I learn so much from reading these threads, and am grateful for all those who contribute. I am still playing 'cassiopaea catch up' - you know, the intention is there to contribute, but there are so, so many books, videos, threads to read I mostly end up saving relevent info on my laptop for further reflection etc, as I choose not to have internet at home.
Anyway, I am gradually going through the wave series and other recommended books, trying to have more of a Paleo diet and practice EE, but I just wanted to share my experience of "shadow people".
It has been a couple of months since I awoke sobbing my heart out, after a teary Beatha breathing session, when I 'knew' or perhaps 'thought I knew' I had been subjected to some sort of 'alien' abduction. I was screaming in anger and frustration, but have taken alot of advice on various threads on this Forum - so decided not to have any hypnotic regressive therapy, but accept that it 'may' have occured; if it did so be it; I will concentrate on protecting myself with whatever knowledge I can, so myself (and my children) are less palatable to such potential violations in future.
I assumed that this 'possible' abduction was related to childhood memories of seeing my sleeping form and flying with friends outside :-) but I recently dowsed for some answers (as impartial as I try to be I do take the results with a pinch of salt, but they can be indicative towards Truth) which seemed to suggest it was related to a terrifying incident when, as a young child, I saw this horrible black shape move from the bedroom corner towards my bed. It looked made of fragments of darkness, but had a definate 3D look to it. I just recall cowering under my blanket and being afraid of the dark for some period afterwards. My mum doesn't remember me complaining or mentioning the incident, but I have never forgotten it.
I have watched and read alot of Lauras work, and watched Dr Karla Turner youtube videos, and so have alot more 'closure' of this 'possible' abduction, but it has taken some time to do so.
I still sometimes see small shadowy shapes out of the corner of my eye, but have no fear of the dark now but am vigilant.
Interestingly (perhaps) I had a childrens magic set in the corner of my room, on my toys and games shelf. When I watched Avatar (for the second time) and felt so connected to the indigenous tribe in it, I felt a sense of absolutely intense vunerability later that night - and recited the Prayer of the Soul numerous times until I felt 'safe'. Do you think that 3D/4D STS can perform a sort of 'imprinting' on childrens toys or certain films that may 'open' people up to curiousity or empathy or for just putting fear into children particularly and adults?