AP Gaza reporter finds hometown in rubble

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I must confess, reading this, I try to imagine myself in his shoes. All I feel when I try and wear this is overwhelming rage, the kind of nonlinear rage that would make me get a rifle and just start shooting at Israelis, any Israeli. Its not that what is happening is genocide, there are many examples of this in our sorry world today, it is that like the emperor with no clothes, nobody is willing to just step up and call it what it is.

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20090107/ap_on_re_mi_ea/ml_gaza_a_reporter_s_story_3

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AP Gaza reporter finds hometown in rubble

By IBRAHIM BARZAK, Associated Press Writer Ibrahim Barzak, Associated Press Writer – Wed Jan 7, 2:39 pm ET

GAZA CITY, Gaza Strip – I live alone in my office. My wife and two young children moved in with her father after our apartment was shattered. The neighborhood mosque, where I have prayed since I was a child, had its roof blown off. All the government buildings on my beat have been obliterated.

After days of Israeli shelling, the city and life I have known no longer exist.

Gaza City, with some 400,000 people, stopped supplying water when the fuel ran out for the power station driving the pumps. We listen to battery-run radios for news, even though the outside world watches what's happening to us on television. The Hadi grocery where we once shopped is closed. Food is scarce all over town.

Three days after Israel began its airstrikes against Hamas militants on Dec. 27, my apartment building was shaken by bombs aimed at a nearby Hamas-run government compound.

My brother took a picture of the room where my boys, 2-year-old Hikmet and 6-month-old Ahmed, once slept. Their toys were broken, shrapnel had punched through the closet and the bedroom wall had collapsed. I don't know if we will ever go back.

There are other pictures that haunt me. The Israeli army issued a video of the bombing of the Hamas-run government compound, which it posted on YouTube. In it, I also can see my home being destroyed, and I watch it obsessively.

Some of my colleagues lost their houses to the shelling as well, and are sleeping on mattresses spread across the floors of an apartment upstairs from The Associated Press bureau.

On Tuesday, I stood outside my apartment building but didn't dare enter. I was worried the remains of the nearby compound might again be shelled.

Othman, the owner of the Addar restaurant where my wife and I bought takeaway when we were both working, put up aluminum sheeting over the broken windows to stop looters. On the pavement, phone and power lines were tangled together like twine.

Driving to central Gaza City, I took the road where Gaza's two main universities are. It was covered with shards of glass, telephone cables, electricity wires and flattened cars. This road was once crowded with students, taxis and street vendors.

The Mazaj coffee shop on Omar Mukhtar street, Gaza's main thoroughfare, was shuttered. It was popular with wealthy university students and foreigners working for nonprofit agencies because it served really good Guatemalan coffee — rumored to have been smuggled in through the same tunnels under the Egyptian border the militants used to bring in weapons.

Al Dera, a beautiful hotel on the Mediterranean shore, was a place where young men and women smoked water pipes and flirted, and where families went for dinner on Thursdays.

Those days are gone now.

On Tuesday, the only shop I found open was the Shifa pharmacy run by my friend Eyad Sayegh. He's an Orthodox Christian, and I stopped to wish him a Merry Christmas — Eastern churches celebrate Christmas on Wednesday.

Eyad told me he forgot it was Christmas.

All the landmark buildings I covered as a reporter have vanished.

The colonial-era Seraya was the main security compound for the succession of Gaza's rulers — the British, Egyptians, Israelis, the Palestinian Authority and then the rival Palestinians of Hamas.

We used to fear the Seraya, where the central jail was. Now it's rubble.

The Al Shuhada mosque on the eastern corner of the compound, where I prayed every day, was one of the few in Gaza with good air conditioning. A local philanthropist who liked Moroccan architecture redecorated the interior with intricate wooden arabesques and Quranic verses etched on the roof. The roof caved in when the Israelis bombed the jail next door.

Of the presidential office overlooking the sea, only a few walls remain. For many Gazans it was a symbol of our statehood, even though President Mahmoud Abbas, who also heads the Fatah movement, hasn't been there since Hamas seized control of the territory in June 2007.

Someone planted a Palestinian flag on the building's remains. The huge gate at the western entrance still stands, giving an illusion of something big behind it.

And across the city, the Parliament house is half destroyed. It used to tower above the Unknown Soldier park and the shops that lined downtown Omar Mukhtar Street.

On Jala Street, one of Gaza's main roads, I saw about 30 boys around a leaky irrigation tap on a traffic island. They were clutching empty soft drink bottles and jerry cans, trying to fill them with water.

Samir, who is 9, told me his family has no water at home and he wanted to bring enough for a bath because he and his brother smell.

That's a problem for most people in Gaza right now.

In my father-in-law's building, residents throw out bags of spoiled food. With no power, refrigerators don't run and fresh food quickly rots.

There were few cars on the roads, and most of those were media cars, ambulances and vehicles packed with civilians. Some looked like they were fleeing, with mattresses tied to the roofs, but who knows where they can go.

Israeli helicopters flew overhead. I heard blasts in the distance. The roads were ripped apart by explosives.

I drove into downtown Gaza, trying to prove to myself I can still do something I have done so often before — drive through my city.

I reached the Catholic Latin Patriarchate School I attended, where my late father — also an AP correspondent — used to bring me every day. The building was undamaged.

I stood in front of it, wondering if I will ever be able to walk my children to this school.

I am repeatedly reminded of that scene in "Independence Day" where President Thomas J. Whitmore asks the alien what they want from us, and the answer received is a simple "we want you do die". Its so plainly simple and obvious, but like the elephant in the living room, nobody can see it.
 
rs said:
I must confess, reading this, I try to imagine myself in his shoes. All I feel when I try and wear this is overwhelming rage, the kind of nonlinear rage that would make me get a rifle and just start shooting at Israelis, any Israeli. Its not that what is happening is genocide, there are many examples of this in our sorry world today, it is that like the emperor with no clothes, nobody is willing to just step up and call it what it is.

It's never been a matter of people not seeing, it has always been a matter of people not stepping up because of some internal calculation weighted on fear of loss. Fear in every form has at it's base a perception that something can be lost. What people think they might lose is where the inculcation of education and religion comes in. I really don't think it is natural. If humans were to be left to develop without influence, this wouldn't be the way it goes. I might be wrong there, and if I am, then there's really nothing to see here.

Body centrism is incubated through "education" and hooking onto that is religion that steps in where people wonder (because they have the capacity to "wonder") and takes over with "answers" riding on the realization that most people recognize that the World and Universe is bigger than them.

Why that is, is the essense of the "emperor without clothes" and nobody saying anything. There's the Universe out there, and structure down here, which isn't great but looks like it makes things a little easier. It devolves into body-centrism first, a folding in, and the first unfolding usually results in despair from seeing insurmountable systematic insanity.

So, you can pick up that rifle and shake your fist at the Universe and render your gushing frustration outwards, or you can sit quietly and try to understand your anger in the face of the Universe and try to find it's source.

Both are valid Paths. But the latter doesn't impose on others.

This is always a choice.
 
Azur said:
It's never been a matter of people not seeing, it has always been a matter of people not stepping up because of some internal calculation weighted on fear of loss. Fear in every form has at it's base a perception that something can be lost. What people think they might lose is where the inculcation of education and religion comes in. I really don't think it is natural. If humans were to be left to develop without influence, this wouldn't be the way it goes. I might be wrong there, and if I am, then there's really nothing to see here.

Thanks Azur for sharing this, it is somewhat of a comfort to hear you say this. I too am deeply troubled by the stories I keep hearing coming out of Gaza. One of the recent ones in particular being this:

http://www.sott.net/articles/show/172793-Gaza-The-massacre-in-Zeitoun

Anger, rage and frustration at the situation are all building inside of me as well with every article I read. And it's not so much that I see, but it's that others do not see. That is what is so incredibly frustrating. Last night I wrote out a detailed letter to the top business leaders at the Hospital where I work. This is an organization that prides itself on it's charity work and it's dedication to the poor and human rights although like all Hospitals in the US they are highly political entities and their mantras often do not reflect their deeds. I wrote them a detailed and well referenced letter explaining the situation and gave them a glimpse of just some of the atrocities in just 2 pages. In the final section I asked them to boycott and divest themselves of Israeli firms. This is a pretty bold statement and one that I could potentially be put out of a job for. Logically, my mind tells me this wasn't the right thing to do, but my conscience says otherwise.

I'll try and post a copy in the form of a template to the creative acts section once everything blows over at my work.

I guess instead of picking up that rifle, I picked up my laptop and hammered away instead, if that makes any sense...

We all do what we must in these times of uncertainty.
 
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