Buzzing Vibrating in my brain

[maxim.m]

Have you ever been a parent, maxim.m?

Yes, I have 2 daughters, 11 years old and 2.5 years old.

I see, so you're using us for your own pleasure.

Everything can be a lesson. Thanks.

maxim.m, do you work for a living? I'm asking because 24 hour a day dedication to whatever it is you're talking about isn't realistically going to serve others in a world where most people are busy raising families and earning money.

I work as software engeneer during 20+ years. I serve to my company, do what is asked.

Ok, so what are the results? How does this calm cold wind blowing around inside your head reflect positively in your real-life interactions with the real world?
Are you financially independent? Are you able to support others financially or materially? Have you published any works? What are your accomplishments?
Because I'm afraid that if you have nothing to show for your 'method' then it is just a subjective narrative your System 1 dreamed up to protect your ego from your deep insecurities. You think you are in a position to teach and yet your 'students' can't understand you.

It came to normalization of interactions.
Cold wind to nothing to it, it just feeds me with some additional energy and heals me a little.
Yes, I am financially independent. I do support my family.
I do not have published works.
I had some investigation on field artifactial intellect, and some investigation on the part how human mind is working/programmed. Last 1.5 years was part of it.
As software engeneer/architect I created 1000s pages of different technical documents.
There are no teachers, only students and knowledge provided.

[maxim.m]

Hi maxim.m
Perhaps I'm wrong but it sounds like you want to avoid and block human feelings.
I wonder if you have read "In search of the miraculous"??

   Indeed. I think the C's comment in reference to Art of Living quoted by Turgon here

   Overcoming emotions so that one is not affected by what is out there and inside is little more than becoming an automaton.

  may be applicable in the case of maxim.m.
     

Thanks, good comments.
But I really think blocking doesn't work at all. It simply cannot work, because of repetitive nature of thinking patterns when there are some unsolved problems. It will appear again and again.
I do detect/release some dreaming/imagination with me in action (fixing future)
I do detect attempts to motivate others and change it to some neutral form or let free will of others expirience what they want to expirience.
That is all.
I do medidate (as separated from real life process) very seldom. Ordinary it takes 10-15 minutes to release blocks of physical body and lets energy flow through the body and mind.

[Laura]

He who is not angry when there is just cause for anger is immoral. Why? Because anger looks to the good of justice. And if you can live amid injustice without anger, you are immoral as well as unjust." -- St. Thomas Aquinas

[Richard]

From Bringers of the Dawn

It's not that you don't know how to feel, it's that you are afraid of your feelings. You don't know what to
do with them when you have them. They bring up a sense of powerlessness within you, so you associate
feeling with a sense of, "Oh, no, I blew it." You have a boundary in your belief system that states that
when something comes up that is emotional and brings pain or anger, then it is not good. It is time to
stop tiptoeing around things and avoiding your emotions.

Anger serves a purpose. All of you want to get finished with it: you want to sweep it under the rug and
act as if it is no good. You act like it is rotten vegetables, throw it out, and bury it in the back garden as
if there is no purpose to it. We are emphasizing that there is a purpose to fear and a purpose to anger. If
you would allow yourselves to express and experience your fears, which might lead to the expression of
your anger, you would learn something. Those of you who want desperately to avoid fear and anger, and
who are really afraid of these feelings, have something great to learn through these emotions. They are
techniques that move you beyond your personal boundaries of identity and behavior, and you are simply
afraid to experience this.

Most of the time, all you want is to be accepted. You feel that no one will like you if you do certain
things or feel certain ways, so you don't give yourself permission to have those certain feelings. That is
where the anger comes from. You have anger because you make judgments about what you can and
cannot do. If you do not give yourself permission to feel, you cannot learn. Feeling connects you with
life.

Feelings serve a variety of purposes in human beings. We encourage all of you to please trust and
cultivate and rely on your feelings. Understand that your feelings are your ticket to ride into
multidimensional realities, where you must go if you are seriously playing this game. In
multidimensional realities, you learn to hold and focus many different versions of yourself at once.
Feelings can take you to these places, particularly feelings that you trust. Many of you are very
suspicious and masterful over your feelings. You will not allow certain feelings to come forward, or you
judge them when they come up instead of observing where they take you or what they do for you.
Because you have a fear of something, you keep yourself from experiencing it because you put up a wall
that says, "If I go there, it is bad." You put the brakes on. In actuality, your fear will eventually energize
the experience into your realm of development because all thought is drawn into form based on the
emotional influence behind it. So sometimes the greatest thing to do is to simply say, "What the heck, I
will go there. I surrender." Then deal with being there and don't worry about being centered while you
are in your feeling center. If you intend to go into your feeling center and always be in control, you are
not giving yourself the range of movement that is needed to ride the emotions that knock down
boundaries and belief systems.

Anger has its purpose. Anger is not purposeless and pain is not purposeless. They all lead you to
something. You can make an intention to go into your feeling center and learn how to be centered there
while you explore the opportunities. If you say, "I am going to be centered there," it sounds as if you
won't allow yourself any movement within it. Instead, just intend to have a centeredness. A centeredness
does not mean that things don't fluctuate; it means that you allow things to fluctuate. Whether a boat is
ready to tip over or is in calm water, you allow it. You ride it, then you get out of the event either a calm
ride or a rough ride. Your emotions are not just food for others, they are food for the self. This is how
you nourish yourself and create your identity. This is your identity as frequency through your emotions.
Emotions feed you and feed your call letters into existence.

You are going to deal with each of your boundaries, simply because that is what you do not want to do.
You would love to say, "Golden stardust, eliminate all that has limited me. Boom! I am free!" Ideally, it
would be so simple. That is a classic example of wanting to recircuit and bypass the feeling center. You
have certain emotional beliefs or feelings that assist in making these boundaries outside of yourself, so
when you break a boundary, you have to deal with the emotion that put the boundary there in the first
place. Through your emotional body you are connected to your spiritual body. You may want to bypass
something that is difficult, yet you have to feel your way through it.

You want to sweep difficult things under the rug and say, "I don't want to do these," when the difficult
things are your gemstones. Even if you discover you have 101,000 boundaries, do not feel frustrated.
Simply say, "This is interesting." Look at the boundaries you have set up and, instead of swearing at
them, simply observe them and see if you can discover how they came about. See what purpose they
served-what grocery store you shopped in when you bought those items.

As soon as you acknowledge and recognize and are willing to release something, it moves. When you
cling or have fear or think, "I like that boundary; that serves me very well," then you limit yourself.
You must learn to love your emotions. As long as you describe something as difficult, you are making it
difficult. No one else is. You are resisting and judging the changes coming about. You are feeling that
you do not know what is going on, and you wish to be in control. Control is something very convenient
and very handy. It must be applied at the right place at the right time, like super glue. Super glue in the
wrong place doesn't do much good. Did you ever super glue your hands or lips together? You must learn
to exercise control in the way you use super glue. If you screw up with super glue, you get stuck and you
can't do anything. Control is the same way: you get stuck with it, and it sticks you to something that you
don't need to be stuck to. You must be very selective about what you decide to control or not control.
The old human pattern, or the paradigm that exists, says, "You must be in control."

You, as members of the Family of Light, are having an awakening. You need your emotions. You must
become friends with your emotions because, through feelings, you can climb the ladder to the
multidimensional self and the twelve-chakra system and explore what you discover. Through feelings,
you can tell if something is going on or not. The logical mind will disinvolve itself when something is
going on if the body is not plugged into feeling. Feeling registers frequency change. Logical mind does
not register frequency change.

You are experiencing an awakening of frequency change. You are being led to change many portions of
your life and to give up many things. Don't resist the changes and feel out of control because you don't
know what is coming and it appears that your emotions are getting in your way. Your emotions are
simply wanting to show you something; you don't like it because you think your emotions are interfering
or will embarrass you.

Get clever. Next time you come into one of these emotional situations, say to yourself immediately,
"Alright, I know what is going on; I'm not getting caught in this one. I know there is something here for
me to learn, and something for me to change. I believe that I am guided and that I am following a
blueprint, so I will check out what is in this for me by not judging it and by going with the flow. I
request that all my changes come in joy and safety and harmony. That is my decree. Everything in my
evolution I am intending is covered by that: I experience joy and safety and harmony. So I will go with
this energy and see what is changing for me and what I need to give up."

There's more but I'm sure you get the picture.

[alkhemst]

An enlightening quote for me, thanks! I find it revealing how the word "emotion" describes energy in motion (e-motion). So opposite i guess is "demotion" or other words to describe this might be blocked, frozen, stagnant etc. If we are blocked with our own unexpressed or frozen emotions, it makes sense our sensitivity to emotions of others is limited (because we are full with our own). Anyway that's just how I visualize it.

[truth seeker]

That was right on time for me Richard. Thanks.

An enlightening quote for me, thanks! I find it revealing how the word "emotion" describes energy in motion (e-motion). So opposite i guess is "demotion" or other words to describe this might be blocked, frozen, stagnant etc. If we are blocked with our own unexpressed or frozen emotions, it makes sense our sensitivity to emotions of others is limited (because we are full with our own). Anyway that's just how I visualize it.

Perhaps one way to view it is that being blocked/frozen/stagnant is another way of believing lies/living in illusion. Anytime we do this, not only are we effectively prevented from objectively seeing ourselves, but others as well or so I think.

[alkhemst]

Perhaps one way to view it is that being blocked/frozen/stagnant is another way of believing lies/living in illusion. Anytime we do this, not only are we effectively prevented from objectively seeing ourselves, but others as well or so I think.

I think you're right Truth Seeker, maybe those frozen emotions survive because we've developed a whole heap of responses aimed at denying their existence in ourselves. So whenever they come close to being realised, we switch to protection mode, and start running our programs. I guess every time that happens, we get more and more convinced by our own lies, because they become more ingrained in us, and we invested in them. And because life, as it does brings up just the experiences we need to upsurge our denials, we either look at the reality that's facing us, or dig our self "protection" programs even deeper, thereby making it harder and more painful to see truth in the future. But I suppose eventually, as pain is a feeling itself, and because its going to just build up when we avoid it, there's only so long we can block it before having to feel something real.

Anyway, I'm only in the process of putting two and two together, so if it's obvious, apologies - the above is more about me collating my thoughts on this subject. But if you think it's off track, do let me know, thanks!

[truth seeker]

I think you're right Truth Seeker, maybe those frozen emotions survive because we've developed a whole heap of responses aimed at denying their existence in ourselves. So whenever they come close to being realised, we switch to protection mode, and start running our programs. I guess every time that happens, we get more and more convinced by our own lies, because they become more ingrained in us, and we invested in them. And because life, as it does brings up just the experiences we need to upsurge our denials, we either look at the reality that's facing us, or dig our self "protection" programs even deeper, thereby making it harder and more painful to see truth in the future. But I suppose eventually, as pain is a feeling itself, and because its going to just build up when we avoid it, there's only so long we can block it before having to feel something real.

Anyway, I'm only in the process of putting two and two together, so if it's obvious, apologies - the above is more about me collating my thoughts on this subject. But if you think it's off track, do let me know, thanks!

Sounds about right to me.

The only thing I'd add is that unfortunately, I've seen people who have managed to live out their entire lives never facing the truth about anything or at least, very little. Their entire life is one of pain and denial. Perhaps the current and upcoming changes will force a recognition that many will be unable to navigate. A case of too much too soon.

That's why it's so great that we have the opportunity here to deal with and release our traumas little by little so that we aren't completely overwhelmed. While it can feel as if it's too much to take when we are mirrored or have to do what it doesn't 'like', I think it's really the safest and most effective way of detoxing - releasing lies we are holding onto in the form of foods that aren't optimal, disinformation, trauma, etc. Each time we choose to face truth without blinking, in all it's forms, we are incrementally healed and hopefully gain the strength to face the next challenge.

[Denis]

I think you're right Truth Seeker, maybe those frozen emotions survive because we've developed a whole heap of responses aimed at denying their existence in ourselves. So whenever they come close to being realised, we switch to protection mode, and start running our programs. I guess every time that happens, we get more and more convinced by our own lies, because they become more ingrained in us, and we invested in them. And because life, as it does brings up just the experiences we need to upsurge our denials, we either look at the reality that's facing us, or dig our self "protection" programs even deeper, thereby making it harder and more painful to see truth in the future. But I suppose eventually, as pain is a feeling itself, and because its going to just build up when we avoid it, there's only so long we can block it before having to feel something real.

Anyway, I'm only in the process of putting two and two together, so if it's obvious, apologies - the above is more about me collating my thoughts on this subject. But if you think it's off track, do let me know, thanks!

Sounds about right to me.

The only thing I'd add is that unfortunately, I've seen people who have managed to live out their entire lives never facing the truth about anything or at least, very little. Their entire life is one of pain and denial. Perhaps the current and upcoming changes will force a recognition that many will be unable to navigate. A case of too much too soon.

That's why it's so great that we have the opportunity here to deal with and release our traumas little by little so that we aren't completely overwhelmed. While it can feel as if it's too much to take when we are mirrored or have to do what it doesn't 'like', I think it's really the safest and most effective way of detoxing - releasing lies we are holding onto in the form of foods that aren't optimal, disinformation, trauma, etc. Each time we choose to face truth without blinking, in all it's forms, we are incrementally healed and hopefully gain the strength to face the next challenge.

This is sooo TRUE! The truth sets us free, and unless we don't realize this (learn to be honest with ourselves) we will only prolong our own suffering and maybe that of others, until we finally GET IT! After all, wherever you are you carry yourself with you (and the less you lie to yourself, the lighter you are- oh! and more fluid). Of course, this is only the first step in personal development (acknowledging and recognizing our own limitations), b/c the real work is out there in the field where we put the words we speak into actions (I humbly admit that I am still struggling with this, cos at times I can really be a talker- instead of more being a walker, so to speak   )

Yep, truth sets you free, but it carries with it another kind of "burden": RESPONSIBILITY. And only those with conscience are brave enough to accept personal responsibility.

[maxim.m]

Thanks, Richard

After reading Ra material, i got intuitive idea, that all mental constructs within mind reflected on some level of emotional/physical body is some form. It can be in the form of blockage. There are thousands of it. Removing it lets energy flow freely through body. I formed intention to verify this idea and selected a method.
Maybe it is not so efficient as letting

those of you who want desperately to avoid fear and anger, and
who are really afraid of these feelings, have something great to learn through these emotions. They are
techniques that move you beyond your personal boundaries of identity and behavior, and you are simply
afraid to experience this.

All vibration I got last 1.5 years was my feelings to real life situations. I did concentration on it, tried to remember its pain to reproduce it again and again. It is energetic method to release block.
But best way to remove it is expirience it through real life situations. Come through the fear. Detecting thought forms helps to plan this expirience.
In the beginning my "blue print" was "non-acceptance". There were 2 primary cases. First - I belived that what is suggested to me is simply "wrong"/"no need". Second - I feared to expririence what is suggested. I accepted both. First was lesson to serve and examine results, second - come through fear.
When most fears were removed I changed a tactic. To many suggestions I simply replied "no" without any explanation and motivation. It did effect close to anger, but without energy release.
On later stages "removing anger" and "do not motivation" of others helps them to unblock themself and express their will and me to face to new situations.

[alkhemst]

The only thing I'd add is that unfortunately, I've seen people who have managed to live out their entire lives never facing the truth about anything or at least, very little. Their entire life is one of pain and denial. Perhaps the current and upcoming changes will force a recognition that many will be unable to navigate. A case of too much too soon.

That's why it's so great that we have the opportunity here to deal with and release our traumas little by little so that we aren't completely overwhelmed. While it can feel as if it's too much to take when we are mirrored or have to do what it doesn't 'like', I think it's really the safest and most effective way of detoxing - releasing lies we are holding onto in the form of foods that aren't optimal, disinformation, trauma, etc. Each time we choose to face truth without blinking, in all it's forms, we are incrementally healed and hopefully gain the strength to face the next challenge.

I agree, collectively there's so much denial in humanity and with the coming changes (or came changes), those in the most denial, will no doubt face the reality behind what's denied very directly. Perhaps it's set to be a time of real growth or at least it's a real opportunity for us as whole. But you're right Truth Seeker, the incremental approach is much more rapid, being as open as we can to the reality of ourselves and the world right now and at every moment, just makes us that much more capable to face whatever changes occur, and we grow in tune with them.

This is sooo TRUE! The truth sets us free, and unless we don't realize this (learn to be honest with ourselves) we will only prolong our own suffering and maybe that of others, until we finally GET IT! After all, wherever you are you carry yourself with you (and the less you lie to yourself, the lighter you are- oh! and more fluid). Of course, this is only the first step in personal development (acknowledging and recognizing our own limitations), b/c the real work is out there in the field where we put the words we speak into actions (I humbly admit that I am still struggling with this, cos at times I can really be a talker- instead of more being a walker, so to speak   )

Yep, truth sets you free, but it carries with it another kind of "burden": RESPONSIBILITY. And only those with conscience are brave enough to accept personal responsibility.

For sure Denis, I reckon it's a natural consequence of learning to want to do things based on what we learn. Reminds me of a quote from the Bible:

"But be doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving yourselves. For if anyone is a hearer of the word and not a doer, he is like a man who looks intently at his natural face in a mirror. For he looks at himself and goes away and at once forgets what he was like. But the one who looks into the perfect law, the law of liberty, and perseveres, being no hearer who forgets but a doer who acts, he will be blessed in his doing." (James 1:22-25)

I myself have walked away from my own mirror often, afraid of acting on it, never did me much good

Thanks, Richard

After reading Ra material, i got intuitive idea, that all mental constructs within mind reflected on some level of emotional/physical body is some form. It can be in the form of blockage. There are thousands of it. Removing it lets energy flow freely through body. I formed intention to verify this idea and selected a method.
Maybe it is not so efficient as letting

those of you who want desperately to avoid fear and anger, and
who are really afraid of these feelings, have something great to learn through these emotions. They are
techniques that move you beyond your personal boundaries of identity and behavior, and you are simply
afraid to experience this.

All vibration I got last 1.5 years was my feelings to real life situations. I did concentration on it, tried to remember its pain to reproduce it again and again. It is energetic method to release block.
But best way to remove it is expirience it through real life situations. Come through the fear. Detecting thought forms helps to plan this expirience.
In the beginning my "blue print" was "non-acceptance". There were 2 primary cases. First - I belived that what is suggested to me is simply "wrong"/"no need". Second - I feared to expririence what is suggested. I accepted both. First was lesson to serve and examine results, second - come through fear.
When most fears were removed I changed a tactic. To many suggestions I simply replied "no" without any explanation and motivation. It did effect close to anger, but without energy release.
On later stages "removing anger" and "do not motivation" of others helps them to unblock themself and express their will and me to face to new situations.

I get what you're saying Maxim.m, but I believe others have mentioned the flavour of what you say. It feels dare I say, mechanical like you're constructing a personal methodology / philosophy really geared to avoid something in yourself. Perhaps it's due to the language barrier, but I think when a number of people are saying a similar thing, it's worth considering what's being mirrored. 

[robmartin]

Hi Cheryl, how are you?
After reading your post it dawned on me that i felt a similar occurrence one day while driving home from work. I put it down to being tired, and or just one of those things.
While driving home on this day i immediately noticed tingling in my left temple face region and thought, what was that. The tingling continued for about 30 seconds traveling up my left arm
to my jaw and temple area. This also was a vibrating sensation which at first made me fearful for my health. My first thought was to get home as quickly as possible as not to cause injury to my fellow drivers
all around me. Associated with this vibrating was a dizzy sickly feeling which felt like i was slowly drifting off. I sped home all the while experiencing this tingling vibrating feeling until about a minute later
much to my joy it slowly started to subside slowly.

I made it home and sat quietly for an hour and tried to make sense of it. Not long after had a check up with my doctor, checking my heart amongst other things and still to this day have not experienced anything like that again. My check up was fantastic and all is well but i still question what happened in that 90 seconds of vibrating ,tingling, sickly to almost passing out sensation i experienced.
The most weirdest and scariest feeling i have ever had.
Rob

[Gandalf]

Hi robmartin,

Welcome to our forum. 

We recommend all new members to post an introduction in the Newbies section telling us a bit about themselves, how they found the cass material, and how much of the work here they have read. 

You can have a look through that board to see how others have done it.

[Josh939]

Cheryl. I know exactly what you experienced. I also experienced the same thing. Please contact me over email. (personal details removed for privacy) those people telling you it is your diet are wrong. Thats not it at all. But they never experienced it so thats why they dont understand. I havent read all the pages but after the second page i quit reading bc i figured it was people telling you it was diet. Its almost like an enlightenment when it happened huh?

[truth seeker]

Cheryl. I know exactly what you experienced. I also experienced the same thing. Please contact me over email. (personal details removed for privacy) those people telling you it is your diet are wrong. Thats not it at all. But they never experienced it so thats why they dont understand. I havent read all the pages but after the second page i quit reading bc i figured it was people telling you it was diet. Its almost like an enlightenment when it happened huh?

Hi Josh939,

Just so you're aware, we discourage email communication for the safety of members.

In addition, it'd be great if you could post an intro in the newbies section so that we can get to know you. It doesn't have to be long, just whatever you're comfortable telling us and how you found the forum.