Hi scarlet! Thank you for your insight
This experience is an example of what people call "sleep paralysis" even though everyone who sleeps is paralyzed, except for sleepwalkers. I have gotten it too here and there over the years. Doctors are likely to explain SP by saying that your brain is temporarily still releasing a chemical in your body to keep you paralyzed when you sleep. So SP is just a little 'glitch' in the wiring, so to speak, or so my doctors have said. There are many theories, but I tend to think along the same line as what you suggested. My current theory is it must be some sort of 4D STS bleed through, but who can say for sure.
Yeah, every other time the SP was different in that it was very hard to open the eyes and when I did, I could move again. And this specific time I was fully conscious and awake, leaving me with this 'seperation' of body and mind and how consciousness interacts with it all. Very interesting to see that in this event, I was able to witness that I am Not
the mind or body. OSIT
This sounds really scary and reminds me of a time all the hair on my arms stood straight up after an episode. It also reminds me of some black misty blob void thing that was floating over me. Your story just sounds so similar, or I think it does anyway. I do not remember ever having similar dreams, so WTH!
Just remember that whatever it is will be going away and that you will be moving soon. Trying to move your big toe might help you come out of it.
Also, writing down all of my experiences has helped. Releasing the info in words and pictures made it so I could work on not replaying the experiences over and over in my mind.
Thanks for the affirmation, it helps to know other people have gone through it too and are rooting' for ya just the same!
The part in bolded, runs through my head too. Dreams and nightmares have a certain flavour to them, almost like they can feel very real but you are aware to a certain extent that it's 'normal' when you sleep.
But there are events that have taken place in my life that have a VERY specific feeling to them. You just 'know'. I sometimes get the feeling that my subconscious 'knows' so much more than it is letting on, regarding these events. Like my conscious memory would not know how to deal with these events, if rembered. Would be interesting in relation to the 'predators mind'. Who knows?
Diet is essential. It's one of the main stumbling blocks in my life. I am just addicted to sugar and Chinese food. Alcohol not so much as I stopped for 3 weeks once and didn't feel that bothered by not drinking, more of
A social thing. Just craved donuts and curry.
Sorry a tad off topic!
Perhaps an experience I had this morning,
May ring a few bells for someone, regarding the flavour of these 'events'
I was sleeping and unconscious but at some point I came to a consious awareness of this terrible, disgusting sensation of very similar energy and fear as my SP episode. I was 'viewing' the the floors and levels of this 'building', where I became chillingly aware that something g was wrong and I was not supposed to be consious of this place.
It wasn't really a 'building, more like the sheer terror of the thought that the inanimate matter of the floors were 'alive'. Now I really can't describe that sensation in words, but the floors had sounds that were feeding off me and my feelings of being 'trapped'. There were things working in these levels that weren't like humans but they were like black blobs of slimy energy. I remember being disgusted at the feeling of being probed by this kind of radiation this place was emitting, kinda like feeling dirty. If you have ever seen a tunnel bore machine and felt weirded out, then this whole 'being' or 'place' stunk of the same stuff.
I totally forgot about all this on awakening but realised that a voice had said to me something that triggered a memory of this 'event'.
No idea what the hell was going on, but thought id share as the energy and flavour was very similar to the high strangeness events of my childhood.