Psalehesost, I would like to clarify some things of my point of view...
I think new age is, mainly, a disinformation and manipulation campaign. If we analyze it carefully, we see the ideas that have prevailed and have been extensively disseminated since late '60 - early '70, are "love is the way" and that the "world is in danger but some good and loving aliens will save us". This serve to the purpose of driving the minds of the minimally spiritual inclined people such a way they can not be a menace, making them passive and hesitant of knowing anything disturbing which could face them with the knowing of evil.
I want to explain too why I think what I said in the previous posts:
When I was very very young, around 6 years old, something happened to me. I am not going to explain that story here because it is very complex and I think I can not write it accurately in English. That really impressed me because something I thought was impossible happened. So I started to believe that what I see is not the only thing that exist and that the reality was more complex than the world I knew.
Basically, for some years, my reasoning was something like this:
This world is dangerous, because this reality is "physical". If we don't have knowledge then we don't understand the reality, so we don't know why and how the things happen, and if painful or "bad" things happen to us, we start to seek guilt in others. But the situation is very complex, so before making quick judgements, best stop, try to think carefully and remember what we know "today" is less than what what we will know "tomorrow". Maybe in the future our interpretation of why and how the things happen will be much more accurate than today, so it is better to stay always ready to question everything we think we know, because we, basically, have no idea about anything.
This was mainly because the experience and because my mother did not believe in what I told her had happened to me. I did not put the blame on my mother because I understood that I would not have believed that story either if I was her.
Time after, when I was 15, one night of summer I was sleeping when I wake up. Suddenly my view displaced in a way I can not explain but it was like if it moved forwards. I found myself surrounded by complete darkness, all black, without body and without any kind of mind. I could only contemplate or realize of what it was happening, but I couldn't think in anything. I was like a spot in the most terrible emptiness you could imagine. But "in front" of me, or, it could be better said, in the direction my view had displaced I saw like a window or screen and I was able to feel my senses (vision, hearing and touch) and to listen my mind through this "window". In some moment, I felt through the window an itch on my left leg and I contemplated my mind reasoning that, in order to soothe the itch, the left arm should be moved and the leg had to be scraped with the hand. Then I felt my body doing that. In this moment I realized I was not in control nor my body nor my mind. I realized my mind was like an "automatic pilot" or "software", driven by some complex logic, but purely mechanical. I realized too I had no real power over it because this "software" was in control. But don't know how nor why, I realized (and I had no doubt in that state) that maybe, someday I could influence in some manner this "software" to the point it ended obeying me. And I say "me" because in that state the only "me" I realized was that little spot with no body and no mind into that terrifying emptiness. Then I realized I could not stay much more time in that state because I could die. In that moment, this window approached to me and I merged with it. After that, I stand up, then I sit in the border of the bed and then I went to sleep again.
That terrible but important experience left me very impressed and I felt it was very very important. This moment was a turning point in my life.
After that I had no doubt that the other experience it happened to me when I was 6 years old was true and it was not product of my imagination and I decided I had to find a way to understand what I was and what is the reality.
I started to see this physical reality like a maze or an illusion (as much people have called it before me).
Then, one year after, when I was 16, some day I was thinking about the reason of this kind of material experience and if it could be found a way to get out of the maze. Suddenly I felt a thought: "Of course there is an exit door, you would not have came here without a way out.".
So, I started to think about that. What could be the exit? How to find it? I noticed first I should understand what I am and what is the universe. One night of autumn, I was thinking about all that, when I decided to refocus the problem under analytic view of the programmer, because my father taught me to program when I was 8 years old. My impression was that the design of the universe could be reduced to the design of a computer program. You know, you have information: waves, particles, dimensions, interactions, etc, so it can be emulated in a computer. I tried to take the role of God creating the universe at the very beginning assuming God was alone, without anything but its own thinking ability.
Then I found the first problem: Where to create the universe if there is nothing but me? There is no space, no canvas, no playfield (that would be the universe itself). How can the creator create anything outside its own being?
A very strong feeling started to make me think: "EUREKA! God created the universe in its own mind!";
Oh dude! that was for me like ecstasy... And I quickly tried to create a logical diagram to explore and comprehend this moment of "illumination". What I got is the following philosophical reasoning:
1) Axiom: I exist.
In order to derive conclusions, we need an axiom, a non-questionable starting point. Let this axiom be my own existence, since is the only thing, the only fact I can be 100% sure is true and real. This is unquestionable, it can not be proved mathematically, but it is self-evident.
2) Axiom: I exist and I can observe.
I am a spectator, I observe the phenomena. I feel input: thoughts, vision, audio, etc. So, I am something which can feel other "somethings". This is self-evident too.
3) Deduction: "To be observable" implies "To exist".
I'm sure my existence is real but, what about the existence of what I observe? Are my thoughts real? Are real the EM waves that my brain interpret as colors and forms? Are real the objects which emanate or reflect these waves? It is real the matter I can touch?
Well, I don't know if all that is real because, first: what means "real"? But I'm sure these things exist because they are being perceived and "to be perceived" implies first "to exist". It can be imagination, a dream, an illusion, "solid matter" or whatever, but it IS something.
4) Deduction: There is only 1 Existence, because the Non-Being doesn't exist.
Ok, so I exist and what I observe exist but, do we exist in different existences?
If there are multiple existences this implies that the existences must be separated by something. If existence is "to exist" what thing could exist different to "to exist"?: The non existence, the Non-Being.
But there is no such thing like that, because if the Non-Being exists it never can be Non-Being, non-existence, the simple fact of being would disable its role of non-being. If the Non-Being exists is something, it exists, so it is also Existence.
So the existente is common to everything because everything "is" in the existence. Also everything is existence, because there is nothing different to "The Existence", nothing can separate it in different parts, so there is only 1 existence.
5) Deduction: The Being knows no limits.
The non existence of the Non-Being has enormous implications. First, everything exists, and nothing ceases to exist. Something can not become nothing. So the past has not gone forever, it will exist forever and the future is now, it exists already. There are infinite pasts, infinite nows, infinite futures, infinite universes, realities, etc.
The Existence, not being limited in any way by the Non-Existence, knows no limits, and any imaginable possibility, form, system, combination, experience, etc, exists already. It has no beginning, because it never started to be. There was not anything different to it, and it did not emerge from the Non-Being.
Increated, without origin or beginning, without end.
6) Deduction: You and me are the same.
So, if there is only 1 Existence, if there is only 1 Being, you are me and I am you. Our lives are parallel lives of the same being. Our bodies are "different eyes" of the same "brain". I am not into an universe, all the universes are in me and I am all the universes.
I'm not going to claim I am an illuminated, only another more human being who has made itself, in my opinion, the most important questions.
Before me, as many of you surely know, Parmenides thought essentially the same. This reasoning can be found in the Bhagavad Gītā (a book of the Mahābhārata), in Laṅkāvatāra Sūtra, and in many other ancient texts. Also Pre-Socratic philosophers reasoned about the problem of change related to the Being. And, of course, everybody remembers René Descartes and his axiom "cogito ergo sum".
I have told you this story because maybe you think I am buddhist or I am a new age hippy pasting bullshit.
What I have said in my previous post is not, in my opinion, a foolishness. When I have talked about the Prime Creator is because I have this present everyday, in everything I do. When I talk with others I see myself in them. When I eat my food I see I'm eating myself. When I hurt others I see I'm hurting myself and when I give to others I think I'm giving to myself.
I think the STO is a consequence of the knowledge about we all are the Prime Creator, or the Spirit, as I call it. This knowledge has helped me to understand that, in the end, good and evil are two faces of the same thing and if I am here and now it is because I have decided, at some point of my existence, experience this and I have had the "balls" of doing it. So, it doesn't matter how bad the thing goes, there will be always an exit door.
When I read many years ago the Cassiopaean Transcripts I found in them a lot of "confirmations" of my reasoning. Someone could say I "misinterpret them and tend to project their own ideas, beliefs, and biases onto them". Well, I don't think so. Maybe I have not understood a lot of cryptic messages they have given, but I think the most important things IMHO they have said have been correctly understood, this is: We are all the Prime Creator, knowledge protects, STO is balance and learning is fun.
What I have said in my previous posts has been an attempt of encourage others because, no matter how much pain you feel, no matter how much lost you are, you will have always the power to find the way out.
That is the reason I have said "concentrate in the spirit". This doesn't mean forget about your life, the world, your physical pain, your illness, your trauma, your family, the psychopaths, the PTB, etc. This means, learn to look everything different.
And, believe or not, when you do this, the reality gives you less painful lessons, because you can learn by using your "mind". So you can understand mentally and don't need hit the car a wall in order to understand there is a wall.
