Believe me, I am screwed, too, maybe even more than you. My family is totaly broke (no many, no new possibilites), my health is bad, the dearest person in my life passed away recently, and so on, and so on.But, I m still standing. Don t ask me how, I just try to be strong for my children who need me, and I always hope. Perhaps it is stupid, but that s me. The cassiopaean transcripts scare me, but also give me a hope that something good can become from knowledge Cassiopaeans give us. Be strong, my friend, because you are definitive not alone