realitybugll
Jedi Council Member
Hi all,
I'm just wondering if anyone has done research on the supposed satanic ritual abuse at Mcmartin preschool (which was proven false at trial). Or, if anyone has any opinions concerning the topic at all.
I don't know much about "Satanic Ritual Abuse" I read the wiki page though. I just recently went over the "Greenbaum" speech a second time. it had a kind of dramatic effect on me emotionally this time around. If what dr. hammand supposes exists, it just makes me very sad :(
basically what interests me in this topic is some strange memories I have at a private pre-school I attended from ages 3-5. I have memories of physical abuse not sexual abuse. I don't necessarily think I'm a victim of satanic ritual abuse but I think it could be possible (low probability). more-so my experience just predisposes me to interested in the topic i think. more likely i was a victim of un-organized child abuse. it's bound to happen in most daycares.
there was this post I composed but never posted it to these forums. I am going to quote some of it below. i didn't mean to make this a personal post, but maybe some of you would like to read it.
Also, I'll just add-- during preschool I didn't have many child-friends. my "friends" were a few teachers and my brother. I didn't make friends my age till I went to kindergarten. I find this reserved behavior correlative with some time of physical abuse if my memories are factual. what I am trying to get at is I don't think I interacted with kids much in preschool. I don't have too memories to begin with however.
I was reading the "Archaeological Investigations of the McMartin Preschool site , Manhattan Beach, California"
_http://whale.to/b/stickel.html
this quote really made me scared
I have these memories of dreams i guess when I was really young under 5 years of age. I would be in this room with this lady with "poisonous skin" and she would hang animal cages on the ceiling.
really unrelated but it really freaked me out and reminded me of this dreams. the "poisonous skin lady" was like a recurring nightmare I had.
I'm just wondering if anyone has done research on the supposed satanic ritual abuse at Mcmartin preschool (which was proven false at trial). Or, if anyone has any opinions concerning the topic at all.
I don't know much about "Satanic Ritual Abuse" I read the wiki page though. I just recently went over the "Greenbaum" speech a second time. it had a kind of dramatic effect on me emotionally this time around. If what dr. hammand supposes exists, it just makes me very sad :(
basically what interests me in this topic is some strange memories I have at a private pre-school I attended from ages 3-5. I have memories of physical abuse not sexual abuse. I don't necessarily think I'm a victim of satanic ritual abuse but I think it could be possible (low probability). more-so my experience just predisposes me to interested in the topic i think. more likely i was a victim of un-organized child abuse. it's bound to happen in most daycares.
there was this post I composed but never posted it to these forums. I am going to quote some of it below. i didn't mean to make this a personal post, but maybe some of you would like to read it.
This happened when I was in pre-school age 4-5 maybe. I have a memory of one of the teachers grabbing my arm, holding me up and then slapping me in front of all the kids, because I had tried to knock down some fort that he had constructed and that we had all been playing in. Then I remember both me and my twin brother, not getting any snack when all the other kids did.
Also I have this memory about nap time. I remember not being able to fall asleep a lot, and making noise. One of the teachers would take me out of the room and lay my stomach over her knee till it hurt really bad, and I would cry. I remember this happening maybe 3 times.
Also once I remember one of the teachers Dan, who I became friends with and have vivid memories about taking me out of the nap room because I was making noise. I was so happy because he was always nice to both me and my brother, and so he didn't give me any punishment, instead we talked about the pictures on the wall. Most of the kids in including me and my brother called him Dan Dan the garbage man. About him, i also remember he would eat the orange peel of an orange because he said it was healthy, and so me and my brother started doing it too.
Dan had all these spiders, and insects that were in one of the rooms for the kids to look at. I remember vividly he had a tarantula. He also had a millipede too, that the kids could hold, and I held it once. about 6 inches long maybe.
Also I remember we went over to Dan's house once. I don't remember the circumstances but I think my mom would have thought it a good idea because we didn't have a father-figure in our life. thing is his house was full of snakes and lizards in these cages. Like all over. He had tons of reptiles in glass boxes. A whole 'zoo' basically. It didn't freak me out though, I thought it was cool. Also interesting is that he had no food at his house. at his house we ate tuna with cheese in the micro-wave.
For what ever reason I remember we only went over to his house that one time, and I was kind of disappointed because I wanted to go back.
Also, I'll just add-- during preschool I didn't have many child-friends. my "friends" were a few teachers and my brother. I didn't make friends my age till I went to kindergarten. I find this reserved behavior correlative with some time of physical abuse if my memories are factual. what I am trying to get at is I don't think I interacted with kids much in preschool. I don't have too memories to begin with however.
I was reading the "Archaeological Investigations of the McMartin Preschool site , Manhattan Beach, California"
_http://whale.to/b/stickel.html
this quote really made me scared
The emphatic correlation of definitive observations for this tunnel entrance feature is especially significant in view of its location: the decision was made to explore this precise area because some of the children had stated that there had been animal cages placed along the wall and they had entered a tunnel under the cages at that point (cf. Langenwalter, et al, 1985: 13).
I have these memories of dreams i guess when I was really young under 5 years of age. I would be in this room with this lady with "poisonous skin" and she would hang animal cages on the ceiling.
really unrelated but it really freaked me out and reminded me of this dreams. the "poisonous skin lady" was like a recurring nightmare I had.