I noticed that there are no threads on people being cursed, apart from an old thread on whether curses work, so I thought to open one where also those who have experienced such can relate their experiences. And I will start by sharing my own experience.
Recently I had a dream which appeared as if a spirit release had taken place. Reflecting on the dream I remembered that this person had 26 years ago cursed me. The very idea of cursing somebody is for me a very foreign thing and when I think of this person it initially seemed strange. I will get to the dream but first some background.
When I was 22 I went travelling ‘the world’ from Europe, to ‘see’ a bit more of the wider world. It was meant to be for just 5 months, but ended up being for 20 years as I got ‘stuck’ in Australia. Part of the reason was that I ended up in a relationship with an Australian woman who was 30 years my senior. She was a New Age teacher with an accomplished professional background, one marriage behind her with 4 grown up children and an Indian guru (Laura's description in the Wave series of the New age teachers and the New Age scene was most instructive and made me tick a number of boxes). She was a DO-gooder extraordinaire and pushed her ‘care’ on others, regardless of their wishes and free will. She thought she knew better and could fix people of all their problems using her considerable arsenal of therapeutic techniques, including deep tissue bodywork, past life regression therapy, light trance work, counselling, rebirthing breath work etc. This is not to say that she didn't do much good work on clients from what I observed but she also overstepped boundaries.
I had up until then never had a sexual relationship as I had this notion of not wanting to just go for one night stands and then dump the woman and be the cause of heartaches etc. There was also the notion that I would not risk fathering children and thus be restricted and responsible for the consequences. Anyway, I was most likely a very easy target and I fell for this woman, X. This led to an 8 year relationship despite wanting and trying to break up several times during this time, but lacking the will. Others would have broken up after a week and there would have been no hard feelings from either side, but I didn't think like that in my naive 'Knight in shining armour' way of thinking. To my thinking at that time, a woman would have been crushed by so casual a way of sleeping with someone and then to just leave after a night or week of sexual relations. I wanted a breakup to be done with understanding and no hard feelings, but lacking knowledge about what I was dealing with, fell to emotional display and pity ploys. I just didn’t have the will but after 8 years I did find that I had the will and made the break. What helped me was to go to the beach a few times a week and watch the sun setting over the ocean. Seeing how the sun sets with absolute certitude in a blaze of beauty, set an inspiring example of strength which I knew I had to find within me. In other words, “to get a spine”. It was clear to me that she had no interest in being the one breaking it up as things were good for her and I was non-assertive, pliable and conflict shy, so it rested on me if change had to happen. I was at this time living in the city, studying at university while she was living in the country and I hadn’t seen her for a few months. She did not know of my decision as I had wanted to tell her to her face as I found the other way via writing or by phone to be taking the easy way out.
She took it badly despite my best arguments and she stormed away. The next few days she phoned a few times, wanting to meet and talk it over, yet I was unyielding knowing that she was skilful at pressing my weak points which risked me letting it slide yet again. She did not want it to end but after a while it became clear to her, that I had ended it for good. This is when I received a letter from her. In the letter, she called me all kinds of things and mentioned that if I would dare to come and get my things at the country house where she was living, she would curse me to the end of the world. I was really surprised at this letter and the hatred in it. I was aware that me going away would mean that she would have to face her actual age as she couldn’t any longer lie to herself of this fact by hiding behind having a boyfriend 30 years younger. Since then I have also become aware that me leaving was like taking her food away from her. The book “Unholy Hungers” by Barbara Hort, opened a number of insights into that dynamic.
Despite her threat of a curse, I threw the vile letter away, paid no heed to the curse and went a week later to collect my things. She wasn’t at home, so I just quickly got a few essential things, letting the rest be. It was not a break in, as the ‘house’ was an old wooden Group settlement building in the countryside from the 1st world war ( It was given to veterans at the time ) which the farmer had given rent free. It represented no value (See here for a picture of one of these houses and the Government scheme).
Over the years since that time, I have many times had dreams where I, to my dread found that I still was with this woman and the shame of not having being able to move on. Thankfully on waking up, I would find that this was not the case.
This woman, X, died towards the end of 2021.
Now to the dream, which took place on the 26th of January (Australia Day or the Australian National Day): In the dream I met this woman X in a town. She was wearing a colourful top and seemed out of thoughts. Somehow she came with me in the car though my current wife had been there beforehand and we went to a church, though it was more like an open forum where things could be discussed. There were other people from the spiritual community (of the Indian guru mentioned above) present and a priest type person asked if there was something we wanted to discuss. To this I answered that I would like to talk about dying and of passing over and that some did not move on but stayed. Next in the dream, I said that X was here with us and then realised that I was the only one who could see her. While telling this to the other people in the church, X was moving around aimlessly. I asked her why if she died, she hadn’t moved on. To this she answered that I would always be hers. I repeated this back to the others present and while this happened, X moved around and disappeared in the direction of what would be the altar, where there was some light coming through. During the whole dream she seemed very distracted or in another word which I wrote down at the time, otherworldly, yet to me she was ‘warm’ to the touch.
2 days later I had another short dream with her in it. In the dream she was ghost like, like a shimmer of white around her. She was driving in a van we used to have and with me as a passenger. She then asked me if it was the right road, to which I answered yes. Next I look up and see that she must have missed a turn and is driving straight ahead on a lawn and coming to a stop when encountering a small hedge. I can see that she is not looking well and ask her if I should take over, which I then proceed to do, though I find myself unable to start the car again. End of dream. What stuck out to me in this dream was that she was ghost like as opposed to the dream a couple of days earlier, when she was wearing a colourful top. One could speculate that something had actually happened in between and that she had moved on and/or the attachment was gone.
It made me think of Spirit release and as to whether there was more to the curse than I had thought. To me it feels like a positive development and that perhaps an old attachment has finally moved on, an attachment which might have come with the curse those 26 years ago or with her death. I have to admit that I had completely forgotten about the curse back then and only remembered when the dream came.
Baldwin has also written about curses, and how strong emotional feelings can lead to a fragmentation which can open the door to attachments and sometimes of demonic entities. I am not saying this is what happened, only that it is a possibility. He writes:
I am not sure what effect if any, the curse has had on me in my life but the dream intrigued me, also with her saying that I would always be hers, as in belong to her. I would like to think that if such an attachment was there, that it has now left and that she has moved on too.
Recently I had a dream which appeared as if a spirit release had taken place. Reflecting on the dream I remembered that this person had 26 years ago cursed me. The very idea of cursing somebody is for me a very foreign thing and when I think of this person it initially seemed strange. I will get to the dream but first some background.
When I was 22 I went travelling ‘the world’ from Europe, to ‘see’ a bit more of the wider world. It was meant to be for just 5 months, but ended up being for 20 years as I got ‘stuck’ in Australia. Part of the reason was that I ended up in a relationship with an Australian woman who was 30 years my senior. She was a New Age teacher with an accomplished professional background, one marriage behind her with 4 grown up children and an Indian guru (Laura's description in the Wave series of the New age teachers and the New Age scene was most instructive and made me tick a number of boxes). She was a DO-gooder extraordinaire and pushed her ‘care’ on others, regardless of their wishes and free will. She thought she knew better and could fix people of all their problems using her considerable arsenal of therapeutic techniques, including deep tissue bodywork, past life regression therapy, light trance work, counselling, rebirthing breath work etc. This is not to say that she didn't do much good work on clients from what I observed but she also overstepped boundaries.
I had up until then never had a sexual relationship as I had this notion of not wanting to just go for one night stands and then dump the woman and be the cause of heartaches etc. There was also the notion that I would not risk fathering children and thus be restricted and responsible for the consequences. Anyway, I was most likely a very easy target and I fell for this woman, X. This led to an 8 year relationship despite wanting and trying to break up several times during this time, but lacking the will. Others would have broken up after a week and there would have been no hard feelings from either side, but I didn't think like that in my naive 'Knight in shining armour' way of thinking. To my thinking at that time, a woman would have been crushed by so casual a way of sleeping with someone and then to just leave after a night or week of sexual relations. I wanted a breakup to be done with understanding and no hard feelings, but lacking knowledge about what I was dealing with, fell to emotional display and pity ploys. I just didn’t have the will but after 8 years I did find that I had the will and made the break. What helped me was to go to the beach a few times a week and watch the sun setting over the ocean. Seeing how the sun sets with absolute certitude in a blaze of beauty, set an inspiring example of strength which I knew I had to find within me. In other words, “to get a spine”. It was clear to me that she had no interest in being the one breaking it up as things were good for her and I was non-assertive, pliable and conflict shy, so it rested on me if change had to happen. I was at this time living in the city, studying at university while she was living in the country and I hadn’t seen her for a few months. She did not know of my decision as I had wanted to tell her to her face as I found the other way via writing or by phone to be taking the easy way out.
She took it badly despite my best arguments and she stormed away. The next few days she phoned a few times, wanting to meet and talk it over, yet I was unyielding knowing that she was skilful at pressing my weak points which risked me letting it slide yet again. She did not want it to end but after a while it became clear to her, that I had ended it for good. This is when I received a letter from her. In the letter, she called me all kinds of things and mentioned that if I would dare to come and get my things at the country house where she was living, she would curse me to the end of the world. I was really surprised at this letter and the hatred in it. I was aware that me going away would mean that she would have to face her actual age as she couldn’t any longer lie to herself of this fact by hiding behind having a boyfriend 30 years younger. Since then I have also become aware that me leaving was like taking her food away from her. The book “Unholy Hungers” by Barbara Hort, opened a number of insights into that dynamic.
Despite her threat of a curse, I threw the vile letter away, paid no heed to the curse and went a week later to collect my things. She wasn’t at home, so I just quickly got a few essential things, letting the rest be. It was not a break in, as the ‘house’ was an old wooden Group settlement building in the countryside from the 1st world war ( It was given to veterans at the time ) which the farmer had given rent free. It represented no value (See here for a picture of one of these houses and the Government scheme).
Over the years since that time, I have many times had dreams where I, to my dread found that I still was with this woman and the shame of not having being able to move on. Thankfully on waking up, I would find that this was not the case.
This woman, X, died towards the end of 2021.
Now to the dream, which took place on the 26th of January (Australia Day or the Australian National Day): In the dream I met this woman X in a town. She was wearing a colourful top and seemed out of thoughts. Somehow she came with me in the car though my current wife had been there beforehand and we went to a church, though it was more like an open forum where things could be discussed. There were other people from the spiritual community (of the Indian guru mentioned above) present and a priest type person asked if there was something we wanted to discuss. To this I answered that I would like to talk about dying and of passing over and that some did not move on but stayed. Next in the dream, I said that X was here with us and then realised that I was the only one who could see her. While telling this to the other people in the church, X was moving around aimlessly. I asked her why if she died, she hadn’t moved on. To this she answered that I would always be hers. I repeated this back to the others present and while this happened, X moved around and disappeared in the direction of what would be the altar, where there was some light coming through. During the whole dream she seemed very distracted or in another word which I wrote down at the time, otherworldly, yet to me she was ‘warm’ to the touch.
2 days later I had another short dream with her in it. In the dream she was ghost like, like a shimmer of white around her. She was driving in a van we used to have and with me as a passenger. She then asked me if it was the right road, to which I answered yes. Next I look up and see that she must have missed a turn and is driving straight ahead on a lawn and coming to a stop when encountering a small hedge. I can see that she is not looking well and ask her if I should take over, which I then proceed to do, though I find myself unable to start the car again. End of dream. What stuck out to me in this dream was that she was ghost like as opposed to the dream a couple of days earlier, when she was wearing a colourful top. One could speculate that something had actually happened in between and that she had moved on and/or the attachment was gone.
It made me think of Spirit release and as to whether there was more to the curse than I had thought. To me it feels like a positive development and that perhaps an old attachment has finally moved on, an attachment which might have come with the curse those 26 years ago or with her death. I have to admit that I had completely forgotten about the curse back then and only remembered when the dream came.
Baldwin has also written about curses, and how strong emotional feelings can lead to a fragmentation which can open the door to attachments and sometimes of demonic entities. I am not saying this is what happened, only that it is a possibility. He writes:
Witchcraft and black magic, spells, hexes and curses can cause a fragmentation in the practitioner, witch or sorcerer. The fragment of consciousness gives power to the curse. This fragment remains with the victim of the magic or curse. There is always dark energy involved in this sort of intrusive activity.
I am not sure what effect if any, the curse has had on me in my life but the dream intrigued me, also with her saying that I would always be hers, as in belong to her. I would like to think that if such an attachment was there, that it has now left and that she has moved on too.