...This has already been very helpful so thankyou..
Another way of describing what I was saying about the play of mental and visual images is as follows: (though it may or may not be clear)
-There is a larger temporal distance between my tendency to judge, and my tendency to feel (or experience certain classes of feeling)
-The class of feeling is one which responds to projected images with subtle forms of emotion.
An example:
a.) I think of 'Science' --- b.) I think of 'religion'
e.g - When I think of science a different set of emotions and image-like projections start to play out, than when I think of religion -- (I say image-like as they are pre-imaginary, or pre-concious, in that I don't see them until later in my thinking, after the inertia of the initial thought has found the context of the sentence.
i.e with the sentence -- "it is a scientific idea", the pre-imaginary concept of 'science' is present before the sentence is spoken but that element of pre-image evokes a retro-active emotional response about that imaginary projection (i.e when the sentence is read an emotional spectrum is present instananeously, whereas the concious awareness of my various connotations to science only arises after the sentence is read. The emotional spectrum is concerned also with a mental environment, or what is percieved as an external environment. Obviously I am using the terms in a very simplistic and static sense-- but the main point here is the 'emotional environments' which although themselves not wholly discrete have previously had some connection to the terms themselves; such as 'science' (or a group of words, sounds colour etc.)
What I'm finding is that words, along with associations, visuals, emotional environments, seperate and move in fluid animated parts such that I am not really able to 'see or hear', i.e the content of life is the same, but there are no references to it.
...So I have the tendency to feel, but by the time I come to judge I encounter a series of voids, or empty bits, filling in time between the moments of feeling.
...It was the way in which the different senses seem to span out from each other and get lost somehow, that I wondered whether anyone either had warnings or encouragements about the process/lack there of...
..the relevance being that I can see oceans of fluid content, structured as a universe, and this seems to be a universe which does not have particular significance to me but keeps cycling around like a giant program.. it operates logically but seems completely insatisfactory....
