So last night I didn't do EE, but I did a few rounds of pipe breathing and thoroughly relaxed before going to sleep, and this is the dream of last night:
Implicitly, I was with a group of people traveling and going from beach to beach, staying at different places as we traveled. At one point I willingly separated from the group to go swimming by myself and swam down the length of a couple of beaches, which seemed man-made, with stone structures at the shore and partly submerged on which one can lounge on and such, and it was really beautifully built. At one point I reach a place where I decide to go into a nearby house, and I see a girl (which was implicitly "part of the group") who I hadn't seen (in real life) for about 9-10 years (and I never really talked to her much either, she wasn't really significant in my life). She was in the house with some guy who she had just met, and was apparently living there with him now, who was much older than her (she was in her early twenties and the guy seemed like in his thirties), and she seemed to really be trying to get his attention and be affectionate but he just wanted to watch TV. Soon enough I began to leave and invited her to go back to the beach and swim with me, but she didn't want to, and I thought about asking her for her number so we could meet up later, but decided I should just let her be and she'll realize her affection wasn't being reciprocated. At first I was slightly bothered by my her not humoring my invitation but then I brushed it off and made my way outside. This time I left through the front door, into the street. It was a very hilly area, with a street lined with houses although not cluttered by them, and mountains in the distance. It was very beautiful scenery. Someone who saw me leaving the house asked me something about the property and I said I didn't live there and was just traveling. As I make my way down the street I see people riding long boards and bicycles, and thought to myself that it would be nice to live here, and wished I had my bike or long board to ride, but I knew it wasn't "home".
This skips to a scene where I was talking to a friend's girlfriend(who I met recently, but her hair was a different color) and I can't remember what we talked about, but I remember thinking that it would be nice to be dating her but that I couldn't because she was dating my friend.
This skips to a scene where I was playing a pokemon game on a console(i dont think the game actually exists) with one of my friends, which was sort of like a fighting game, but there was an option where players could cooperate against a single opponent. I remember for some reason being irritated that his girlfriend( a different girl from the one just mentioned) was doing a poor job at helping us defeat the opponent. (I think here I was more irritated at not having a girlfriend who could play the game with me, but rationalized that irritation as I mentioned above).
The dream skips to another scene where I was at a pool where I used to work, and one of my coworkers was sitting on the side of the pool, in street clothes rather and with a backpack rather than with her lifeguard clothes. (A little background on her: I think her and I would be a potentially good fit as a couple, but she's currently dating some guy who she doesn't trust and the relationship seems like an unhealthy one) Very gently, I kicked a ball at her with the soccer pass movement, with not nearly enough strength to either hurt or even throw her off balance (again, she was sitting) but she fell into the pool and her backpack floated away (it was a funny scene ) but I apologized and told her it really wasn't intentional, meanwhile I was hiding my phone away from me on a nearby couch(why a couch by the pool? I don't know, but it's happened in my dreams before) thinking that someone would try to push me in because of that.
From my own analysis, I think there is an element of jealousy that other people are in a relationship while I'm single, although it's not terrible and doesn't consciously bother me much, although it seems that unconsciously it may be bothering me a bit. The traveling aspect of the dream, seems to me to mean traveling through life, looking for a partner, although I know that not any partner will do, and I am not seeking anything superficial because I need someone to be on the same life-path as me, have the same craving for knowledge than I, and be open to the Cass. material and such. The beach, swimming, and pool seem to me to symbolize my own deep feelings, which may not come to conscious awareness all the time, i.e. this feeling of longing. The playing, video game, long board and bicycle symbols I think are pointing at this feeling being from my childhood and juvenile.
As far as I can remember, I've always had a longing for a meaningful relationship, ever since I was a kid. When I was around 4 or 5 years old, I asked one of my mom's friends, who was in her twenties, to marry me. A year or two after that, I proposed the same to one of my classmates. I think I was thinking about girls even before the other boys my age, although it wasn't in a sexual way, but rather that of companionship. Later into my teens, when I did think of girls sexually, and did date and have girlfriends, it was always still looking for something real and meaningful, and tried to treat my girlfriends as if they were "the one", and took the relationships seriously, although sooner or later they'd come to an end and I'd move on. I can always look back and see things which pointed that we had degrees of incompatibility and I can see the lessons to learn from every relationship, none ended with irreparably bitter feelings. Currently I'm single, and I'm not upset about it, although it seems like my unconscious wants my conscious mind to acknowledge that longing. I understand that I shouldn't seek a relationship, but rather work on myself. From the dream, I was still enjoying the views and the traveling, and not quite burdened by being "alone", which I think reflects my attitude on the matter, that I will still enjoy life without a partner, and do my own thing, until a suitable one comes into my life, who shares my views and desire for self-improvement, etc.
A good way to summarize the feeling could be "I miss my soul mate", although I don't know if it's a feeling that I incarnated with, belongs to an attachment, a past-life, or perhaps Dark Cupid's slow-acting poison.
Any feedback and advice will be greatly appreciated :D
Implicitly, I was with a group of people traveling and going from beach to beach, staying at different places as we traveled. At one point I willingly separated from the group to go swimming by myself and swam down the length of a couple of beaches, which seemed man-made, with stone structures at the shore and partly submerged on which one can lounge on and such, and it was really beautifully built. At one point I reach a place where I decide to go into a nearby house, and I see a girl (which was implicitly "part of the group") who I hadn't seen (in real life) for about 9-10 years (and I never really talked to her much either, she wasn't really significant in my life). She was in the house with some guy who she had just met, and was apparently living there with him now, who was much older than her (she was in her early twenties and the guy seemed like in his thirties), and she seemed to really be trying to get his attention and be affectionate but he just wanted to watch TV. Soon enough I began to leave and invited her to go back to the beach and swim with me, but she didn't want to, and I thought about asking her for her number so we could meet up later, but decided I should just let her be and she'll realize her affection wasn't being reciprocated. At first I was slightly bothered by my her not humoring my invitation but then I brushed it off and made my way outside. This time I left through the front door, into the street. It was a very hilly area, with a street lined with houses although not cluttered by them, and mountains in the distance. It was very beautiful scenery. Someone who saw me leaving the house asked me something about the property and I said I didn't live there and was just traveling. As I make my way down the street I see people riding long boards and bicycles, and thought to myself that it would be nice to live here, and wished I had my bike or long board to ride, but I knew it wasn't "home".
This skips to a scene where I was talking to a friend's girlfriend(who I met recently, but her hair was a different color) and I can't remember what we talked about, but I remember thinking that it would be nice to be dating her but that I couldn't because she was dating my friend.
This skips to a scene where I was playing a pokemon game on a console(i dont think the game actually exists) with one of my friends, which was sort of like a fighting game, but there was an option where players could cooperate against a single opponent. I remember for some reason being irritated that his girlfriend( a different girl from the one just mentioned) was doing a poor job at helping us defeat the opponent. (I think here I was more irritated at not having a girlfriend who could play the game with me, but rationalized that irritation as I mentioned above).
The dream skips to another scene where I was at a pool where I used to work, and one of my coworkers was sitting on the side of the pool, in street clothes rather and with a backpack rather than with her lifeguard clothes. (A little background on her: I think her and I would be a potentially good fit as a couple, but she's currently dating some guy who she doesn't trust and the relationship seems like an unhealthy one) Very gently, I kicked a ball at her with the soccer pass movement, with not nearly enough strength to either hurt or even throw her off balance (again, she was sitting) but she fell into the pool and her backpack floated away (it was a funny scene ) but I apologized and told her it really wasn't intentional, meanwhile I was hiding my phone away from me on a nearby couch(why a couch by the pool? I don't know, but it's happened in my dreams before) thinking that someone would try to push me in because of that.
From my own analysis, I think there is an element of jealousy that other people are in a relationship while I'm single, although it's not terrible and doesn't consciously bother me much, although it seems that unconsciously it may be bothering me a bit. The traveling aspect of the dream, seems to me to mean traveling through life, looking for a partner, although I know that not any partner will do, and I am not seeking anything superficial because I need someone to be on the same life-path as me, have the same craving for knowledge than I, and be open to the Cass. material and such. The beach, swimming, and pool seem to me to symbolize my own deep feelings, which may not come to conscious awareness all the time, i.e. this feeling of longing. The playing, video game, long board and bicycle symbols I think are pointing at this feeling being from my childhood and juvenile.
As far as I can remember, I've always had a longing for a meaningful relationship, ever since I was a kid. When I was around 4 or 5 years old, I asked one of my mom's friends, who was in her twenties, to marry me. A year or two after that, I proposed the same to one of my classmates. I think I was thinking about girls even before the other boys my age, although it wasn't in a sexual way, but rather that of companionship. Later into my teens, when I did think of girls sexually, and did date and have girlfriends, it was always still looking for something real and meaningful, and tried to treat my girlfriends as if they were "the one", and took the relationships seriously, although sooner or later they'd come to an end and I'd move on. I can always look back and see things which pointed that we had degrees of incompatibility and I can see the lessons to learn from every relationship, none ended with irreparably bitter feelings. Currently I'm single, and I'm not upset about it, although it seems like my unconscious wants my conscious mind to acknowledge that longing. I understand that I shouldn't seek a relationship, but rather work on myself. From the dream, I was still enjoying the views and the traveling, and not quite burdened by being "alone", which I think reflects my attitude on the matter, that I will still enjoy life without a partner, and do my own thing, until a suitable one comes into my life, who shares my views and desire for self-improvement, etc.
A good way to summarize the feeling could be "I miss my soul mate", although I don't know if it's a feeling that I incarnated with, belongs to an attachment, a past-life, or perhaps Dark Cupid's slow-acting poison.
Any feedback and advice will be greatly appreciated :D