Dude, where's my car dude?

[noise]

I don't sleep real well very often. Over the last few days I've been trying to play catch up on some things. Recently after twisting the ankle my foot sweeled up for a week after 3 weeks of having been healed. Last night I wrote for an hour on and was going to post something I was going to call Synthetic Selves about how we all get back into our usual mindset even after some of the most blatant in your face activity concerning the sleep state.. as if at times it seems there are not enough shocks to awaken people from their slumbers.

I woke up this morning after about 5 hours sleep. The usual wierd war dream which faded away from any details after a couple minutes. So I started my often routine day a couple hours early.

I went over to 7-11 for my morning coffee pot sized cup of coffee. There are men from India who work there and we joked a couple times about Tuesdays.. I was a mess and the joke was about a shower.. which I hadn't taken. The officer (policeman) who was there as he usually is in the morning laughed along with us.

I returned to my little store had a sip or two of coffee and went out for my morning (1/2 a) smoke. I'm standing there thinking I'm cool or whatever and look over at the store and notice that some of the cars pulling in or driving by looked like they had ice on the windows. As I often do, and it not feeling too cold, I decided to check if it was dew or actually ice on the window. That's when I realized I had no car to test the idea on. Gone, vanished, removed, history, outta here and not even a broken piece of glass.

I got all caught up after spending a couple days out of town with my friend and his family (our kids play together and are genereally stacked from my oldest to his youngest all within 5 years of one another) on things I like to read.

I feel violated. I'm not complaining or really in need of attention. Lately I find that others are going through things and may be feeling a bit drained. I'm kind of writing on several different fronts as I have alot going on in my work week right now. The strangest part outside of feeling violated, some (expected) part of me is missing. It's no fancy car or anything, though having it for 2 years It is still not even broken in (12.5k miles). It's totally covered and paid in full if it is totalled or parted out or whatever. The officer (who I got from across the street) said that in the area just last night 3-4 other cars were stolen.

What is amazing me the most is that I am indifferent. Some years ago I would be fuming! I'd cuss at inanimate objects.. the whole deal. Today, though stunned, I only feel I will be inconvenienced when it is time to get the kids from school. I don't have the foggyest notion as to why someone would want to steal a kia sportage(?) from 2004, a family-small size 4 door in fact, with nothing but standard manual factory everything, nothing custom about it. The value of the car likely fell in half the day I drove it off the lot. My problem then is that it simply doesn't make sense to me why someone would want this car, especially in terms of risking their ability to open a door at will versus some time behind bars, it's just not worth it.

So I have to wait 15 days before the insurance company decides that it is stolen and not recoverable, the bank still expects their payements and that is ok. I have gap insurance as well so I don't have to worry about the car being paid off or not. I just fear that it is going to come back fairly mangled with no clue as to the culprit and then I have to pay out 500 bucks I don't have to get the repairs done, then I'll be mad.

I am curious if anyone else has gone through something similar what kinds of hoops they had to jump through or a rough time frame that it took to get things sqaured up with the insurance co., the Authorities (repair shop, I hope not) etc..?

 

[ScioAgapeOmnis]

I noticed this indifference in myself as well in many respects (at least I think it's similar to what you were saying). You know how kids cry and can get hysterical when you take away their toys? The same is really true for many adults when they are deprived of some luxury or "toy" or whatever it is they wanted/anticipated. Also I don't react like I did to people who are just assholes to put it bluntly - no longer so "bothered" and upset by them, and I'm more curious/observant of the behavior in them and myself, and don't identify with the "wrong" that is being done too much. Very often, as I observe the reaction of others to various sorts of "wrongs" that somebody appears to do to them, I notice how the emotions blind them. So much, in fact, that their entire perspective of a person seems to change on a flip of a switch, and the perspective of the situation is totally colored in subjective "this is evil and wrong" mindset. If only they knew just how absurd their thinking is, and how easily it changes the next day...

I guess you could say the same for random things like bad weather and other little annoyances that people love to complain about to one another (ex: "I HATE when dunkin doughnuts doesn't put enough sugar in my coffee even when I say extra sugar!" or "I hate when it's slippery on the road!!" etc). And if they can possibly blame somebody (road workers, DD workers, etc), they don't hesitate to do so - and do so very convinced that they surely pinned down who is "lazy" and "careless" and "bad" and share in this smugness with others who happen to be around.

But all that begs the question, what does phase me nowadays? What makes me angry and upset? Mostly it's not personal inconveniences, or physical pain or forces of nature or carelessness or laziness or "lack of courtesy" from others, and other such stuff. Well politically and "pathocratically" stuff gets to me. And to some extent it bugs me that some people can be so upset by ice on the road that they can spend 2 hours talking about it, and feel so horrible for a roadkill that they almost cry - but the same people don't give a hoot about tyrrannys and mass slaughters/genocide and global manipulations that are being done, well, everywhere. It really bugs them what their neighbor "gossips" about them behind their back, or if some poor child is kidnapped and their picture is shown on the news. They cover their mouth and look in sadness how this poor child is deprived from their parents and god knows what has been done to them. True, that is pretty horrible - but if the person is soooooo bothered by this, why aren't they bothered by the much MUCH greater evils done every single day to millions and billions of people?

I guess, why do they cry when their toys are deprived but the fact that billions of people never had those toys doesn't really phase them? o_O

 

[noise]

Wow SAO I never saw it like that. I wonder if I'm actually starting to catch on and all this work is taking a toll in a positive sense. I know a year or.. heck, 3-6 months ago I would be flipping over this scenario playing out. I did need to vent some, at least get out the slight frustration but that 3-6 months ago I would have been so angry the cop would have asked, "do you want to report the vehicle stolen or not?"

Now I'm kind of looking forward to getting out and going for a walk.. speaking of which I guess it's time to walk the little people home. I'm ok without my ride to a large degree, since I barely use the thing, what was the wierdest was it not being right where I know I put it. Like, huh, hmm.. what? It was a kind of shock, though I was in no way prepared for it. I'm still going to smile, besides I need the excercise, maybe that will get me some better sleep.

Sorry I skipped around in the initial post, I've got alot on my mind from remodeling to shaking a foggy feeling and now the car scenario. I guess I was a bit all over the place.

 

[Niall]

I wonder if I'm actually starting to catch on and all this work is taking a toll in a positive sense. I know a year or.. heck, 3-6 months ago I would be flipping over this scenario playing out. I did need to vent some, at least get out the slight frustration but that 3-6 months ago I would have been so angry the cop would have asked, "do you want to report the vehicle stolen or not?"

You're learning dude :) I had a ferocious temper as a teen. It had calmed down somewhat before I met the C's late 2005, but the major improvement has come from the work. I'm now very placcid about 'negative' stuff happening to me. Tho I have to admit the universe tested me some when my 'dreambook' and glasses were stolen from me last summer. I cussed a good bit, kicked over a traffic cone; then looked up and noticed my fav leather jacket lying across the pavement where the thieving b'stard had obviously dropped it when running away!

Ra said that if you forgive someone, the wheel of karma 'stops', or something to that effect. I thought "well, there's enough heat in this world." So I forgave him/her.

I don't drive, so I got no car. Still, hope it sorts out for you

 

[wodasi]

We had a large apartment fire here,about 350 people lost everything. Sure enough I met one of them .
( I drive taxi ) He was really out of sorts, couldn't drive,didn't know where to start. I have been thinking
of that (loss) ever since...? ( I like to hear sott forum dudes vent,, makes me think )
I've had accidents in the taxi (not my fault) and the cab company rips us off. I really think I've had
past life sh*t with the owners/management ( they would come for 1/2 my crop to give to the King and
I would tell them no and I was soon hung) So for my survival its best I stay away and try to forgive.
Reading this stuff has helped me chill out alot..

 

[Rhansen]

A little over a year ago I was hit by a Stevie Wonder impersonator (or so I refer to him) on my way to school. My vehicle was a total loss - it was an S10 pickup that I had replaced the drivetrain in (chevy V8, etc...) so that I could do some weekend bracket (drag) racing with it. Definitely qualified as a "toy", I was using it as a daily driver since my Mazda was crashed into by another blind driver the previous year and I used the settlement to pay some bills.
10 years ago I would have come unglued and chewed out the guy that hit me but now it takes more than that to get me excited. I did experience some mild irritation with his insurance company as they wouldn't reimburse me for all my expenses and I was shorted by a little over $2000. Lesson learned - get specialty insurance for that type of vehicle.

I haven't had any experience with a stolen vehicle but a friend of mine had his car stolen only to have it turn up in another state about six weeks later. He ended up rather upset with his insurance company over the deal but I don't know all the details. He did have to take posession of the (badly abused) car and didn't recieve any compensation from his insurance carrier.

 

[Iconoclast]

I noticed this indifference in myself as well in many respects (at least I think it's similar to what you were saying). You know how kids cry and can get hysterical when you take away their toys? The same is really true for many adults when they are deprived of some luxury or "toy" or whatever it is they wanted/anticipated. Also I don't react like I did to people who are just -bad people- to put it bluntly - no longer so "bothered" and upset by them, and I'm more curious/observant of the behavior in them and myself, and don't identify with the "wrong" that is being done too much. Very often, as I observe the reaction of others to various sorts of "wrongs" that somebody appears to do to them, I notice how the emotions blind them. So much, in fact, that their entire perspective of a person seems to change on a flip of a switch, and the perspective of the situation is totally colored in subjective "this is evil and wrong" mindset. If only they knew just how absurd their thinking is, and how easily it changes the next day...

well said, i agree completely with you, ScioAgapeOmnis!

i have noticed a very similar change in myself.

whenever something happens (to me or someone else) i immediately look at the bigger picture. i search for the REASON, since i know there is one for everything that happens. i can understand how people who believe life and everything is just RANDOM are struggling to cope with certain events.

one of the few things that gets past these newly installed 'emotional filters' in me, are large-scale injustices (like israel attacking lebanon for example).

curiously, one other thing that i haven't been been able to shake is my dislike of dogs and their owners. (vienna has a severe dogsh*t problem)
compared to the other stuff that gets to me, this is completely ridiculous... i wonder if i ever had a really bad experience with dogs in a previous life (because i haven't had one this time around).

 

[ScioAgapeOmnis]

Well I know dogs are just doing what all animals (and humans) do, poop. But it's interesting that when somebody KNOWS that another person is doing something that annoys you and others, and continues doing it because they don't care, that can be pretty irritating. In fact, if you dwell on this feeling, it can grow. I mean it's just mildly annoying at first, but if you just keep thinking about those owners and how they scoff at you for wanting them to remove the poop, how they just keep walking and think "I WANT this dog, but I don't feel like cleaning up the poop. But I still will have my way, I'll have a dog"... that can really piss you off to the point of wanting to punch something.

I'm just saying though, that our feelings about something can be "cultivated" just by dwelling on it and really really sinking into the situation in our minds. Then it shuts off all other thinking and we develop tunnel vision and are overwhelmed by anger and frustration and desire to punch things or scream due to total lack of control over the situation, and knowing somebody is consciously taking advantage.

Like if I imagine a robot in place of Bush, who is literally programmed and just performs its duties obediently, it wouldn't seem nearly as bad as what we have. But if I imagine Bush and his little grin and that he's conscious that he's a liar and a manipulator and a murderer, and how he smirks and laughs at all of us for being so dumb and gullible, how we all just let him do it because we're a bunch of sheep, a bunch of tools, a bunch of useful idiots - doesn't that just piss you off that that damn monkey treats YOU like an useful idiot? Just think of his face, that damn smirk, that "heh heh heh heh heh", and how he looks you straight in the eye and says "We're spreading freedom and democracy" while he thinks "You're going to believe me you pathetic moron, and you're going to obey me, and you're inevitably going to do what I say, watch how I fool YOU together with the rest of the pathetic sheep, because I'm smarter and better than you - you're nothing but dirt beneath my presidential feet, so get lost and watch me create your reality for you".

Doesn't that just really, REALLY piss you off? Doesn't that just build up your hate that almost boils over? Doesn't it make you want to forget everything else, and just get up and DO something about this pile of worthless dung that was installed into the White House? Me too.

It's still an artificially manipulated anger though - you become more and more and more angry just by dwelling on all the details above, cuz you're not angry about it all the time. It's true for basically everything I think - one minute we think someone is an arrogant prick for cutting us off on the road, another time we can just say "Ah maybe he was in a real emergency/rush etc, how can I just assume and call him an arrogant prick just because he cut me off and this inconvenienced me? Besides it only delayed my trip for about 0.2 seconds!!". Most people flip flop their opinions on a dime due to the tons of little i's inside, and each time they are convinced that what they think/feel IS in fact their real/true thought/feeling/opinions. And they actually take themselves seriously, and expect YOU to take them seriously!! That's pretty horrifying that they think they're sane. Our opinions/thoughts/feelings are totally flimsy and fluid and depend on how we feel like reacting based on whichever "i" is in charge, whichever mood we happen to be in. No consistency, no stability, no objectivity. Add that to the fact that all our opinions in general are based on trying to please our friends, family, authority, etc - and you've got one totally chaotic mess that is like a bunch of icing but no cake. We keep adding the icing as it melts and changes, and keep in in a shape of a cake and pretend that there's a cake under there. Surprisingly, we fooled ourselves, others fooled themselves, and we're all a bunch of happy monkeys that fooled ourselves and each other as a result, all just "pretending" - or actually beyond pretending, so used to this mode of existence that we're now convinced it's real, it's who/what we really are, it's our real thoughts/opinions/etc.

I think that it's not so bad to dwell on something and building up your anger/hate - if that's what it takes for you to DO something. But before you do that, you gotta make sure that it's something truly objective and consistent with your objective goals and understandings about our reality, and not cuz somebody called you an idiot or cut you off on a road. But then you gotta make sure that instead of punching something to "cool off" you do more productive and wise things with that energy. Historically, it's when a bunch of people were really pissed off that anything got done. Granted, nothing actually got done, but at least that's when they actually got off their asses and tried doing something before the PTB manipulated their actions into uselessness and futility as nothing was changed and they were pacified with a manipulated delusion that it was. If only the population of our past had a group that stabilizes them, a group of conscious individuals that prevent the PTB from channeling their energy/actions into all the wrong/useless things, you know, a group that balances the lies and manipulations that render all actions of "normal" people ineffective no matter how driven/passionate/emotional those people are about said actions...

Maybe this time around, this is a group that will keep reason/common sense/truth alive through the turmoil?

Dogs are just fuzzy bundles of love. Now cats on the other hand, those devious control-freaks, that's another story... :P

 

[Iconoclast]

wise words, ScioAgapeOmnis!


at the root of my 'dog-problem' is probably my inability to understand why anyone would want to own a pet.
i would never want to OWN another life-form (outside of plants), i don't have the desire to be anyone's 'master'.

the complete lack of consideration for other people that many pet-owners display is also very annoying. because they love dogs, they assume everybody loves dogs.
nevermind that someone keeping a dog in a 60m² appartment in a large city can hardly be called an 'animal lover' as so many dog owners like to call themselves. i'm sure the animal has heaps of fun spending all day in a cramped flat alone while their owner is at work.

i'm currently reading the raw C's transcripts and stumbled upon the following:

Q: (L) Do dogs feel love?
A: Dogs feel need as love.

as i understand it, there are two ways one can interpret this:

1) dogs feel their basic needs (food, water, expelling waste) as love
2) dogs feel people's needs (to be loved, to have a friend, need for attention) as love

either way it makes the human/dog relationship look rather sad ;)


sorry to take this thread so OT

 

[Al Today]

at the root of my 'dog-problem' is probably my inability to understand why anyone would want to own a pet.

I have a house full of family.
My wife.
Three college students (in and out).
Two(2) dogs.
Four(4) cats.
And of course myself.
Bear in mind I live out in the country, surrounded by woods and yes, corn fields.
Lot's of room to roam...

I really don't feel I own any of them.
They all have their path.
Lessons to be learned.

Even the four legged family members.

Somewhere, don't the Cs address 2nd density evolving souls?
To me, they are companions, and yes, I consider them my friends.
I dug up the following:

951021
A: You are aware, 2nd density is not.

Granted, we don't converse, but we do communicate/interact with each other.
So what is that about?
Just wishfully thinking they have some sort of brain?
But perhaps they do think (in their own way)?
And then, maybe I shouldn't dwell on this.

950107
Q: (L) Is it not also beneficial to understand the 1st and 2nd density
levels as well, just simply for the exercise in understanding that
which is below us?
A: Strive always to rise.
Q: (V) Haven't we already done our 1st and 2nd level work as
evolving souls?
A: Yes.

I hope that I am also an evolving soul.

I have not yet been able to disprove the above statement.
So I ask, are some of my four legged friends learning lessons too?


Now for the disclaimer...

960714
Q: (L) Is there something we could do? I mean, are we supposed to
get rid of pets?
A: We would never suggest something as harsh as this. However,
beware: 3rd density STS orientation includes the thought of
"dominion" over 2nd density, and this is merely a continuation of the
energy buildups of the approach of the wave... Some of the lessons
are interesting indeed. When you assume that capture and
imprisonment of those of lesser capacity than you is for "the good,"
why should not you expect those of greater capacity than you to
assume the same regarding you?!?

 

[GRiM]

Interesting to read this thread, it gave me some perspective on my Work. I find it hard to "know" when to let something slide and when to get emotional. I´we never been emotional about material things, well very seldom at least :). But sometimes I wish I could get a bit more attached, but they seem so insignificant against the global chaos and the problems that many people in the world face.

 

[Ruth]

I am curious if anyone else has gone through something similar what kinds of hoops they had to jump through or a rough time frame that it took to get things sqaured up with the insurance co., the Authorities (repair shop, I hope not) etc..?

Is the Matrix 'giving you Hell', or providing you with new opportunities? Sometimes situations like these can bring about unexpected circumstances and/or new opportunities.

 

[noise]

Hi All!

I got my car back! And it is going to cost me a little (deductible) but it runs ok and they thieves only added about 100 miles to the engine. Outside a few dings, lack of original tires and rims and some slight interior damage I guess I've got my ride back.

I haven't heard from the insurance comapany so I don't know how things will progress from here but at least I can get my little people from school. Strangely I'm a little angry now. Not that I am punching holes in the walls but I was either for getting it back mint or getting a full replacement. Just thought I'd offer the new info.

Salutes!

 

[noise]

Strange way to wake up. I've been having some thoughts about something impending of late. Not that the feeling has retired but I've done alot of contemplation of death. In my last post of 2 months ago I was a little upset for not getting a full replacement and the car was not (since being returned) completely what it was before it was stolen.

Tonight (or late Sunday evening) I got back from spending a day at a friends and after a little reading I went to bed. I woke up hearing a loud bang. Over the last week or two I've been waking up, often startled by noises. Sometimes I investigate some and other times I don't. Well tonight (this morning) it rattled my wife as well. She decided to investigate, went down and looked around.

About 15 minutes later I woke up cause she was getting up to answer the phone. Turns our the sound we heard was from a car driving through/over the rear side of my car. It appears to me to be totaled.

It's possible some may think my wife shouldn't be out investigating loud noises on her own but the sound certainly came from outside. What is strange to me about the noises over the last week or two is that she had never heard them. She never went out of our dwelling and we both shrugged it off.

From the officer who called, it is likely they already have the person and it seems to be a case of DWI and hit and run. I doubt this is the end of me hearing strange things in the night. I also seem to be experiencing alot of vectoring from strangers and loved ones.

Finally I'd like to apologize. For all the crapola that is going on in the world my trials are petty at best. I used to not see it in such a way, at times previously such situations for me were the world. This isn't jack. I've got coverage on my coverage and I imagine whomever did this has some as well. So please excuse my piddly whining I needed to vent some.

 

[Renaissance]

Finally I'd like to apologize. For all the crapola that is going on in the world my trials are petty at best. I used to not see it in such a way, at times previously such situations for me were the world. This isn't jack. I've got coverage on my coverage and I imagine whomever did this has some as well. So please excuse my piddly whining I needed to vent some.

I don't think you have to apologize. It's pretty interesting that these things would happen to your car within a short time frame. Interestingly, I was wondering just a few days ago what was going on with you regarding the prior incident. I find this interesting too cause when I reread the thread I think I did read your previous post saying you got your car back.