i did look through search, i didnt find what i was looking for, i was mere trying to start a discussion, but again..lesson learned.. if i sounded butt hurt, it was the tone of the mod.. i reacted inappropriately... at the very least ive been reading topics while logged out, so im not tempted to "go with the flow" and post "unnecessary" already answered questions... it is not for my amusement... to be perfectly forthcoming, i asked slightly selfishly because such a circumstance happened to me! i was by your definitions a psychopath, and around my early 20s i found myself with a conscience.. this was the most difficult period of my life, and i dont want to believe that i still am.. if as was said, all you need to do is keep doing good acts and grit your teeth until the good becomes second nature, then i should not be worried, because that is what i have been doing... i asked because of a self esteem issue.. i have so much to be grateful for in my current life, and if i acquired this all through negative means, what does that make it? (rhetorical).. and further it would mean i have nothing positive to offer...
in any case.. i will curb my unnecessary posting as you have asked... and apologize for making "noise"