I pulled back, realizing that here again was a test of discernment: don't get your hopes up too high, don't anticipate, don't indulge in wishful thinking that this might be a reliable source of information, rely only on your personal Intuition, what is "right" to your own powers of discernment.
Later, after reading on the Keylontic Egroups site, I was ashamed of myself for letting an email therein, allegedly on someone's personal life, color my opinion: someone, allegedly a hacker or "reptilian" spreader of disinformation who used another member's name, wrote a mean email along the lines of (all in caps, as I recall), "You people are so full of it. You know the real reason Anna has canceled the rest of her UK trip. It's not because her guidance called her home to work because there is some cosmic disturbance she needs to help Earth with. It is because she has dropped her long-time partner and taken up with another man."
To the egroup's credit, no one, no matter how dismayed about this possibility, said anything, and the post was removed. I have no idea if the "accusation" is true and agree that Anna's personal life is none of my business, although if true, the way one conducts one's personal life can say something about a person's impeccability (at least as "judged" by observers).
Anyway, by this time, you, Laura, had had a chance to consider some of Anna's work, and as I recall, you were at first concerned then intrigued that Anna might be on to something, then concerned again by her "fight fire with fire" comments. (I too have heard that "What we resist, persists," although I have also sometimes wondered if this advice is a way to render ourselves passive and allowing of unbalanced negativity, although "allowing" can be good, too.)
And now last night, I have read the material I mentioned at the start of this long email, and I am impressed again.
Some impressions:
--She seems genuinely humble in tone and in words ("I am very humbled and appreciative to know these teachings and remember who I am." And my paraphrase: "It is not me that is important. The knowledge is.")
--She seems highly knowledgeable about something. Just because I don't understand advanced calculus does not mean advanced calculus does not exist (this latter seems to have been at least in part the mindset of the Inquisition), so my confusion is not necessarily a sign that the material is false. Her system seems to have cohesion to her and to some of her advanced students. If it is delusion, it seems to be consistent and cohesive delusional material that apparently makes "sense" eventually, if you are willing to study hard, according to advanced students who speak up on the Keylontic Science egroups listing. (But how I wish some of the terms did not seem so "silly" to me. I feel like yelling, "language-centrically,": "Speak English, for gosh sake! Translate the Egyptian or inter-dimensionals' language into something I can understand, I beg, if only for the sake of the beginning student.")
In these quotations from the website mentioned at the beginning of this email, Anna speaks for herself:
--"I show the scary stuff, but I also show solutions." (Page 3 of 29)
--"...attempting to pidgeonhole me into a reptilian category...If we were on the reptilian team, we wouldn't be teaching people how to reclaim their personal power...how to be immune to this reptilian manipulation."
--"I am supposedly a reptilian disinformant because I shared my knowledge of Mr. Icke's being set up to be used for potential disinformation." (Page 4 of 29)
--"I am a member of the council of pro-human inter-dimensionals."
--"You consider yourself qualified to invalidate these teachings....Personally I have no attachment to whether you are willing to expand beyond the limited views you now...defend." (Page 8 of 29)
--"...reclaim the freedom that remembering offers."
--"...Mr. Icke is more interested in defending [his] paradigms than in broadening [his] view and expanding [his] understanding--fine, OK with me. I was simply offering options you have yet to [discover]."
--"Reptilian disinformation? You are judging something you know little about. ...Too bad, we could have learned much from discovering where our respective knowings fit together into the big picture." --(Page 9 of 29)
--"Presently, the priority has been to assist in planetary grid mechanics that will help avert a potential earth-changes mess in 2003" [the Wave arrives "early?!"], "that would result via Illuminati manipulation, if intervention by pro-human visitors had not been orchestrated." [The workshops are apparently the second, next priority.]
--"No one is going to 'save the world' but its inhabitants themselves....I can't waste my energies in trying to convince them of what they do not want to learn...my energies are being directed into facing the big issues at hand and helping to offer solutions. As priorities allow, I will offer more information on the Web for people who desire to explore...
--Mr. Icke and Mr. Winter, we ALL have more to learn...too bad you think you know enough about everything to discount valid information that others may have..."
--[Why this] "competition over who knows more rather than cooperation to discern more...
--Mr. Winter asks Ms. Hayes if she has ever considered that she is also being set up and manipulated to provide disinformation? "Of couse, I have examined that possibility in regard to my visitor contact. The difference here is that I REMEMBER the rest of it...I remember where I was and who I was before adopting this incarnation, I remember the motivation...and vividly remember the many AWFUL times when incarnates of the Emerald Order...were literally exterminated on this planet and their teachings of freedom destroyed....I remembered these things before any contact with visitors in this lifetime, and I remember the last time I fully incarnated here to continue assisting with the return of this information to the planet.
--If what the Guardian Alliance Emerald Order taught me was different from my ORGANIC memory, I would have doubted them and trusted my own memory. But everything they have ever taught me fits in with what I remember as a person and as a soul...
--We are introducing healing technologies for the DNA that people can learn to do themselves, bio-field protection mechanics people can learn, and a paradigm of comprehending inter-dimensional reality that far exceeds in detail and coherent content anything else that is presently available in the public arena. And you are now suggesting that THIS is reptilian dis-information? What in YOUR OWN information on DNA [etc.] can be proven as free from reptilian distortion?..." --(Page 1 or 2 of 29)
--"Others are too busy chasing lizards to know about these programs."
--"My job is not about changing people's minds. It is about sharing information as honestly as I can so they may have a greater knowledge base from which to assimilate their opinions....I offer solutions as well as pointing out problems." (Page 16 of 29)
And this, Laura, is the point to which I have gotten in the 29-page printout. (There were many more "good" quotations I could have included here.) As you can see, I have waffled from "impressed" to "embarrassed I fell for it" back to "impressed" again.
I am working to discern more clearly and to be always in alignment with the Truth as best I can discern it, and to serve the highest good of all beingness. I will read further into Anna Hayes' work and into your work. May All That Is bless you. We sure do.