Gawan, Truth Seeker, and Ana
Thank you so much for your additional information!
Truth Seeker, WOW, WOW !
Yes, bidding is part and parcel of this. When I read your reply and the detailed section you quoted I just gasped and tears welled up. Wow, this is just so much of what has been going on with me. I am so thankful to you all for taking the time to help and post links and quotes for where the specifics are and to just teach me some of your knowledge.
I have been reading the transcripts continuously since you replied.
I am astonished with how much of your knowledge ties in with what I know or suspected. I have read many other sites and found bits and pieces, I have read so many, many books; again with just bits and pieces that I have had to cross correlate with so many other readings.
When I read about your knowledge of the Ascension Industry, I just had to stop and give thanks and gratitude. This was all told to me by a number of beings.
When I read your alien list identification I was pleased (so to speak) to see the Nephilim listed. When I have talked with others about this, I can count so few to have 1) listened or 2) really understood who and what they are. I would have to disagree with the C’s about their present status. I have met them as 3rd density and as invisible voices. I have seen the Grey’s, upon awakening from the “deadest” sleep with a feeling of unfathomable fear, just pushing and pushing myself to wake up and then seeing them with these drill bit things. I thought they were alive, but other beings kept telling me again and again that they were robots or androids.
I am constantly being harassed into accepting an ascension “deal” where I’m to give up my light in order to go up. I’m constantly being told about how one group or another (and there are so, so many groups and alliances and facets or as they say, joining parties, so much legal jargon) will do this or that…..”For a fee”. I constantly refuse any and all approaches. The more I think about this, the more I read your information, the more I remember from so long ago.
I know that there is an established 3rd and non 3rd density group called “The Commission”. They are a major part of this world’s secret government, a very large, complex group (angels, fae, humans, etc) where souls are traded and will is bid. It took a long time to understand that Angels (above and below, the Djinn of our time) come in pairs, one taking you up or the other taking you down and that they can be quite fond of each other, insult or harm one and the other may take offense.
Ana, thank you for the emotions information. I’m sure that what I will say has already been explained somewhere within this site’s vast information body, but I can explain parts of that as being energy bodies entering within my own energy body. The foreigner bodies will match emotional energy frequencies and then withdraw or perhaps reinforce/compound the emotion/feeling frequency. They have used very elaborate personalities replete with facial look impression and full on foreign thought/thinking processes. This was to tell me that they had possessed me and that my spirit/soul was taken. That did not succeed and so they tried quite a few other attacks. The negatives would talk about how I was now going to die from this or that (often telling me about a heart attack or this or that) and they would withdraw in a very energy draining method, as though my life force had just been drained out of me (a full flush out through the feet, or my side, or somewhere else on my body). They can put a heavy dead energy body into my mind to the point where my vocabulary is so dramatically reduced... To say that they can mess with dreams is such an understatement. I used to have such beautiful dreams, Mandalas of such beauty and complexity, wave after wave, so much understanding…
I recently read Costaneda’s “The Art of Dreaming” and that really helped me to understand what the negatives were about and how they operated, constantly draining energy and awareness. I would wake up so tired, so exhausted from the night, and then go and fight through the day…on and on, day in and day out, night in and night out. Reading your information about how STS operates in the hierarchical energy passing is very similar to the assemblage point information within this same book.
Just your basic breathing technique has really helped me so much. I’m really excited and hopeful again, to quote some of the beings “I renew in you.”, this is great stuff.
Now if I can just patch all these holes… I’m taking bone building and blood building boosters and skin vitamins etc. in an effort to patch the holes and heal these bizarre tiny cysts, these weird age spots that are not age spots and tiny blood blisters. I’m going off on a long vacation for a while to rest, heal and breath.
I’m thinking about taking a laptop with me just so I can keep reading, but I’ve promised myself that I would just stop reading and just try being.
Thank you all again!