Hi everyone, these questions have been bothering me a lot, and would really appreciate if you can point me in the right direction. So here they go:
I) How do you GROW? How do you become an adult from being a child?
I'm about to be 20, and I still feel I'm a repressed, full of fear, sad weak kid so I've come to realize I need to really grow, to become responsible of my life - a responsible adult - but feel lost because I'm not sure how to do that, even though after some insistence I managed to visit a therapist but feel like I'm still going nowhere. And from what I can see, my narcissistic family isn't much of help and looks like I won't be able to get myself a place to live in quite some time, honestly only a miracle will make that happen. I feel like a lot of ''tools'', understanding, experiences and skills are lacking in me when I compare to others of a similar age, and it doesn't seem that my parents will be able to teach me those things since they behave like a child too in some ways..I really feel STUCK beyond belief.
So I either wallow in self-pity or start growing.
So How did you GROW? From being a child to an adult.
II) I feel completely lost as to what to do. Finished high school and don't even know whether to continue and if so what career to choose.
The question is, how do you find what your heart's desire is? And how did you do it? If I'm guessing correctly, that can help tremendously, judging from this quote from the C's:
And the other question is: Would you suggest to continue studying and choosing a career? Knowing that it seems that poop is about to hit the fan. The dilemma is thus: to continue studying as if there were much more time or to prepare for the upcoming changes as in learning skills, canning, and being part of a community with people that you trust?
I don't think I can or possible to start doing both things at the same time, mainly because of the limited time it seems we have.
III) How do you manage to keep going in spite of the difficulties of your problems? How do you make yourself stronger? I don't feel I have that kind of fortitude.
IV) Over the years I've been lurking and it seems that people is able to have a full-time job, study the material, applying your knowledge (say canning or doing the keto diet), also reading SOTT and networking on the forum, and have your meetings with friends and family. How in the world is that even possible? I mean, for a year now, all of my waking hours I'm in the house, trying to understand the material and that's the ONLY thing I do and I'm already exhausted. I'm barely able to go on with my life and I'm not close to do all those things. So is it really possible? If so, is there something you know that allows you to do all that stuff? I'd really like to know how you do it.
V) How do you manage to lessen or to not fear aliens or related high strangeness?
I believe that it should be the least of our concerns, assuming that's what Laura means when saying "who needs aliens, when you have psychopaths" yet I still find myself in a lot of fear and can't sleep well when thinking that they can abduct and influence in your life, etc.
I understand that FRV is everything and if you were to have a strong FRV then, I guess, you would be almost immune to them and other things. But really, who has a strong FRV or how can you even tell? Or should you be focusing on resolving your problems and don't care about high strangeness phenomena at all?
If I'm understanding the material correctly, you raise your FRV with your everyday choices based on true knowledge and by having a "STO" nature... which seems like very few people accomplish that and it's even harder knowing that also psychology tells us we deceive ourselves and more, sigh.
Sorry for the wall of text, I tried to write it to the point. Any suggestion is deeply appreciated. Thank you!
I) How do you GROW? How do you become an adult from being a child?
I'm about to be 20, and I still feel I'm a repressed, full of fear, sad weak kid so I've come to realize I need to really grow, to become responsible of my life - a responsible adult - but feel lost because I'm not sure how to do that, even though after some insistence I managed to visit a therapist but feel like I'm still going nowhere. And from what I can see, my narcissistic family isn't much of help and looks like I won't be able to get myself a place to live in quite some time, honestly only a miracle will make that happen. I feel like a lot of ''tools'', understanding, experiences and skills are lacking in me when I compare to others of a similar age, and it doesn't seem that my parents will be able to teach me those things since they behave like a child too in some ways..I really feel STUCK beyond belief.
So I either wallow in self-pity or start growing.
So How did you GROW? From being a child to an adult.
II) I feel completely lost as to what to do. Finished high school and don't even know whether to continue and if so what career to choose.
The question is, how do you find what your heart's desire is? And how did you do it? If I'm guessing correctly, that can help tremendously, judging from this quote from the C's:
http://cassiopaea.org/forum/index.php/topic,21622.0.html"Seek ye first the desire of the heart and all else falls into place."
And the other question is: Would you suggest to continue studying and choosing a career? Knowing that it seems that poop is about to hit the fan. The dilemma is thus: to continue studying as if there were much more time or to prepare for the upcoming changes as in learning skills, canning, and being part of a community with people that you trust?
I don't think I can or possible to start doing both things at the same time, mainly because of the limited time it seems we have.
III) How do you manage to keep going in spite of the difficulties of your problems? How do you make yourself stronger? I don't feel I have that kind of fortitude.
IV) Over the years I've been lurking and it seems that people is able to have a full-time job, study the material, applying your knowledge (say canning or doing the keto diet), also reading SOTT and networking on the forum, and have your meetings with friends and family. How in the world is that even possible? I mean, for a year now, all of my waking hours I'm in the house, trying to understand the material and that's the ONLY thing I do and I'm already exhausted. I'm barely able to go on with my life and I'm not close to do all those things. So is it really possible? If so, is there something you know that allows you to do all that stuff? I'd really like to know how you do it.
V) How do you manage to lessen or to not fear aliens or related high strangeness?
I believe that it should be the least of our concerns, assuming that's what Laura means when saying "who needs aliens, when you have psychopaths" yet I still find myself in a lot of fear and can't sleep well when thinking that they can abduct and influence in your life, etc.
I understand that FRV is everything and if you were to have a strong FRV then, I guess, you would be almost immune to them and other things. But really, who has a strong FRV or how can you even tell? Or should you be focusing on resolving your problems and don't care about high strangeness phenomena at all?
If I'm understanding the material correctly, you raise your FRV with your everyday choices based on true knowledge and by having a "STO" nature... which seems like very few people accomplish that and it's even harder knowing that also psychology tells us we deceive ourselves and more, sigh.
Sorry for the wall of text, I tried to write it to the point. Any suggestion is deeply appreciated. Thank you!