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QuantumLogic:
Hello all.

I have been reading The Wave series since January, but I am not finished yet (chapter 56). I read somewhat slower than others due to the fact that if I do not understand what I read, I will read it again or even take a break for a day to allow the concepts to "sink in" so to speak.

I have noticed that since I began this quest for truth back in Sept. 2011 after an event that I still to this day cannot put into words, something is happening. It seems as if the farther I go reading the material, the more load I have placed on me in my career. As of late, this workload increase has severely hampered my ability to read all of the material presented here.

My question is did any of you have the same experience, or is it possible I am not seeing this clearly?

In my introduction, I stated I was attempting an experiment with sound/waves/light. This has halted altogether, and is very frustrating. There are several experiments I would like to run, but simply do not have enough "moments". Is it possible that 4D STS was/is/will be intervening to prevent me from continuing The Work, or am I imagining this? I will admit there are days where it seems as if I am just "spinning my wheels", going nowhere, and there must be some objective reason behind this.

My strongest program I have come to realize is frustration. Until recently, I had no idea how much control it had over my life. It has gotten to the point where when unexpected events occur that prevent me from spending time learning, I have to laugh at it, because it does not seem to be coincidence anymore. Something out there wants me frustrated enough to make me say to heck with it and give up- and a few times I almost did. But this must be part of the process of control and manipulation- to overload one so they just give up. I have made the choice to not allow this to happen, but the pressure level increases every time I continue on.

Since I am in the process of reading all of the material, I have refrained from posting here up to this point, since I know many of the answers to my questions are contained within this forum and the publications cited in the serious reader list. But I also know now from reading on this forum that one must participate, so I begin with these questions. I am trying to learn to be patient, and not rush things. If anyone has any suggestions or comments, by all means let me hear them.

By the way- a hearty thanks to all of you here- especially Laura and Ark- for the greatest learning experience of my life. There are many things that have happened over the years that I have questioned but have had no explanation for, and it is because of this place- a beacon of truth- that I have come to understand much about the world and myself.

My journey continues....

Menna:
Its not a race...Take care of your responsibilities and in your free time read information and do things that are related to "The Work" the majority of us will not complete the work in this life time. To be frustrated about not having time to do the work is just going to stress you out making your experience here not enjoyable...Do what you can with the time you have and don't stress. EE will help when you are feeling frustrated

Alana:

--- Quote from: QuantumLogic on June 02, 2012, 06:15:31 PM ---In my introduction, I stated I was attempting an experiment with sound/waves/light. This has halted altogether, and is very frustrating. There are several experiments I would like to run, but simply do not have enough "moments". Is it possible that 4D STS was/is/will be intervening to prevent me from continuing The Work, or am I imagining this? I will admit there are days where it seems as if I am just "spinning my wheels", going nowhere, and there must be some objective reason behind this.
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I think it will be more productive if you focus on what within you is preventing you from doing the work, instead of some outside abstract influence. By focusing on your own patterns of behavior, habits, how you go about your schedule and how you use your time, you might uncover internal resistances to doing the work. This way, you will get to know your self (your machine, as per Work terms) and the more you know your machine, the more control you will have over it, and the less susceptible you will be to external influences :) Does it make sense what I say?


--- Quote from: QuantumLogic ---My strongest program I have come to realize is frustration. Until recently, I had no idea how much control it had over my life. It has gotten to the point where when unexpected events occur that prevent me from spending time learning, I have to laugh at it, because it does not seem to be coincidence anymore. Something out there wants me frustrated enough to make me say to heck with it and give up- and a few times I almost did. But this must be part of the process of control and manipulation- to overload one so they just give up. I have made the choice to not allow this to happen, but the pressure level increases every time I continue on.
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Don't take it personally. The process of control and manipulation has been laid in place for centuries now, and the sole objective is to overwhelm the rest of us (majority of humanity with potential to think and feel) so that we are too exhausted, sick and broken to question, or even do anything of real consequence. Your frustration is understandable, but how does it help? Perhaps Will and determination will help you more at this point? And we build Will by keeping at it, above and beyond our frustrations.

On a practical level, I think that setting up a schedule for yourself or adopt any other time management techniques, will be a good place to start. Maybe all you need is better self-discipline. I also agree with Menna's advice regarding the EE program. Have you tried some pipe breathing when you feel frustrated? Also, the Prayer of the Soul meditation when done regularly, will help you strengthen your attention and focus (among other things) which makes it easier to have less wasted and more productive time in a day. If you haven't already, check out the threads (especially the sticky ones) at the Diet and Health section of this forum. Some diet adjustments and supplementation has worked miracles in many members' mental levels and moods.

As you say, the journey continues, but it doesn't have to be that hard. And the great thing about this place is that we have time tested techniques and tips that make this journey a lot easier. All one has to do is follow them :)

QuantumLogic:
Good points were made by both of you - Thanks! Since I am having this issue consistently, what would be the more helpful course of action? Should I temporarily discontinue reading the Wave for now to read the diet and EE threads, or would it be better to do both concurrently? I know in the end it is ultimately my choice, but most here are far more experienced in this process than I, and it would be both foolish and illogical for me not to listen to their experience and wisdom in this matter.

whitecoast:

--- Quote from: QuantumLogic on June 03, 2012, 03:23:56 AM ---Good points were made by both of you - Thanks! Since I am having this issue consistently, what would be the more helpful course of action? Should I temporarily discontinue reading the Wave for now to read the diet and EE threads, or would it be better to do both concurrently? I know in the end it is ultimately my choice, but most here are far more experienced in this process than I, and it would be both foolish and illogical for me not to listen to their experience and wisdom in this matter.

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Most people read The Wave prior to joining the Forum and find the diet/EE threads from there, in my experience. However, if work and stress is as large an obstacle to your exploration and growth as you say it is, then I think EE and diet reading will be of more immediate practical use to you at this point. :) Best of luck, and hang in there!

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