A nightmare: I was looking for my husband

[loreta]

I just had a terrible nightmare, one of those that I wake up yelling, something that did not happened since many years. My nightmare was this one:

I am in a strange store. They sell various items, food and other things. They have, for example, a head of a pig and this head is lively, the pig is moving his mouth and ears. I say to my husband that I will buy the head because we like to eat Papada, something from the pig near his head that is very good, better than bacon. I say to myself: the pig does not know that he is dead, yet.

Than I am outside, it is a beautiful day and I see my husband walking fast direction to the toilets somewhere. He is in good humor and after coming from the toilets he will take sun with me, he says. I am waiting, waiting till I decided to look after him. I look everywhere and I don't find him. I walk longtime, enter stores that are close, I am very, extremely worried. Suddenly I meet a guy, he is good looking and seems to work on the street repairing something with other men. He asks me if I came from Barcelona and we start to talk together but I tell him that I am looking for my husband and then if I don't find him I will call the police. He have keys and we enter a building that is close. He opens with his key a door that is a toilet and then... when we enter the toilet we see that something has happened there, a fight, there is destruction, everything is broke and I hear a moan like a moan from a small animal... I ask the guy if it is my husband that is there, and then I see something on the floor, like a bag-pack... and inside is an head, the head of my husband that it is now like the head of a mummy. Someone has put fire on him and my husband is this head, this terrible head that is burned, distort, in sufferance. I take the head in my arms with gentleness. My husband says something like: I don't want to die... or something like that. I am so sorry that someone did that to an innocent person, with gratuity. Then I wake up yelling and yelling and yelling.

Now I am afraid of returning to sleep.

In real life I am always worried of my husband because he has MS and at the same time I am angry with him because I think he does not want to do nothing for him, take care of him. Lately we argued because he never exercise. That's why I was very surprise to see him in my dream walking and ready to take sun. In real life my husband never do things for his health. So maybe this nightmare has a message concerning this situation but I am unable to see it clearly right now.

Thank you to listen to me.

 

[mkrnhr]

Hi Loreta,
This is a terrible dream, and very graphic. Writing it down here is a good thing, sometimes it's better for letting the emotional charge go out.
You can take the time to do some gentle breathing before going back to sleep. If the whole emotional charge has been released with this dream, you shouldn't be afraid to sleep again. POTS should help as well.

 

[truth seeker]

In real life I am always worried of my husband because he has MS and at the same time I am angry with him because I think he does not want to do nothing for him, take care of him. Lately we argued because he never exercise. That's why I was very surprise to see him in my dream walking and ready to take sun. In real life my husband never do things for his health. So maybe this nightmare has a message concerning this situation but I am unable to see it clearly right now.

That does sound like a terrible dream and I hope you'll be able to rest peacefully again soon.

What you wrote above sounds like it may hold some clues to what the dream was about. Perhaps your concern/emotional state regarding the health of your husband is being processed?

I agree with mkrnhr's advice and think it will be very helpful to you.

 

[loreta]

You are right, and thanks, just writing here this nightmare made me feel better. It is true that dreams are a mirror of our lives. But this morning after reading the article about Chypre and the terrible consequences of it (http://www.sott.net/article/259854-The-crazy-theft-of-depositor-savings-in-Cyprus-could-start-a-European-bank-run-on-Monday) I am thinking that maybe this nightmare was a sort of premonition? The horror in nightmares are sometimes universal feelings, and I remember that in the scene of the toilet I was chocked by the violence, the destruction, the feeling of seeing how this violence was against innocent people. And my husband was maybe a symbol of the Victim.

That not means that I refuse to see also my daily preoccupations about the illness of my husband... and that I don't want to confront them because they are a full bag pack of preoccupations! ;) but after reading this article that SOTT put this morning this is really a nightmare that maybe and surely is coming to us,humanity. I don't know. Thankfully I have this forum in my life.

The head of the pig is also very intriguing. I see, through this pig in my dream, that we are, humanity, like a herd of animals not knowing how dead we are... We are like this beautiful head of the pig in my nightmare, not knowing that very soon we will be eat. But maybe I am projecting, after the reading of the article that is really scary.

 

[Gwenllian]

Nightmares seem so real, don't they?

I also had a bad dream last night. I have had several bad dreams this past week, but I felt truly scared after this one, although it wasn't a nightmare. And I also made the connection with Cyprus this morning. :(

My dream was about my financial resources and how some young women broke into my home and wished to rob me and the situation was very dangerous. I woke up, feeling frightened, but I didn't get/think of the end of my dream. Because in my dream I got the time somehow to defend myself, get a frying pan and hit the young woman over her head with it, over and over again, because she was very resilient, but she fell down eventually. Come to think of it this woman wasn't even violent.

I am reading 'Programmed to kill' by David McGowan and that might also be related to my dream. I don't know, I find it hard to tell sometimes.

You are right, and thanks, just writing here this nightmare made me feel better. It is true that dreams are a mirror of our lives. But this morning after reading the article about Chypre and the terrible consequences of it (http://www.sott.net/article/259854-The-crazy-theft-of-depositor-savings-in-Cyprus-could-start-a-European-bank-run-on-Monday) I am thinking that maybe this nightmare was a sort of premonition? The horror in nightmares are sometimes universal feelings, and I remember that in the scene of the toilet I was chocked by the violence, the destruction, the feeling of seeing how this violence was against innocent people. And my husband was maybe a symbol of the Victim.

That is also what I saw in my dream: violence against innocent people and that characterizes what is happening in Cyprus right now and what will come to us as well. But it also characterizes 'Programmed to kill', the utter destruction and depravity of these psychopaths.

Hope you are feeling calmer now, Loreta. Hope you managed to go back to sleep.

 

[Zadius Sky]

That is a terrible nightmare, loreta, and I also agree with mkrnhr's advice. It's quite essential to write it down and to let your emotions flow.

Here's my take on your dream with an approach of breaking down the clues from your dreams that stood out to me (this is just an interpretation - some of them may apply to you or not). Just another perspective.

I am in a strange store. They sell various items, food and other things. They have, for example, a head of a pig and this head is lively, the pig is moving his mouth and ears. I say to my husband that I will buy the head because we like to eat Papada, something from the pig near his head that is very good, better than bacon. I say to myself: the pig does not know that he is dead, yet.

From my dream experiences, the sensation of being in a "store" represents an opportunity of knowing what you "need," which is "within a reach" (or one of the possibilities that is close to being utilized).

Then, you directed your attention to the "head" (intellect, attitude, or perspective) of a "pig" (overindulgence, self-servicing thoughts, or insensitivity). The image of the "head being cut off" is an indication that a certain attitude or perspective is not in control of one's decisions.

I found your saying "pig does not know that he is dead yet" is interesting because that pig is a part of you which lacks awareness of something.

This part of the dream felt like a "starting ground" for the following scene.

Than I am outside, it is a beautiful day and I see my husband walking fast direction to the toilets somewhere. He is in good humor and after coming from the toilets he will take sun with me, he says. I am waiting, waiting till I decided to look after him. I look everywhere and I don't find him. I walk longtime, enter stores that are close, I am very, extremely worried. Suddenly I meet a guy, he is good looking and seems to work on the street repairing something with other men. He asks me if I came from Barcelona and we start to talk together but I tell him that I am looking for my husband and then if I don't find him I will call the police. He have keys and we enter a building that is close. He opens with his key a door that is a toilet and then... when we enter the toilet we see that something has happened there, a fight, there is destruction, everything is broke and I hear a moan like a moan from a small animal... I ask the guy if it is my husband that is there, and then I see something on the floor, like a bag-pack... and inside is an head, the head of my husband that it is now like the head of a mummy. Someone has put fire on him and my husband is this head, this terrible head that is burned, distort, in sufferance. I take the head in my arms with gentleness. My husband says something like: I don't want to die... or something like that. I am so sorry that someone did that to an innocent person, with gratuity. Then I wake up yelling and yelling and yelling.

I can certainly understand why this part of the dream is scary, emotional even. The one important image that jumps at me is the "toilet," which usually means a need to "release" certain emotion/attitude.

In the past year, I had had a number of "toilet" dreams where I would need to let go of certain "attitude" about or towards something (in relation to specific person or subject), which I've written in my journals intensively, then that attitude was no longer needed (to which I've felt a bit of a relief - it was such a drain to even have that).

So, in this case, it would be your attitude/emotion towards your husband or about his behavior (which I think you're dually right about this nightmare being about him and your attitude towards him). And, you mentioned that you are upset about him lacking awareness or will to change his diet/health, so you "want" him to get better.

From this, I was wondering about the "external consideration" and "free will" involved here. If he doesn't want to change his health, that's up to him, not you (which could be your attitude that your dream "may" be telling you to let go). However, you are married and both of you are reflecting each other and would support one another towards a common aim. That doesn't seem to be the case here. I was then wondering if you have had shared your feelings with him about his health and the consequences?

My .002 cent.

:)

 

[loreta]

This is a very interesting interpretation of this dream,Zadius Sky. My husband is a very stubborn person. I have sometimes extremely difficulty with "external consideration" concerning him. He is following the same diet than me, paleo, without problem. But concerning doing some exercises he does not wanted at all. He also never wanted to take sun in summer even if he knows that vit. D is very good for him. I agree, I should accept his decisions. Some days are more easy than others. But if he continues to refuse to move, to do some exercises he will surely need a wheel chair in the future. And I will be the one who will push his wheel chair.

So yes, your comments sound deeply in me:

In the past year, I had had a number of "toilet" dreams where I would need to let go of certain "attitude" about or towards something (in relation to specific person or subject), which I've written in my journals intensively, then that attitude was no longer needed (to which I've felt a bit of a relief - it was such a drain to even have that).

And this one:

From this, I was wondering about the "external consideration" and "free will" involved here. If he doesn't want to change his health, that's up to him, not you (which could be your attitude that your dream "may" be telling you to let go).

My big difficulty, as I said, is to let it go. I see now this nightmare with a certain respect. I thank you very much for the insights.

Mariama: your dream is very interesting, how you defend yourself with the frying pan! ;)

Thanks!

 

[Gwenllian]

I take the head in my arms with gentleness. My husband says something like: I don't want to die... or something like that. I am so sorry that someone did that to an innocent person, with gratuity. Then I wake up yelling and yelling and yelling.

I am terrible at explaining dreams, but this reminded me of Hugo Chavez, who, if we can believe the news articles said the same thing, before he died. And who also got burnt in a way. Since you were on the HC thread I couldn't help but associating, but I am probably way off.
Maybe you picked up some of his anguish, but that is just a thought. Discard it, if you wish. ;)

In real life I am always worried of my husband because he has MS and at the same time I am angry with him because I think he does not want to do nothing for him, take care of him. Lately we argued because he never exercise. That's why I was very surprise to see him in my dream walking and ready to take sun. In real life my husband never do things for his health. So maybe this nightmare has a message concerning this situation but I am unable to see it clearly right now.

Again, I may be way off, but I was actually thinking today that you could be the husband in this dream, walking and "ready to take sun", because of this forum.

How are you feeling now? I sometimes feel weird and out of it, when I have had scary and important dreams.