First of all. . ,
Thank-you all for sharing this latest session.
Second of all. . ,
What the heck? I don't want to distract, so the following is just an observation which I am working with, but I thought it might be useful to share. . .
My position on three major points which I wrote heavily on over the last couple of months have all been either wrong or off.
1. The Jerusalem lights were apparently genuine, and my immediate take was that they were faked and I said so quite firmly. The thing is, I would have been perfectly content to consider them real from the outset. I have no reason to doubt the UFO phenomenon in general, it's just that half a dozen seemingly rational clues for this particular example being a fake leaped out at me. They seemed REALLY obvious, and REALLY "right there in front of everybody's noses". It was only after some deeper attempts to explore and prove my position that I realized something was broken with my "obvious" theory, and so I back-peddled. But the initial "obviousness" of fakery was exceptionally strong in my perception.
2. The Greenland Sun rising early thing. This one doesn't seem quite as bad, because I left it open-ish. But I mistakenly assumed that what I felt to be the least likely of the options, "an atmospheric visual effect" was simply off the table. I don't feel like I was channeling lies or my own thickness or whatever, but the enthusiasm with which I wrote was still strong enough to make me wonder now.
3. The Ghost Rider on the Bridge. I could SEE the shape of a horse and rider in another reflected flaming object. I could draw a horse and rider shape around the shapes of the flames if I wanted so that everybody else could see that it was all a bit of optical reflection. I could see the camera pan and the rider move in sync with the pan. It was again, REALLY obvious. -My take was that the rider was still there nonetheless, and that in spite of the effect appearing optical in nature, it was a generated effect resulting from the camera-person's subconscious interaction with the environment and thus perfectly valid. But now I'm wondering if my eyes were lying again, and that the shape was really an actual rider ghost and not an optical reflection at all?
Basically, I am having a hard time knowing how reliable my own senses and systems of logic are. My ego is, for the large part, disengaged; I welcome correction, and I have no desire to dismiss the idea of fantastic events in the world as having mundane explanations. I just want to sort out truth from lies and see reality. I do admit, I get a thrill from discovering some new thing, and I think perhaps that might be part of my apparent perception problems. I'm working on that; on keeping the "Learning is fun" credo tuned to the correct frequency and not let it become something ego-based and negative. But I think there's more going on. I can't shake the feeling that I'm being toyed with.
This isn't the first time I've experienced this sort of thing with respect to all the work going on here. I feel like every time I sit down at the keyboard, I am shadow boxing with some kind of cloud of misguidance. I understand what some reasons for this might be in a Matrix sense, but I have to say, I feel like it's two steps forward, one step back. For a long time, this feeling prevented me from sharing my thoughts and discoveries here at all, but that seemed like a type of stagnation. I actually consulted some I-Ching cards, and the message boiled down to, "You can achieve nothing sitting still. Trust in your community to make the right choices. It's not all on your shoulders." Etc.
I was writing heavily on double-slit experiments a week ago, and now I wonder if I was serving up poop there as well.
I know the solution is to remain open and to continually question myself; I understand the challenge better each time I face it, and my intention is to continue pushing into the wind and sleet, so I get it. But I did want to share.
I suppose I should also add that this post may also be totally misguided in some manner I can't quite conceive of at the moment.