The Living Force
Maybe I was feeling the emotions for my past self too, not in the sense of a past life, but in the sense of regarding my younger self as if he were a separate and different person. Sometimes I imagine sending emotional support to my past younger self, because God knows he needed it. How much stronger could I have been and how much less could the burden have felt, had I known or believed that I would get my happily ever after ending.
I do the same exact thing. I regularly try to support myself in the past because it was such a difficult time.
It's interesting to read this. I also had a similar moment when reading the novels-particularly one which made me reflect a lot about my life and choices in the past. After looking back at some of the situations and circumstances that I went through (many of which were consequences of my own wrongdoing) and kind of seeing how so much could have been avoided, still knowing that I certainly learned quite bit from it all, I decided to send guidance and support to myself in the past too.
I was reckless and made choices that weren't good, and, looking back, I realized that I don't really know from where I got the guidance to move through some dark and ugly places toward a better place, before I found this network and being just a teenager. I thought then that maybe I had to send my past self some guidance and support because maybe it was me in the future who once sent me guidance and support as well... and maybe that was the inner voice that helped me back then.
Yes, it was a bit odd to think in those terms, but, who knows, maybe there is something to it.
On a side note, I also feel a lot more open emotionally after reading some of the novels. One thing that I notice is that by reading how the characters in the novels think, feel, and go through their experience, I get in the habit of also noticing my thoughts a bit more, as well as my own emotions... and after reading the stories and what others post here, I kind of have a framework from which to deal better with those thoughts and emotions. So, for example, I can relate to when a character felt in a particular way and knowing that in that case it was good to just share it with someone, or with her/his partner, or knowing about how some people here go through those thoughts and emotions, I now have those options to reflect on and maybe try in my own life to see what happens. It also gives more of a framework to notice where those thoughts and emotions might be coming from.
I'm still reading Courting Julia and I like it a lot so far, the characters seem very real and they way in which the author deals with their thinking is very good. The story is also very engaging and there's also humor in it.
Time to go back to reading!