I guess it boils down to there's no way for any of us to truly know ourselves as long as we are stuck here on this rock, in this density.
Hmm well that depends on what you're referring to. If you mean, our 'true selves' - whatever that is - then you're likely right. Though there are a lot of good-feeling sleeping droughts you can take that promise just that. If on the other hand, you're referring to you're everyday self, the being that walks and talks and calls itself I - well then I'd disagree, in fact that's the point of a lot of the Gurdjieff material - getting you to know yourself. It takes the development of a faculty of one's mind that likely previously did not exist. A part of you that watches and records, observes without judgement, and sees you behavior, your interactions, your 'likes' and 'dislikes' and simply notes them. Imho that's one way one can 'know thyself'.
I sit and reflect at the end of each day before I go to bed, thinking of the days events and how I handled situations. I've come to the realization that I keep going back to old habits and I am sometimes a jerk.
Have you had a chance to partake the narcissism books? I think the order is Trapped in the Mirror (Goulomb), The Narcissistic Family (Pressmans) and then Drama of the Gifted Child (Miller?). There's also the works of K Dabrowski which I'm just getting acquainted with - fascinating stuff. The point being is that the awareness that you're having now is the first step toward growth, the next step is using that awareness, how do you feel when you see those things in yourself? And using that feeling to do something about it - like learning!
I keep getting too emotionally involved with the current events when I should be relaxing and watching in amusement. I forget to stop to smell the roses through out the day, instead run right past them in order to play the game.
Well that's a pickle, sometimes we should be emotionally involved, emotions are powerful and from what I've seen, are the key to developing one's potential. Then again, relaxation, stress reduction and enjoying life are also necessary otherwise we'd be too stressed to ever get anything done properly. Maintaining a balance is what matters, or so I think.
I'm trying to learn meditation without a teacher and must admit it's much harder that I could have imagined. I have a monkey mind that hops all over the place, so far I just found a good way to fall asleep. I know I'll get it sooner or later with Lots of practice. I also realize that I'm still going though a morning period but reading more articles here puts that nonsense to a halt.
Teachers are overrated in my opinion, at least for that particular subject. There are a plethora of ways to meditate, and if you use the search function you'll find incredible discussions on the topic. My favorite is just letting my mind wander and following my thoughts, observing them and the feelings they engender. Some try to empty their mind, some focus on one particular object or concept, all have their applications but while it can be useful it can also be another way to lull oneself to sleep.
Thank you all very much. I appreciate this website and those making it so. I'm still amazed with each visit!
Ya, my favorite spot on the web.
