[edit: I definitely need a refresher course in quantum mechanics. I used to understand the concepts much much better back in 2005 when it was fresh on my mind. I apologize for the very "rough" and unclear explanations of the terms I had been thinking in at that time. I guess the important thing is that I did notice "something" going on in the interactions between people. And lacking the necessary knowledge to understand it I just sort of tried to creatively relate concepts trying to find some correlation as I went along.]
I wanted to share some additional information about what I did next and what I was reading at that time because I find the connections just so damn fascinating, intriguing and beautiful!
This is the first link I decided to click on after finding the aforementioned site.
This is one of the many reasons for my jaw dropping when I read those words,
Us in the Future.
We are you in the future said:
Putting aside for the moment the issue of whether existence in a pure state of consciousness is possible, is travelling in time possible, even if only in theory? Is sending and receiving information from the future or sending information into the past allowed by our present theories of relativity and quantum mechanics? If information can be sent, does this also imply that physical matter can be "sent," via some sort of TransDimensional Remolecularization? And if so what are the laws, what are the restrictions? What are the means?
Well, frankly speaking, we do not know, but we may have a clue. Kurt Goedel, after he became famous for his work on foundations of mathematics, went on to study the Einstein general theory of relativity and made an important contribution to physics: he discovered a class of otherwise reasonable cosmological solutions of Einstein equations - except for one point: they contained causal loops!
At the time of writing the "poem" below (both before and after), I had also been reading (or had just finished reading)
Godel, Escher, Bach: An Eternal Golden Braid by Douglas R. Hofstadter, works of Richard P. Feynman such as
Space-Time Approach to Non-Relativistic Quantum Mechanics,
Plenty of Room at the Bottom, and
The Pleasure of Finding Things Out: The Best Short Works of Richard P. Feynman.
I had also, at that time, recently visited a bookstore and picked up the book,
Godel Meets Einstein: Time Travel in the Godel Universe and had read various parts of it. The part which really struck me the most at that time was that the "Gödel universe permitted closed timelike curves" and that "[e]ach observer has his own set of 'nows', and none of these various systems of layers can claim the prerogative of representing the objective lapse of time" (Gödel 1949a, 203).
These concepts weighed very heavily on my mind during those days and really helped me to open up my mind even further to what is meant by limitless and the unknown. It was around that time (which coincided with the coincidences and an emotionally charged break-up) that I began making attempts to understand these concepts of "time" and observer in relation to myself and others.
Godel's Incomepleteness Theorem sort of became the "foundation" on which I stood to understand my experience and, though I haven't made mention of it yet,
Le Chatelier's Principle served as a basis for an understanding that my efforts would eventually lead me somewhere.
Also, I'd like to mention that around this time I had finished studying some of the concepts related to
Time-dependent Perturbation Theory especially that of
electromagnetic radiation and had started studying
The helium atom and
The hydrogen molecule ion. It was at this time that I began to think of the interaction between humans in a way that mirrored these concepts I learned in quantum mechanics. That is, I began to think about how there might be in our interactions with others a perturbation of energy eigenstates (in each of us) that was analogous to the perturbation of energy eigenstates in a two-particle system or two hydrogen molecules (though I never learned this I only thought about what it might "look" like).
One thing that struck me as sort of strange was that even though each proton in each of the hydrogen molecules or in the helium atom could be differentiated (uniquely labeled), the electrons in such systems were not or could not be distinguished. Thus, I formed a hypothesis that perhaps we could be regarded as the protons in the perturbation (our interaction with others) and that there might exist a possible exchange of energy between each of us that may be considered as a sort of electron(s) (field?). However, I suspected that the electron(s), though indistinguishable according to the formalism I had learned, must have a characteristic that could set it apart from another. (Though I had no idea if this was actually worth thinking about because to a proton it doesn't matter so why bother!)
What bothered me was my observation that different individuals had different effects on me in my interactions with them in some relation to my initial mood. That is, my "mood" would shift in some proportion just by them entering the room! (A tension in the air so to speak.) I reasoned that if the whole of us were each some unique type of proton, then myself as this proton had the ability to distinguish the electron i.e. the tension between us (assuming the energy between us is appointed as such). After thinking about this for some time, I thought that this may be one reason why Buddha preferred to spend time isolated from others. Perhaps he understood that there is some type of energetic exchange between himself and others. In order to reduce this net exchange (perturbation of energy eigenstates) in the negative way he went into isolation. But I couldn't understand how isolation could provide one with energy. To me, it seemed it would only conserve it.
So it was with these types of thoughts in my head during that time that I tried to understand the nature of my experience with others. Though it didn't satisfy the nagging question of synchronicity and thus I continued to study and search for something in everything that I thought might help alleviate this question. In a funny twist of coincidence (in relation to what I said in the previous paragraph) I would remain single for the next three years. One and a half years prior to discovering this site and this group and one and a half years after the fact and that is when I met the girl who more or less sucked the energy out of me. Thus, I sort of begin again (but with more knowledge this time!). :D
