On 6th of January my grandpa died. He was intelligent, kind, workaholic and honest person. He was interesting, experienced and with amazing memory, he knew almost every ancient decasyllabic poem from region of ex Yugoslavia, heroic poems of Kraljević Marko, rhymed decasyllabic fairy tale of Vila Raviola and all kind of Slavic mythology poems and lyrics, all these wonderful things were part of my life, and now everything is gone, because all these wonderfull poems were part of oral history, just some of them are written like Hasanaginica, smaller parts of them my father knows, I know couple of sentences on beginning, and couple of final sentences of 2-3 of them, my grandpa's ability to recite heroic poems for hours was simply unbelievable. I tried to record him, but he was to shy for camcorder, he said to me: you need to love these things, than it's easy to learn it, not to put them on DVD or TV. Well, I loved my grandpa, and his poems, but his brain & memory was out of my league, don't take me wrong, reciting poems for hours was not the only thing my grandpa knew, he showed me how to work with wood, with metal and engines, I'm sure I could and should learn much more from him....,...
Somehow, knowing the facts about life and death and our transitions to 5th density, did help me to cope better with the grandpa's death. But watching him dying was really painfull, he was 94 years old, although living until the very end like he was 60 years old, I know that rapid progression of cancer took grandpa on 5th density after 14 days of trying every possible medical treatment but it did not work, until the last minute he was conscious, and telling to us that LOVE is only thing we need and that we do not have to worry about him, but to care about eachother and love eachother. Yes, that was my grandpa, great in life and great in death.
I thought, OK, life is going further, we managed to cope with death of beloved person, we moved forward, life is going on, but than 5 days ago, we found granpa's cat poisoned, what an ugly feeling, we promissed to grandpa to take care of his pet cat, and we failed....,...
3 Days ago we noticed rodenticide poisoning on my own cat, our vet tried everything to save him, it was history repeating again, watching someone dying on our hands and we were helpless again, what kind of message is universe trying to tell us, I know we'll always be hit on our soft spots, the weakest link will snap, but it's just a bit too much of death in 1 month.
Somehow, knowing the facts about life and death and our transitions to 5th density, did help me to cope better with the grandpa's death. But watching him dying was really painfull, he was 94 years old, although living until the very end like he was 60 years old, I know that rapid progression of cancer took grandpa on 5th density after 14 days of trying every possible medical treatment but it did not work, until the last minute he was conscious, and telling to us that LOVE is only thing we need and that we do not have to worry about him, but to care about eachother and love eachother. Yes, that was my grandpa, great in life and great in death.
I thought, OK, life is going further, we managed to cope with death of beloved person, we moved forward, life is going on, but than 5 days ago, we found granpa's cat poisoned, what an ugly feeling, we promissed to grandpa to take care of his pet cat, and we failed....,...
3 Days ago we noticed rodenticide poisoning on my own cat, our vet tried everything to save him, it was history repeating again, watching someone dying on our hands and we were helpless again, what kind of message is universe trying to tell us, I know we'll always be hit on our soft spots, the weakest link will snap, but it's just a bit too much of death in 1 month.