" a challenge?"

[Alma.Innovadora]

Hello fellow travelers, I thought about certain things, but as the networking is important, I wanted to share this with the forum(Any misunderstanding, please ask me ...

I usually throw my thoughts, and sometimes things are different to what I really want to present):

As I've posted lately, I'm in a struggle for control of my creative energy. Three weeks ago, while sleeping, I heard an external voice that told me "try it if you can. " While I felt that something was holding me in the limbs, and I laughed to hear that expression, as if I knew I was trying. But I felt calm, even though my body was in a disturbed state.

A day before, I felt that it would begin a fight inside me, and I said to myself, "It is time to take control of myself and say No!" This voice was very direct. Like a challenge.

Reading again the wave, I found that people are being abducted have an abnormal sexual behavior. Taking into account the fall, and other personal experiancias ... Is it possible that somehow, some people we are interacting in some way more directly with STS? Perhaps the short time left... lessons from each one... I had too much time dreaming about a former girlfriend... until I could detect that in fact had not lived this experience with her, or what I thought I "loved" of her. I just remembered the flesh, so she had me in a dream and this was used to influence my creative energy. Until that point, I stopped dreaming about her as a sex object. Even after living this great experience with it was that my life took an amazing twist. Understanding in effect, the relationship "love"of the people. As if it had, seven relations... at the same time.

At this point, is that I talk about it... this life has been so short... I think I'm at the stage where I need to apply the knowledge...

As I posted at the beginning of my stay in the forum, I received assistance from a Member's Forum, that person was one key, that I come up here). I usually try first my thoughts with that person (speaks Spanish, which has facilitated the feedback), I could move forward and understand at least in a "basic", with one eye closed and one open, half awake, about objectivity, before Apparently a full forum troll. In fact, if not so, be very well that I would be out.

He said, "maybe you are going through what happened David, after so many trials and pain, got his palace and wealth but to think that I had nothing to do, fell into a morbid entertainment and was given a chance." And in fact I felt my life so, double-edged... I've done the exercises E.E and I have not felt pain, anger, nothing... I feel comfortable, why do I have a life so quiet? I always wonder, disturbs me!.

I have everything needed at the material level but I have never been (in this life) selfish or ambitious. I have an incredible health, despite the large amount of garbage that I have given my body...

Why the hell is my life so comfortable? is as if chosen, have enough time to learn about the wave... this material.

My father does rituals, it is too materialistic and psychological problems encountered in which insurance was very marked in its infancy. He has won the lottery incredibly, even playing my birthday... I thought that leads to certain entities and these are what I speak me in my dreams... something... of a more direct way, among other things ... that surely escaped my thoughts at this time.

I have almost 5 years away from society... and I thought of looking for a place more distant from the city... even for a few days.

I do not feel alone, or anything similar... My psycho-emotional problems were overcome long ago.

I feel it is time to apply knowledge with people...

The main theme was the "voice" but I felt I should write all this.


ADD: Corrected some translations.

 

[Buddy]

I feel it is time to apply knowledge with people...

Could be. How do you feel that you would go about this? The answer to this question could provide an important pointer to the next step on your path, OSIT. :)

 

[monksgirl]

At this point, is that I talk about it... this life has been so short... I think I'm at the stage where I need to apply the knowledge...
And in fact I felt my life so, double-edged... I've done the exercises E.E and I have not felt pain, anger, nothing... I feel comfortable, why do I have a life so quiet? I always wonder, disturbs me!.

I have everything needed at the material level but I have never been (in this life) selfish or ambitious. I have an incredible health, despite the large amount of garbage that I have given my body...

Why the hell is my life so comfortable? is as if chosen, have enough time to learn about the wave... this material

I have almost 5 years away from society... and I thought of looking for a place more distant from the city... even for a few days.

I do not feel alone, or anything similar......

I feel it is time to apply knowledge with people...

Are you complaining that your life is too comfortable, thus not challenging you with lessons to be learned? Have you read much of the suggested reading outside of the Wave series, which you indicate you have read more than once, am I understanding this correctly? Why are you feeding your body garbage? Or have you changed this? You indicate you are not lonely, but still want more contact with others with which to put into practice what you have learned, but still say you want to live more distant from the city? Aren't these at odds? There are always places to meet and interact with more people if you need more social contact. Since I think I understand you don't need to work, take a class, go on a group tour, give time to a worthy charity; maybe concentrate on charities helping people who have not been too blessed materially.
Since the beginning of reading the Wave and the forums, and learning more about human nature, and what kinds of influences others, and even ourselves, can be affected by, I tend to view people with more skepticism and to actually avoid or approach warily other people, because you don't know what you're going to run into. I am interested in what you and others might say of my interpretation, hope I did not miss something in translation, or mess up the quote marks.

 

[Alma.Innovadora]

Could be. How do you feel that you would go about this? The answer to this question could provide an important pointer to the next step on your path, OSIT. Smiley

Movement, more action. Failure to act more, can not get the things that led to another and so on.

Are you complaining that your life is too comfortable, thus not challenging you with lessons to be learned?

Not so much a complain about my life, it's just that I've never had a really strong pain. I mean, I read sometimes sad events of some members, or in the daily lives of other people I know. And that I'm... just watching. In family of light I was reading where they said, "Sometimes the crisis is needed to break with certain standards of conduct"

it's a question according to what I see reflected in my life. I worry a little, watch as much comfort, does that just makes you want to be comfortable and sleeping.

Have you read much of the suggested reading outside of the Wave series, which you indicate you have read more than once, am I understanding this correctly?

I've been thinking that when it depends entirely on the material Cass and not done a thorough study on their own, then there is no progress. I have not read the wave more than once, I read almost complete just one time, and now I'm going to review it more carefully, I really forget things.

Why are you feeding your body garbage? Or have you changed this?

I stop eating many things, and for 1 year between the forum and it turned out, because recently I drank a little alcohol and food in December that he had left, and this caused me an allergy. And I did it just to see how my body would react after leaving those foods, GM, soft drinks, etc.

Before coming to the forum, and years ago, was too much poison. And yet, I've improved. I have noticed several changes for the better. Maybe I'll quite literally too "Apply and discover"

You indicate you are not lonely, but still want more contact with others with which to put into practice what you have learned, but still say you want to live more distant from the city? Aren't these at odds? There are always places to meet and interact with more people if you need more social contact. Since I think I understand you don't need to work, take a class, go on a group tour, give time to a worthy charity; maybe concentrate on charities helping people who have not been too blessed materially.

Since the beginning of reading the Wave and the forums, and learning more about human nature, and what kinds of influences others, and even ourselves, can be affected by, I tend to view people with more skepticism and to actually avoid or approach warily other people, because you don't know what you're going to run into.

I emphasize in when I say "I do not feel alone " is not to be confused with the relationship of isolation and depression or something. As one must learn to walk between two worlds, there comes a point where one know there is nothing to do "here", so we then have to move "there" or stay "on".

But careful not to fall into a pond and see the world in an apathetic way, where there is no place in anything.

I do not look away from people. However, Together but not stirred. That's where I think, comes into play to learn to know human nature, influences of others and oneself. But neither need to be with people or with someone.

Apply only what I've been reading, and for that, I should be with people. I feel it is time to apply knowledge with people and so to see my own machine in operation in new circumstances.

I have plans to teach for free drawing classes, share my knowledge in the field of photography and graphic design. But that can wait.