This is a great topic!
I remember seeing it before but it wasn't until reading Fragments of an Unknown Teaching
that I started to understand more about what you mean by 'programs' and therefore being able to observe myself in search of these.
I studied a little bit of Psychology and I also did a therapy which consisted in the analysis of myself. That was really helpful for me, because I could see and understand some of my personal issues and their causes. And I love analyzing myself... lol! Yet, this forum and the Gurdjieff's ideas seem to be way more 'eye openers' than what 2 years of psychology and 4 years of therapy were for me.
Just a few days ago, I was on the bus and I started thinking about the 'programs' and for a moment my head started going from one program to another until the point I realized that everything I am is: PROGRAMS, PROGRAMS and more PROGRAMS . LOL
I know, it may sound exaggerated, but, honestly, it was one of those moments in life when you realize something 'big'. The feeling of clarity was extraordinary. I actually started to laugh at myself saying to my self: 'It's unbelievable that all we think we are actually isn't what we really are. Is all programs.' I mean, I had 'conceptually' noticed that before, but I didn't really have the 'experience' of truly understanding it (and maybe I still don't understand it completely). I wanted to get to my computer and write this down at that moment, because, as usually happens for what I have read here, at that moment I had the whole idea very clear and I could identify the programs specifically, but then, my attention was drown to something else and I forgot what I've seen in that moment of clarity.
Fortunately, there is this forum, and this topic.
By reading it I remembered at least the feeling I've got that day. I started taking notes of the programs mentioned by the other members that I could find in myself, and finally the notes where so long that I realized that if was going to mention all the programs I think I have too, I will make a HUGE post that will probably be unreadable. LOL And this is when I remembered the feeling on the bus. It is actually all PROGRAMS so, I probably have almost every single program mentioned by the others.
So... I decided that I'm going to try to keep everything I've read here in my mind for some time and constantly observe myself with all this new information in order to identify the few programs that are the MOST IMPORTANT ones, or, the ones who get to be activated more times and during longer periods of time as well.
I have a clue... Thanks to those years of therapy and the self analysis I tend to do, I think I've spotted a few of the deepest issues within myself. Yet, I do not want to take my assumption for granted, so I still want to re-check before I share them with you. And I guess this is a "try to be perfect and don't make mistakes"
So. I'm sorry that I write without really sharing any programs [this one is another one, I guess... lol] But I just wanted to share this thoughts and tell you that I'll soon be posting about the 'major' programs I find.
Once again, THANK YOU ALL! (for giving me and all the members the opportunity to expand awareness about the self and the reality.)