Corvus
Dagobah Resident
It was somewhat a hard day at work. Two people died in a night shift in traffic accidents, one died in our hands, other was bicyclist hit by car, and in the shift before man hanged himself. We got a call that the car went of the road. When we got there there was a tractor by the road, and it s driver was down the hill where was the wrecked car and body of the car driver and there was the driver of the tractor trying to give CPR, pushing with one hand on his chest but no breathing in his mouth, the partner was also older and did not know how to give it , so I started CPR and did it for 15 min. until ambulance arrived, but after 5 min. I saw that he was gone because he was not breathing and his legs were blue. Ambulance tried to revive him for an hour but nothing happened. There came his son and was crying when he was pronounced dead and I heard while he was calling on the mobile phone his mother that she was screaming. Paramedic said that there was still a chance for the first 15 min. to reanimate him, and shake my hand for doing good CPR, because that is what gave that chance in their first 15 min., but the question is how much he was there until tractor driver saw him and partner said if we got there 5 min. earlier maybe he would still be alive, but he did not have seat-belt on so his neck probably snaped so I am not so sure. This other paramedic was sad because they could not save him and I remember him when one guy fell from the small cliff so we were carrying his body all together and had a good deal of sweat. You can recognize in a way who has empathy in those kind of situations.
What I observed was somewhat of desensitization among partners and others in this kind of cases, more in a line of being more interested in paperwork, job done, etc.., something I am not so good at because no one shows you anything and older guy knowing even less, but that is maybe also a product of seeing it more often, but I would say probably there is something missing inside.
Through that kind of experiences you start to look at life differently, how life is short and how it can end very quickly, and ask yourself for what I am using my time here for.
What I observed was somewhat of desensitization among partners and others in this kind of cases, more in a line of being more interested in paperwork, job done, etc.., something I am not so good at because no one shows you anything and older guy knowing even less, but that is maybe also a product of seeing it more often, but I would say probably there is something missing inside.
Through that kind of experiences you start to look at life differently, how life is short and how it can end very quickly, and ask yourself for what I am using my time here for.