ELT
Jedi
Dear Fellowship,
What you’re about to read has been as thoroughly pondered as possible, through heart and mind.
I’ve been warned about the constant search for excitement, here is about commitment.
I’m not talking about passion either, from which zealotry can emerge.
It rather looks and sounds like the call.
Please, let me tell you a story.
I embarked on a journey at 21 by going abroad, to learn about Life by exploring the outer world.
I learned, later, that what I went for actually corresponds to the Hero’s Journey, and definitely happens to be a spiritual one.
Connected to the inner world, the experience allowed a development of essence, and confirmed the existence of an altogether different, possible and healthier way of life – one that seems to match Paleo-Christianity.
Being able to share identical experiences and observations about reality, with people coming from totally different origins, indicated me the clear existence of something bigger connecting some of us together.
It represented, nevertheless, glimpses of it. I didn’t have the theoretical concepts yet, though I was sure of the universal nature of what was taking place.
Therefore, I suspected an answer to be provided by the different religions, at least. From my outsider standpoint, they were all dealing with the same topic:
How to be a Real human?
That’s actually where I started my quest for explanations.
I was ready to study and connect all of them, no matter how long it would take, when I found about the Cassiopaean experiment – and thus Gurdjieff, Mouravieff, etc. I had discovered that the study I aimed at had already been covered, proof that a deeper truth was well hiding.
It’s been 3 years since, as we measure time, and I have yet a whole universe to learn about.
Mouravieff describes my situation from then till now. I finally feel like exiting this long and trying doubtful stage:
Basically, I commence this life perceiving most of – if not all – what’s around me as shallow, fake and absurd. I began by feeling disconnected from my city, then country, and now from the world at large; it’s exactly like speaking a whole different language.
Which then raised the typical questions of: “What’s the point of it all?” and “Where do I fit in all that?”
It’s on this concern that the concepts of Wanderers, Shamans, STO candidates... bring relieving plausible explanations that interestingly speak to me (too).
Currently, I’m at that point where a responsible choice is to be made:
Do I follow “comfort” and ignore everything – which will ultimately result in stagnation and withering
or
do I answer the call and pursue my path – which will be a challenge to complete my Potential?
The machine doesn’t like it, but I feel appealed by the second one; the first makes no sense to me.
In the meantime, some curious signs poped-up along the way.
I tend to stay skeptical about so-called signs, though. I know it can easily be a product of wishful thinking, for instance, so I usually look at them from a distance with amusement.
However, when they multiply in the following way, I start to wonder about the probability of something to be seen in their direction…
I’m aware of this possibility, on the one hand:
Tricky is the task to SEE which is which, and when, with a Control System that mimics Truth so well. I’ve been lured already, but mainly because of shoving things under the rug, ‘doubting’.
There is also the clue of signs appearing ‘before’ or ‘after’ a choice, that can indeed help.
That being said, here I am.
First off, I was still abroad when I launched my research and stumbled upon the Cassiopaean experiment.
As a matter of fact, it was few months later – once circumstances brought me back to France – that I learned that your journey also ended up there.
I found it funny, as it could have been anywhere else in the world.
Secondly, another hint appeared when looking at the location of the Château St Martin, out of curiosity. On the map, a special name caught my eye right next to its location, a district called « Redon » (meaning “to give back/again” in french).
Notice that it is the exact same name as the district in which I’m born, in Marseille…
Amused, I decided to let that in a corner of my mind, as I sensed it wasn’t the moment yet at that point.
Later, still growing up in Marseille, we moved to another place, where I stayed till I left the family nest. The address was:
« 31 Chemin du Vallon de Toulouse ». [...Perce a Val?]
The connection showed up between Toulouse, the main city near the Château, and this number 31, being even Toulouse’s postcode.
(Continuing with numbers, 31 reversed gives 13, Marseille’s postcode)
Finally, it’s from early February on – with elements adding up over the months – that an impression hit me while meditating after EE, and produced a ‘haha moment’.
I suddenly realized that during my childhood in Redon, I actually grew up next door to my first friend called Laura, who was franco-english, and whose mother’s name was Christine...
(As Dorothy said :
«If I ever go looking for my heart’s desire again, I won’t look any further than in my own backyard. Because, if it isn’t there, I never really lost it to begin with.»)
In addition, before realizing any of these, backpacking confirmed how truly alive I feel when learning, while evolving in an international environment, speaking English, with open and honest people.
So the whole makes me wonder.
I questioned protractedly on writing.
This message seems to be a necessary step to see clearer about my present, past and future – to finally find my place and role in humanity at this stage.
I realized early that I needed to Be in order to Do anything worthwhile; such has been my focus so far (still is), so now I need to Do.
I refuse to contribute to the sickness when health and beauty can also exist.
Out of intense recapitulation, I chose to live this past ‘scholar’ year as a hermit, keeping up with the full time study of psychology, the Work and the Wave series. I needed to understand, in order to build my life on solid bases and lucid/conscious choices.
Now that I’m even more aware (of the terror) of the situation, I hardly see what to do, other than to live by – what I learn from – the truth.
Conclusively, « One person alone can do nothing ».
I’m searching for the right soil in which taking roots to grow strong, to be useful to the Cause – the truth. Thanks to previous decisions based on knowledge, I am free to choose where going now (?).
Accordingly, if I may, I would like to inquire:
How do you perceive the situation from your perspective, please?
I strive to embody, deepen and render (‘Redon’-ner) what I received; while keep discovering.
I ask to learn... or to remember, in simple order to Live.
I’m like a beginner playing with poetry.
My deep interest in Paleo-Christianity, fueled by Curiosity, hold my will to know more.
In search of answers, I observe and explore.
May it be as it is,
Thank you for everything.
What you’re about to read has been as thoroughly pondered as possible, through heart and mind.
I’ve been warned about the constant search for excitement, here is about commitment.
I’m not talking about passion either, from which zealotry can emerge.
It rather looks and sounds like the call.
Please, let me tell you a story.
I embarked on a journey at 21 by going abroad, to learn about Life by exploring the outer world.
I learned, later, that what I went for actually corresponds to the Hero’s Journey, and definitely happens to be a spiritual one.
Connected to the inner world, the experience allowed a development of essence, and confirmed the existence of an altogether different, possible and healthier way of life – one that seems to match Paleo-Christianity.
Being able to share identical experiences and observations about reality, with people coming from totally different origins, indicated me the clear existence of something bigger connecting some of us together.
It represented, nevertheless, glimpses of it. I didn’t have the theoretical concepts yet, though I was sure of the universal nature of what was taking place.
Therefore, I suspected an answer to be provided by the different religions, at least. From my outsider standpoint, they were all dealing with the same topic:
How to be a Real human?
That’s actually where I started my quest for explanations.
I was ready to study and connect all of them, no matter how long it would take, when I found about the Cassiopaean experiment – and thus Gurdjieff, Mouravieff, etc. I had discovered that the study I aimed at had already been covered, proof that a deeper truth was well hiding.
It’s been 3 years since, as we measure time, and I have yet a whole universe to learn about.
Mouravieff describes my situation from then till now. I finally feel like exiting this long and trying doubtful stage:
Basically, I commence this life perceiving most of – if not all – what’s around me as shallow, fake and absurd. I began by feeling disconnected from my city, then country, and now from the world at large; it’s exactly like speaking a whole different language.
Which then raised the typical questions of: “What’s the point of it all?” and “Where do I fit in all that?”
It’s on this concern that the concepts of Wanderers, Shamans, STO candidates... bring relieving plausible explanations that interestingly speak to me (too).
Currently, I’m at that point where a responsible choice is to be made:
Do I follow “comfort” and ignore everything – which will ultimately result in stagnation and withering
or
do I answer the call and pursue my path – which will be a challenge to complete my Potential?
The machine doesn’t like it, but I feel appealed by the second one; the first makes no sense to me.
In the meantime, some curious signs poped-up along the way.
I tend to stay skeptical about so-called signs, though. I know it can easily be a product of wishful thinking, for instance, so I usually look at them from a distance with amusement.
However, when they multiply in the following way, I start to wonder about the probability of something to be seen in their direction…
I’m aware of this possibility, on the one hand:
As well as this one, on the other hand:
Tricky is the task to SEE which is which, and when, with a Control System that mimics Truth so well. I’ve been lured already, but mainly because of shoving things under the rug, ‘doubting’.
There is also the clue of signs appearing ‘before’ or ‘after’ a choice, that can indeed help.
That being said, here I am.
First off, I was still abroad when I launched my research and stumbled upon the Cassiopaean experiment.
As a matter of fact, it was few months later – once circumstances brought me back to France – that I learned that your journey also ended up there.
I found it funny, as it could have been anywhere else in the world.
Secondly, another hint appeared when looking at the location of the Château St Martin, out of curiosity. On the map, a special name caught my eye right next to its location, a district called « Redon » (meaning “to give back/again” in french).
Notice that it is the exact same name as the district in which I’m born, in Marseille…
Amused, I decided to let that in a corner of my mind, as I sensed it wasn’t the moment yet at that point.
Later, still growing up in Marseille, we moved to another place, where I stayed till I left the family nest. The address was:
« 31 Chemin du Vallon de Toulouse ». [...Perce a Val?]
The connection showed up between Toulouse, the main city near the Château, and this number 31, being even Toulouse’s postcode.
(Continuing with numbers, 31 reversed gives 13, Marseille’s postcode)
Finally, it’s from early February on – with elements adding up over the months – that an impression hit me while meditating after EE, and produced a ‘haha moment’.
I suddenly realized that during my childhood in Redon, I actually grew up next door to my first friend called Laura, who was franco-english, and whose mother’s name was Christine...
(As Dorothy said :
«If I ever go looking for my heart’s desire again, I won’t look any further than in my own backyard. Because, if it isn’t there, I never really lost it to begin with.»)
In addition, before realizing any of these, backpacking confirmed how truly alive I feel when learning, while evolving in an international environment, speaking English, with open and honest people.
So the whole makes me wonder.
I questioned protractedly on writing.
This message seems to be a necessary step to see clearer about my present, past and future – to finally find my place and role in humanity at this stage.
I realized early that I needed to Be in order to Do anything worthwhile; such has been my focus so far (still is), so now I need to Do.
I refuse to contribute to the sickness when health and beauty can also exist.
Out of intense recapitulation, I chose to live this past ‘scholar’ year as a hermit, keeping up with the full time study of psychology, the Work and the Wave series. I needed to understand, in order to build my life on solid bases and lucid/conscious choices.
Now that I’m even more aware (of the terror) of the situation, I hardly see what to do, other than to live by – what I learn from – the truth.
Conclusively, « One person alone can do nothing ».
I’m searching for the right soil in which taking roots to grow strong, to be useful to the Cause – the truth. Thanks to previous decisions based on knowledge, I am free to choose where going now (?).
Accordingly, if I may, I would like to inquire:
How do you perceive the situation from your perspective, please?
I strive to embody, deepen and render (‘Redon’-ner) what I received; while keep discovering.
I ask to learn... or to remember, in simple order to Live.
I’m like a beginner playing with poetry.
My deep interest in Paleo-Christianity, fueled by Curiosity, hold my will to know more.
In search of answers, I observe and explore.
May it be as it is,
Thank you for everything.
