Comments/input please.

[Aaron r]

Firstly a big thank-you to all involved in the site.

For most of my adult life, I am now 37yrs old, I have had a vague sense of something not being "right" with our world. A lack of something fundamental that could not be filled in with relationships/consumerism etc. All to the point where I would privately question my sanity at times. Kind of like trying to put a square peg in a round hole if you get my drift. Within the last year the internal pressure got to the point where I took time off work to try and come to some understanding of my place in the world.

I have previously been interested in ET/alternate media material for some time but I felt helpless and despondent about the whole thing. For whatever reason I came across the C's material. I must say much of what I read was initially disturbing, but after some reflection I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.

That's not to say someone isn't happy with me. I seem to have attracted some attention, bad dreams etc. I don't know if this is kosher or not but stuff them as I am really angry. I think I have fought them before and I am still here. I really must say I am very angry.

Anyway I thank-you for the opportunity of saying my piece and look forward to any comments.

Cheers
Aaron.

 

[GRiM]

If you are feeling a bit paranoid, you would not be the first to become paranoid after seeing the signs that point to the destruction of the our species and the power that works hard for that to happend. I think most people that become aware of another 'reality' (as in objective reality) at one point feels alone and small.
This is natural (if its not to severe) and a might even be a good thing as it really shows how horrible the situation is, a reality check so to speak. (and that is a possiblity for growth/growing)
I would try to think of it this way, if "they" are watching you and now know about it, isn't better then you not knowing about it? I would think so.

 

[Aaron r]

Hi Grim,

I think I have been feeling a bit paranoid. I am still trying to get some perspective I suppose. It is good to talk about it. Thanks for the comment.

aaron

 

[GRiM]

you might want to read this thread:

http://www.cassiopaea.org/forum/index.php?topic=7465.msg53229#msg53229

 

[Aaron r]

Hi Grim,
thanks for the thread but nothing like that. I do not want to sound as if I am not taking responsibility for my life and blaming others for my choices. I have walked willingly into my mistakes. There have been times when I have thought to myself, "when is a man going to be given an even break here this is too much?" Maybe I am looking for someone or something to blame for my perceived misfortune. I am open for someone to tell me that.
cheers mate

 

[Cyre2067]

If your into the ET business I highly recommend Dolan's UFOs & The National Security State and Laura's High Strangeness. Overall both books really compliment each other very well.

 

[Ryan]

thanks for the thread but nothing like that. I do not want to sound as if I am not taking responsibility for my life and blaming others for my choices. I have walked willingly into my mistakes. There have been times when I have thought to myself, "when is a man going to be given an even break here this is too much?" Maybe I am looking for someone or something to blame for my perceived misfortune. I am open for someone to tell me that.

In a sense, there are a lot of things in this psychopathic reality that can be blamed for our misfortunes; we are probably quite justified in feeling angry and hurt at the way we have all been shaped and programmed for self-destruction. But the sense of responsibility you speak of is far more important than this. It allows us to define ourselves as more than victims of a predatory world and leads toward a path that might possibly offer an alternative, not in terms of "escaping" from the external world, but rather through changing our internal world so we are able to manifest the building blocks of a creative reality via ACTION.

Have you read the Wave Series? It's a good place to start. If you've already read it, then I'd suggest you read some of the threads about Narcissism, Psychology and Ponerology - there's a treasure trove of good material there.

Welcome to the forum. :)

 

[Aaron r]

Cheers mate. I started reading this info and couldn't put it down. I think I overwhelmed myself and did get paranoid and spooked. It is like I have been in download mode. Put a tetxbook in front of me and I'm asleep in 5 minutes. I read this material for 10 hours one day and was not tired at all. I have to make myself get up and leave it for awhile.
cheers