BrendaH
Jedi
Hello, I want to share with you all a dream that I had today.
I was in my house, and I remember that I wasn't able to walk properly, I was teetering. And I was feeling bad because everyone around me was walking fine and I wasn't. And someone told me: "If you don't want this you can't keep conscious" or something like that, the only part that I remember perfectly is when he said "you can't keep conscious". I said "no, it's doesn't matter, I'll won't get uncsoncious" and then I was in a dark place, there was no light, there was nothing, and I was spiraling down, I saw in the "ground" something like a place where I was going to fall. I wanted to wake up but for a second I couldn't and I get a little scared because that never happened before, I started moving my fingers so I woke up. I was feelling vibrations in my arms and legs, that usually happen when I'm on that dark place and then I woke up, I used to try to have OBE's and I end up on that place, almost always.
Obviously the meaning of the dream wasn't that if I keep conscious someone will broke my legs or I wouldn't be able to walk properly again. I think It's about how I feel, because it's very awfull and sad to know that everyone around you is walking like machines, not having questions, and not questioning about nothing, they believe without questioning. I was having difficulties to walk, because I know things that people don't, I'm conscious, and I watch everyday people being hipnotized by their own believes and it hurts. I almost couldn't walk, I wasn't being able to kept moving into life, so that voice came to tell if you don't want to see those things, if you want to see everyone happy and a perfect world, if you want to be able to walk among the darkness of this world whitout being hurt "you can't keep conscious". And this makes a lot of sense, a few days ago I was thinking about how everyone is being eaten, and how awful is to see everyone happy, when they don't even know the half of what is really happening. I was raised in a religious house, a religious school, I knew a lot of religions because of my family constantly searching of god, and I'm atheist, not because "I never found god, or because he never gave me what I wanted", I swear for my life that I tried my best, and this was not questioning, or to make answers to my question to cut the thoughts. That was the only way. But I couldn't, I always knew there was something wrong. If you search, you will find. The truth hurts, but the lie deceives, so I prefer to be hurt, even if is hurting me so bad, but I will absolutly NEVER "believe" without questioning first, I will not "believe" a lie if that dosn't make sense to me, I prefer not walk again. Have you ever wanted to share all that you know, without imposing, just sharing with someone all the things you have learned? And have you tried this with a religious person? OH "God" they closed themselves in a box, you can't even talk with them, because they don't want to hear you, they stare to their phones, to the insect that is flying around, because in that moment anything is better than pay attention to you. I felt really offended for this attitude, I can't even say the half of the whole thing, I'm very carefull with that. Or also they told you "respect my believes" wait, what?? I was just sharing with you what I think it's truth and you think that I'm attacking you, well... fine, I can't do nothing. This is the reason why I don't share nothing anymore, it's very difficult when they are so closed with themselves, I have the best intentions but I can't. If someone has happened for the same please let me know how to resolve this.
Goodbye!!!
I was in my house, and I remember that I wasn't able to walk properly, I was teetering. And I was feeling bad because everyone around me was walking fine and I wasn't. And someone told me: "If you don't want this you can't keep conscious" or something like that, the only part that I remember perfectly is when he said "you can't keep conscious". I said "no, it's doesn't matter, I'll won't get uncsoncious" and then I was in a dark place, there was no light, there was nothing, and I was spiraling down, I saw in the "ground" something like a place where I was going to fall. I wanted to wake up but for a second I couldn't and I get a little scared because that never happened before, I started moving my fingers so I woke up. I was feelling vibrations in my arms and legs, that usually happen when I'm on that dark place and then I woke up, I used to try to have OBE's and I end up on that place, almost always.
Obviously the meaning of the dream wasn't that if I keep conscious someone will broke my legs or I wouldn't be able to walk properly again. I think It's about how I feel, because it's very awfull and sad to know that everyone around you is walking like machines, not having questions, and not questioning about nothing, they believe without questioning. I was having difficulties to walk, because I know things that people don't, I'm conscious, and I watch everyday people being hipnotized by their own believes and it hurts. I almost couldn't walk, I wasn't being able to kept moving into life, so that voice came to tell if you don't want to see those things, if you want to see everyone happy and a perfect world, if you want to be able to walk among the darkness of this world whitout being hurt "you can't keep conscious". And this makes a lot of sense, a few days ago I was thinking about how everyone is being eaten, and how awful is to see everyone happy, when they don't even know the half of what is really happening. I was raised in a religious house, a religious school, I knew a lot of religions because of my family constantly searching of god, and I'm atheist, not because "I never found god, or because he never gave me what I wanted", I swear for my life that I tried my best, and this was not questioning, or to make answers to my question to cut the thoughts. That was the only way. But I couldn't, I always knew there was something wrong. If you search, you will find. The truth hurts, but the lie deceives, so I prefer to be hurt, even if is hurting me so bad, but I will absolutly NEVER "believe" without questioning first, I will not "believe" a lie if that dosn't make sense to me, I prefer not walk again. Have you ever wanted to share all that you know, without imposing, just sharing with someone all the things you have learned? And have you tried this with a religious person? OH "God" they closed themselves in a box, you can't even talk with them, because they don't want to hear you, they stare to their phones, to the insect that is flying around, because in that moment anything is better than pay attention to you. I felt really offended for this attitude, I can't even say the half of the whole thing, I'm very carefull with that. Or also they told you "respect my believes" wait, what?? I was just sharing with you what I think it's truth and you think that I'm attacking you, well... fine, I can't do nothing. This is the reason why I don't share nothing anymore, it's very difficult when they are so closed with themselves, I have the best intentions but I can't. If someone has happened for the same please let me know how to resolve this.
Goodbye!!!
