Inquorate said:It's always difficult being mindful of external / internal considering. Is there any material I could read to refresh my understanding of it?
There is material for you to read and refresh your understanding of it. :) If you are not aware of it, there is a Cassiopaea Glossary that is really great for looking up terms we use here so that you can get a better understanding of them.
Here is the link for External and Internal Considering.
Also, there is a very good thread put up by Laura on Splitting as a Symptom of Internal Considering on the Psychology & Cognitive Science board.
Hope this helps, and I hope that the surgery you are having done in December will help you out with the pain you are suffering.