ive had forces against me since i was 2 or 3ish, and i have no idea why.. i even remember a specific attack, i was between 4-6ish i was just sitting down playing, then all of a sudden i fell backward.. and kept falling forever(until it ended) during which i have no idea what happened.. i have a mesoteric friend who said this was when my mind snapped, but idk.. the main reasons i came here was to find knowledge about myself, my past, and my experience.. because im ignorant of such... it seems like my existence is completely now centered, with little conscious memory retrieval.. and i want to know whats wrong with this shell.. before i leave it.. and noone knows the time of their own demise