier to control later in the day (since most of it is spent already by then)?
My mind can never seem to shut up earlier in the day, hehe.
Kenlee, thanks for you input - the whole "being obsessed and fixed on a temporal state of being" makes a lot of sense... as long as the blissful state is not harmful in itself I'm at peace with it (which is what my main concern was).
It appears you have already had some practical results from your work as you've written above. So tangible results can provide a benchmark for how effective your practice is. G.'s activities were about continuously improving the quality of human beings. Are you becoming more able to serve others in your everyday life? Are you a better friend and a better son? Are you a better member of your workplace?
The soul needs nourishment just as the body does, and imo, might "enjoy" feeling nourished. It only becomes a problem when that pleasure becomes something that disengages you from the responsibilities of 3D life. You already seem to be aware of that.
For your questions I would say yes, I have been a better servant, friend, son, and worker. But I can't say that's been due to meditation entirely. It has more to do with my attempts at considering circumstances over internal conditions, and related conscious efforts. The boons in energy I feel from meditation don't often last beyond 24 hours unless I'm at a retreat where stimulation is low. In terms of being an active force, everyday self-remembering often does the majority of heavy lifting. But like I mentioned initially, as a way to cut out wasteful pursuit of physical, emotional, and mental desires it serves me strongly.