I ve just finished doing pipe breathing,I was denying myself all day to do anything-pipe breathing,meditation,plain breathing.This denial comes natural from within lately.
Its like that inside me is a program that wants to feel that can succed without an external help.I was always using something to alleviate my suffering.now there is this denial.
I felt to do pipe breathing after I wrote this post.Imediately my breath got deeper and I felt connected with my body.
I just reported the incident to the police,in no way I want to irritate him,he defies the authorities!
I hope that he ll forget but from some facts,I doubt it...
"but you did the best you could with what you knew and felt"
( I m sorry for not inserting quotes,I m writing from my tablet and is difficult to do it)
Whitecoast,if punching that guy holding my key in my fist ,is all that I know,then it is something really to worry about.in addition as I was driving my car before and doing a few pipe breathing,I realized that some part of me was pleased of punching him...ok,maybe is natural to have all these things inside me and now I start recognising them.the really freaky part is that I m realizing that nothing is for granted inside me,in other words reaching sto needs constant and copious efforts.and always in my life until now I ve been doing litle efforts.
"you obviously care enough about S to put yourself between her and disaster"
I m not very sure for this,I do not have much data For my self to admit that it was trully altruistic..
Thank you whitecoast!