Regarding this:
[quote author=Possibility of Being]
Being adult means something completely else than being able and willing to talk about sex in all its real and imaginary variations. It's not a matter of one's age either. Your latest post has not been written by an adult. Your story doesn't show that there is any adult behind the wheel in your life. Instead, it looks like you just follow blind your wild emotions and imagination wherever they take you, with no consideration to how hurtful it can be to (real) you, your husband, your child, and anyone who would be swept on the way and taken for your roller coaster ride with you.
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First of all - I didn't want to prove here that there is a mature person behind my wheel. I just wanted to hear objective opinions about my strange experience because something like this never happened to me before and I knew that there was something wrong with that. I agree that I followed my emotions and imagination. You have no idea how hurtful it could be to my husband because you do not know him completely. The truth is - I talked to him a lot about it and he never felt hurt, actually he often smiled with tolerance observing my "imaginary romance" and was convinced that finally I will solve my problem. You also do not know how I behave towards my child and how much time I spent with him, so please stop judging me because you jump to conclusions on very limited premises.
We all do different things and learn from them. During the whole story I knew that I may feel or think whatever but ultimately - I will not leave my husband and my child. Anyway, you write like a person who never made any mistake...
Oxajil
You wrote:
[quote author=Oxajil]
"You are married, you have a child, and at some point you decide to dedicate your time talking to a 'teacher' of some weird guy you met some years ago. This weird guy being someone who is a 'drug and alcohol addicted person and a great manipulator'. Who would want to even contact his supposed 'teacher'? That is what you did, after having a 'couple of vivid dreams with him'. And because you 'wanted to share my painful memories with somebody.'
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His teacher is not drug and alcohol addicted.
[quote author=Oxajil]
"Who would want to contact his teacher? "
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I think you are trying to suggest that only a ...stupid person? Ok, I may be a little stupid, just like whole humanity who was fooled by Lizards. I am learning how not to be a victim, please respect this.
[quote author=Oxajil]
And then you get yourself involved in practices like that? In
another post, you write "sexual overcharge, which came to the surface ater my practising of EE (1,5 year) and a diet (about 6 months) Maybe it just needs time." Kind of saying that EE and diet had caused this 'sexual overcharge', but as far as I can see, this ''overcharge'' was the result of your choices to go back to the kind of people who practice the kind of things you mentioned (never mind being worried about potential dangers you could put your family in by being in contact with a 'teacher' like that).
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Misunderstanding here.
I did not mention anywhere that I got myself involved in any practise. I didn't do any tantra exercises or sexual exercises. I did not mention that "sexual overcharge" was caused by EE, but that it caused that my problem came to the surface, and that is sexual addiction. You do not know my conclusions and how I understood the nature of my addiction.
Please read carefully....
[quote author=Oxajil]
"And with regards to your EE practice, I think you missed the C's important point that EE practice should go hand in hand with gaining knowledge. Which you have done little of, if at all, as it seems."
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You don't understand me. Before I started the whole story with this energy, I knew that I have to get to know what is the root of my problem and this experience will help me a lot, altough it is risky. I knew at the very beginning that I would win. And I won :) I understood the nature of sexual addiction.
[quote author=Oxajil]
"Also, in your response to Laura, you wrote "I did not mention that I still want to muddle around with sex and sex magic." yet in an
earlier post today you say: "I asked this question because I heard about practising some kind of sexual Qigong exercises and something called Right hand tantra sex and wondered if it makes sense to deal deeper with this energy."
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Does it seem that you don't see the difference between "want" and "wonder" ?
"Want" means "to intend, to plan" and "wonder" means "to think over, consider" Oh dear, I was just CONSIDERING
[quote author=Oxajil]
"I dunno, but you seem like the kind of person who makes decisions based on feelings, dreams etc. without any critical thinking and networking. In the end, I also think that you are in need of some professional therapy. You say you've had some, but I'm not sure what you mean with ''psychic'' therapy."
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"Psychic therapy" means every week meetings with a professional psychologist.
I did not try to network earlier because I felt that I have nothing important to share. After sharing - I see that my writing is mostly judged here and only Laura who simply kicked me in the ass and somebody who proposed me 2 books to read are reasonable people.
From the other hand - I appreciate that you care about my mental health ;) Don't worry, I am a tough woman....ups! Sorry - a girl ;)
I will try to put in order my conclusions and present them here, writing as objective as I can.
Edit: Added quotes for ease of reading 
