crystalicdream
Padawan Learner
I have posted about him on the forum once before... well, Max, our german shepherd x border collie mix, aged 16 and 9 months, had to be put down on the 4th December, due to cancer that had manifested suddenly. Shortly before, he was very lethargic and refused to eat or drink and this is when we knew it was time.
I think my biggest regret is that I could not see him again. I have been away from my home since July, and this was the last time I have seen him. It still feels surreal that he is gone now, and I won't see him when I return to my hometown.
It has been not that long ago, but it feels like he has been gone for a decade already. But I cannot stop thinking about what his last moments were. I got told that when he was dying, he stared at my mother, as if he suddenly had a realization. I wonder if this was the moment in which he has seen 5th density. Or maybe he had a life review? Maybe he realized things that he hadn't realized before?
I wonder how it is for 2nd density beings, when they die. I know that every life experience has to end and that he has to move on to his next lesson, but it is still hard. I wonder if he knows how much we miss him. I loved him like a brother, like a furry little brother. It was funny to see how he behaved exactly like me and my brother, even if he was not human. But I guess that goes to show how upbringing can shape someone.
He loved to eat snow, and Spekulatius. He never could decide where to rest, and he loved my father so much. When he could still walk, he would come up to me when I was sitting on the toilet, to get a massage. I always liked to show him different things, shared my vanilla icecream with him that was left on a stick. He was afraid of this little Kinder Surprise toy car that was moving on its own when you rolled it on the floor to wind it up, he was always barking at that and often at the mere sight of it in my hands.
I think my biggest regret is that I could not see him again. I have been away from my home since July, and this was the last time I have seen him. It still feels surreal that he is gone now, and I won't see him when I return to my hometown.
It has been not that long ago, but it feels like he has been gone for a decade already. But I cannot stop thinking about what his last moments were. I got told that when he was dying, he stared at my mother, as if he suddenly had a realization. I wonder if this was the moment in which he has seen 5th density. Or maybe he had a life review? Maybe he realized things that he hadn't realized before?
I wonder how it is for 2nd density beings, when they die. I know that every life experience has to end and that he has to move on to his next lesson, but it is still hard. I wonder if he knows how much we miss him. I loved him like a brother, like a furry little brother. It was funny to see how he behaved exactly like me and my brother, even if he was not human. But I guess that goes to show how upbringing can shape someone.
He loved to eat snow, and Spekulatius. He never could decide where to rest, and he loved my father so much. When he could still walk, he would come up to me when I was sitting on the toilet, to get a massage. I always liked to show him different things, shared my vanilla icecream with him that was left on a stick. He was afraid of this little Kinder Surprise toy car that was moving on its own when you rolled it on the floor to wind it up, he was always barking at that and often at the mere sight of it in my hands.
