Keit said:seek10 said:Interestingly, one thought keeps popping up is "I am alone" because not many people are talking about it. this has its own effect to the situation.
Panic attacks are a recurring thing in my life. Today they are not as debilitating as in the past, and it is all thanks to the diet and EE.
Good to know that you are able to control it , which raises my hopes.
Exactly SAME Feeling.In my case panic morphed into depression, with a tendency to procrastinate because of lack of motivation. Which in its turn fed further panic attacks. What I noticed that at least in my case the core reason for panic attacks was a feeling that I have no control over some situation in my life, or that the mistakes I made will come to haunt me and that I need to go over everything I did and see if I can fix it somehow. Usually the urge to fix means "now!".
Keit said:You mentioned that it usually happens to you at night and especially when you need to finish an important work. Well, 2am is a very quiet moment, and if you have some heavy thoughts weighting on you, it is a perfect time for all your fears to become activated. Those might be fears of failure, or fear of punishment or condemnation, again lack of control and urge to fix the situation and end the self-torture. In my case, it was part of a vicious circle where my procrastination led me to do everything in the last minute, or not do at all, and then spending sleepless nights being afraid of circumstances.
There is some thing more to it in my case. I feel some tick tick tapping on back of my head and feet. Honestly, It reminds me of upstairs evil magician control mechanism. Of course there is nothing we can do except controlling our faculties. for some reason, this happens at 1 to 3 AM. Some times I keep my mp3 player running with some useful reading. this has positive effect. some time I ignore it and sleep to get blockages. Most of the times, I wake up lazily thinking I need some more sleep. During the waking hours, these tapping happens, when I am relaxed and self observant and in good mood, as if it is reacting to my situation. I started realizing that 'Breath In with Nose , Breath Out with throat' has a positive effect of reducing this panic effect. I hope, I get some handle over this phenomena. POTS has lot of positive effect on this phenomenon. that is why I wake up at that time and do POTS. As long as I doesn't indulge in self pity for sleep reduction and lazily lie to sleep, I think I am doing good.
I started realizing that there is lot of 'FEAR' factors at work and in my personnel life are contributing to this very badly.
Yes , This is a good book. Other day, I was rereading the snakes in suits and felt that what I ever do is useless at my work and slept. This is in the afternoon. I woke up with Intense depression and hopelessness. I forced my self to open the book and read the list of destructive cognitive distortions in thoughts which leaves negative emotional state. The entire depression lifted in 2 minutes. I was amazed at the result. I bought the David Burn's Feeling good book. This is also very good book. techniques are same, but Burn's techniques are much more original I think. burns checklist is very interestingKeit said:Also, in this opportunity I wanted to thank you mentioning "Change Your Thinking" (Cognitive Therapy) book by Sarah Edelman. I am reading it now, and it is very helpful and practical. Do you find it helpful for you too? What is good about this book is that it helps to identify the true reasons for emotional reactions or thought loops. And when you know the true reason, it is easier to find the proper solution.
I will checkup. thank you for taking time and suggesting.Keit said:Also, I would advice you to ask Psyche, or search the forum for the information on supplements that might help you to calm yourself and have better sleep.