Cedar Grove

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The grey wind whispers tales of loss,
You listen lost in lanes of moss.
Your lonely ramble leads you back
To memories of those you lack.
You search in vain for velvet mauve,
The shadow dance of Cedar Grove.

To speak a thousand words in thought
Would never win the war you fought
And lost in silent winters past.
Your love first come will be your last.

The grey wind whispers your regret,
The unseen path remains a threat.
Through trees of darkness you are led
To revelations on a thread.
Your dire search on trails of love
Torments the roots of Cedar Grove.

In greener days the mind controlled
What sought to love, to have, to hold.
Erect with fear of being found,
Your heart grew still and made no sound.

The grey wind whispers from the north,
Your fortitude should now spring forth;
One final chance to seek out sense-
The chance for soonest recompence.
Is mind in vain? The question drove
Your withered frame through Cedar Grove.

This search could occupy your years.
A lifetime spent confronting fears
Would be a brave and noble choice,
For one so late to find your voice.

The grey wind whispers sweet lament,
Your taste for it is all but spent;
But steel resolve and iron hope,
Will laminate, and you will cope.
From peasant's yard to meastro's cove,
Your search goes on through Cedar Grove.

You're only ever what you see,
Through sheets of rain, subjectively.
Endeavour for your fire growing,
The flame of self awareness knowing.

They grey wind of the northern soul
Is crying for your afterglow.
Untie the knots, mutated reason,
Emotions move through every season.
Make good your work in wintertime,
In knowledge, being, growth divine.

I wrote this back in 1997. Rediscovered it not so recently, then forgot about it. I was quite young when I wrote it, and wore my love of Blake and Poe on my sleeve in terms of flavour, but it's one of those things that was like a little keepsake for those days. It just seems appropriate to my state of mind now, as much as my state of mind when I wrote it then. Time is amazing. Or is that a-maze-ing?

The last two stanzas are new, so it's a cheesy remix now. :P

I promise I will never put another poem on this forum. I have now retired! :whlchair:
 
Thanks for posting this! It is full of wonderfully vivid imagery! Your poem reminds me of some that I have written. I haven't finished a poem in over three years, but perhaps one day I'll post one of my older poems on here. :) Those of you who have posted poems are seeming to inspire me in that direction and I never thought I would feel that way again! :D So, truth be told...never say never..;) Your poem reminds me of an old love I'd forgotten, but whose memory is again on my lips. Mmm, or perhaps it was the dream of love, but either way, thank you for sparking these dreamy thoughts. :) I also think you did change gears with those last two stanzas, which happened to be my favorite lines when I first read the poem.

You're only ever what you see,
Through sheets of rain, subjectively.
Endeavour for your fire growing,
The flame of self awareness knowing.

Ahhh yes! So very, very nice, indeed!!!
 
Why thank you! But really you should compliment the DCM, she acts through me in her mysterious ways....those lines were like channeling, they just flew out of my fingers onto the keyboard. A crucial message to a missing son, they said. I feel teary just taking that in now...because I've been rejecting her, big time, particularly when in meditation. I have an intellect, but I have yet to discover if I have a heart. "Erect with fear of being found". Scared of rejection, the introject rejects in advance, thus protecting the fancies of his ego for another day of vain imaginings while inner torment wrestles for the breaths of conscience..

Actually the poem was about an unrequited love that I wore like a shroud in my subconscious for years and years, on and off. This has been well and truly remembered now and hence the need to re-develop the poem along the lines of the concept of True Love.

I actually rewrote all the lines in subtle ways because so much of me is "I me mine" that I simply had to emerge from this hole of the self and say "Look thither! Other people. Some of them are even suffering! Do you care? Yes, you do. But you are scared of them, aren't you? because of your guilt!". I have yet to figure out how to truly forgive myself for the things I have done, and the wretched thoughts in my mind still. But......I have a chemical imbalance. My diet needs rectifying IMMEDIATELY. Plus more and better supplements. It's all so complex.

It's so easy to be selfish when you're young. It takes no effort. But I'm not young any more, and now it is a just plain embarrassing. When you grow in knowledge of what selfishness actually entails, and what it feels like within if you know better, it becomes like an unimaginable pain. When you finally understand what it must feel like to be on the receiving end of your selfishness? This is on the way for me....

I am out of retirement :scooter:

New works shall be emerging....soon. Sans Bullsh##. I've pretty much written the story of my psychosis on this forum in the last six months, I have no fear now laying my soul, if I have one, bare in the name of poetic therapy. Be it ugly, be it beautiful, just let it be.

Thank you again Scarlet! And it is a pleasure to make your acquaintance on the forum, I had never heard of you before! :) Travel well, this is the a beautiful place, the church of the soul in my opinion. Without the devotion of Ark, Laura and the elders here, man, where would we be?
 
It is a pleasure to make your acquaintance as well, Skipling! :D I've only been on this site for a few months, which is probably why you haven't seen me. I've been pretty active on the Ultra Simple Diet thread though and maybe that's a good place for you too!! :) I agree that it is all so complex, but "a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step," ~Lao Tzu. I appreciate this site because we have come together to help each other take those steps. Here is a link to the USD thread: http://www.cassiopaea.org/forum/index.php?topic=13241.0 I type this to you with hands that no longer hurt from arthritis and are no longer covered in eczema. My whole life has changed for the better because of this diet! I'm not saying it cured the arthritis, though I suspect it did, but I do give the USD credit for my soft, eczema-free hands!! :D
 
I am really sorry, saddened to hear of you suffering from athritis and eczema. I really hope you make as full a recovery as possible. :) :flowers:
 
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