Re: Beadwork
Thanks to all the comments. In replying, I have gained a bit of insight and perhaps some ways to continue in my art.
For examples:
psychegram said:
Most of my old preoccupations just seem like trivial, juvenile fantasies, now; all the underpinnings of the world view I took for granted for much of my life have been ripped away, leaving me with ... well, a lot to think about.
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[quote author=Tigersoap]
I can relate because it seems so absurd at time to make art in such a world...I never know for sure if it's my negative introject, or because I see things as they really are that I suddenly doubt everything I have been doing with huge depressing moments where my false personality just loses bits of itself.
I think it's part of the growing process.
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Yes, exactly. These are my thoughts and feelings as well.
But:
[quote author=psychegram]
And yet ... if I let myself be paralyzed in that fashion, perhaps I'm conceding a victory to the Lords of Entropy? Letting them scare me into shutting down my creativity. Letting them win.
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and
[quote author=Tigersoap]
...but maybe that's the reason why you should keep doing it, because it is one thing that keeps you connected to something creative.
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These ideas are what keep me going.
[quote author=Tigersoap]
Sometimes there is no "fire" at all and it drives me really mad (and that is just self-importance by the way.)
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Question: Could you explain this? I do not deny having plenty of self-importance and am able to recognize it in some of its forms...but I am not sure I understand how having no "fire" and feeling frustrated by it is a form of self-importance.
[quote author=Tigersoap]
You are probably doing what you love doing best, so why the worry ?
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Why the worry? Good question. As I ponder, I detect an "I" that says "making jewelry is futile". This suggests to me that this "I" has an agenda in making jewelry and that under current conditions (or my new knowledge of current conditions), this agenda cannot be fullfilled...which brings me to self-importance. I think that maybe this "I" wants recognition, accolades, and material success. Perhaps this answers my previous question...hmmm.
However, I do have other "I's" that just love to make jewelry. I have been making jewelry for about 11 years, selling just enough to buy more supplies. Only in the past 2 years have I been trying to turn it from hobby to business.
I will be giving this some more thought and am thinking perhaps I can encourage the "I's" that just want to make jewelry and then see what I can do with the "I's" that want accolades...
[quote author=Tigersoap]
Since I discovered the Sott and Laura's work, it changed my perspective on my works and the way to do it forever (I am such in karmic debt, I owe you forever).
There are maybe ways for you to connect all you know and learned so far and put it into your own works ?
So it does not always seem frivolous but has a deeper meaning ?
This should not make stop doing lighter stuff as well because it has probably a purpose as well.
Ok maybe it will be awkward, subjective and incomplete but it's a learning process osit.
Maybe you already know but have you checked Etsy.com ? I suppose you already have an e-store over there.
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I, too have a debt to SOTT.
I have tried to think of ways to connect my knowledge to my art, but so far have not made much progress. I do try to incorporate some STO attitudes (or my understanding of STO attitudes) into my business practices. Beyond that, I am at a loss.
Deeper meaning? So far, I am unsuccessful in finding deeper meaning, but perhaps the "lighter stuff" has its own purpose as I see expressed here. Again, thanks for all the comments.
And, yes, I love Etsy - I have had a shop there for almost 2 years. Yay Etsy!
[quote author=Gimpy]
I think part of the problem is integrating the new information. Artists in general are programmed to use creativity to make money, instead of just being creative for the joy in doing it. Then, in light of the Work, it all seems to be a waste of time. The programs for or against creativity of all kinds can get anyone down.
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In an STS world, artists do have to worry about making money, don't they? I do try to just make what I love, although survival and those pesky programs can really get in the way!
[quote author=psychegram]
In the end I'm not sure what to tell you. Well, except for this: your jewelry is beautiful.
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Thank you.
Edit: Reading over this post, it occurs to me that I also have an "I" that feels "I should be doing more important things"...is this also more self-importance?