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What programs have YOU discovered?
Bluestar:
--- Quote from: lux on June 29, 2012, 09:52:15 PM ---I think compulsive behaviors may be symptoms of a hidden trauma. Such behavior as intrusive checking may be associated with feeling of insecurity. Possible to solve the problem rather through deeper discovery of the problem, not superficial changes. Otherwise, trauma will apprise about itself, causing other problems.
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Yes, I do understand that this may be the case. Am almost finished reading the book "In An Unspoken Voice" by Peter A. Levine. This is a wonderful book there is a thread that you can find here. Once finished with this book will start some of the exercises it recommends.
Doing pipe breathing helps and I have not been as compulsive as in the past. Thinking that it may be behavioral patterns as well and what I do is convince myself I did lock the door. I think also worrying is inhereted from parental programming. Also what I have been doing lately is before leaving, run a mental and visual check making sure every thing is turned off before leaving the house. And as I lock the door, say a prayer and ask for protection, which gives some comfort and know I locked the door. Knowing full well that anything can happen and I don't anticipate or expect protection from anything. You know "I'm just askin" :) plus it makes me conscious of my action.
When aware of what I am doing, which is more often than not these days, paying attention like mentioned here;
--- Quote from: lake_george on June 30, 2012, 12:05:46 AM ---it helps me to take extra notice of the sensation of my hands locking the door, or the sensation of turning off the stove.
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does ease any compulsive behavior. The worst is when locking my car door and turning at least twice and hitting the car lock button, just to make sure I did it, even though I know it was done. It is
'just to make sure' kind of thing. Am going to just lock it once and deal with the uncomfortable feeling, trying to see where the feeling occurs in my body. All the while paying attention to those around me. Hard as it is, learning is fun.
The main point of my posting here was to express it as a program and make it forefront on the work I am doing at present and to network into the mix for some insightful feed back. As in the purpose of this thread, making it 'public' so to speak gives it energy enough to maybe expose it for what it is. Thanks for the feed back.
Mariama:
I have lots of programs, but one of them related to this forum is: I always fear the replies of you forum members/lovely people to my posts. So, instead of clicking on 'Show new replies to your posts' I read other posts, preferably in other threads.
I have an urgency program that I managed to resolve a couple of times with the help of EE. Last night, just before doing an EE session, I was thinking of my ex and I started feeling miserable. Then I was thinking how I would really like to talk to his sister, in other words, I was giving in to my emotions. I had to tell myself to just leave it and start the EE session. I really had to fight hard! When I had finished I did not feel the need to call her anymore. Instead, I had a long talk with my children, which was much more constructive.
The other day I was thinking of checking all my valuables in the house in order to see whether they had been stolen by my ex. There was this wave of urgency and panic washing over me. I had to check it that very instant. It couldn't wait. But I forced myself to sit down (and stood up again right away), sat down again and told myself to start pipe breathing and POTS. It only took a few minutes and the sense of urgency and panic was gone.
But I used to do some crazy things when this urgency program was running.
Back to reading this GREAT thread. :)
echo:
Funny, I was reading this thread today and thinking how great it was. :)
Very nice to read how you dealt with your "urgency" program, Mariama. I recognize the same program and I know the feeling of not having given in to sudden urges to do things, how things usually turn out better that way, more "whole" (less enthropy is the word I'm actually thinking). It seems that it is usually better to think beforehand, when there are emotions.
:)
Psalehesost:
The result of getting confused about putting Work concepts in practice:
I've long been avoiding mechanical behavior that I could see is such, in favor of following other impulses that I didn't see as mechanical. I now realized that it is all equally mechanical. And that avoiding the former and engaging in the latter merely means losing the ability to observe myself, in no longer seeing the mechanicalness at play.
And seeing myself is vital to being able to keep in mind, in the moment, which actions go for or against my Aim, and the goals connected to it that I have set. This should be the real basis of judgment - if actions are expedient, watch the machine engage in its work; if detrimental, then exert effort to change track.
Blindly trying to suppress everything identified as mechanical is, in effect, shooting myself in the foot, and as a blind, automatic activity it is in itself a mechanical program.
Carlise:
--- Quote from: Psalehesost on July 31, 2012, 08:48:07 PM ---The result of getting confused about putting Work concepts in practice:
I've long been avoiding mechanical behavior that I could see is such, in favor of following other impulses that I didn't see as mechanical. I now realized that it is all equally mechanical. And that avoiding the former and engaging in the latter merely means losing the ability to observe myself, in no longer seeing the mechanicalness at play.
And seeing myself is vital to being able to keep in mind, in the moment, which actions go for or against my Aim, and the goals connected to it that I have set. This should be the real basis of judgment - if actions are expedient, watch the machine engage in its work; if detrimental, then exert effort to change track.
Blindly trying to suppress everything identified as mechanical is, in effect, shooting myself in the foot, and as a blind, automatic activity it is in itself a mechanical program.
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I agree, this is the only standard by which we should measure our actions. Though it is hard to know 100% of the time whether a given activity would help or hinder us, and it is easy to come up with rationalisations when we let our guard down.
I would have a very hard time defining something I do that is not mechanical, in the way G describes it. Even reading, networking etc could be seen as mechanical, but it is inspired by the face of god that we have consciously chosen, and this is key IMO.
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