Dark Night of the Soul for me

[lara4unow]

I have been a member of the forum and daily reader of SOTT since 2006 or so. I am thankful and blessed to strive to continue to learn and maintain my objective loyalty to the process of the esoteric school of this fourum and family (community). I believe that my interaction and input to this forum has given me an objective vehicle to evolve. I want to thank you all, from Laura and the community at the Chateau, all the Mods of all levels and of course all of us who dare to interact.
I must admit that I have been afraid to post and have posted in the past at times when I was in a place that nececessitated admonishment from the "keepers of the rules".
I am here and going through the most significant evolution of my soul. At times I feel it is unbearable, however my spiritual guide reminds me that suiside is a perminant solution to a temporary concentration of physical and emotional pain.
I do the POTS and I Breath and move in the light of the sun to combat these thoughts and the depression.

I am committed to survive in order to witness all the horror and pain that I feel many innocent human beings are suffering. I constantly strive to be present emotionally in my earthly physical existence because I chose to be here on earth at this time in my quest to expand.

Please send me energy to help me continue towards the light. I need help.
L

 

[Gawan]

Re: Just do not know where to put this

Hi Lara, I'm sorry to hear that you go through difficult times at the moment.

Is something bothering you specifically at the moment and if it does maybe you could share it in the swamp for example and it could give you hints what to do and another perspective on the situation. And the most important question that comes to my mind right now, how is your diet like?

I do the POTS and I Breath and move in the light of the sun to combat these thoughts and the depression.

I am committed to survive in order to witness all the horror and pain that I feel many innocent human beings are suffering. I constantly strive to be present emotionally in my earthly physical existence because I chose to be here on earth at this time in my quest to expand.

Are there other things that could help you too, or what helped you in the past to come over difficult times? I.e. writing in a journal, drawing??

Please send me energy to help me continue towards the light. I need help.

I send you some

 

[Aiming]

Re: Just do not know where to put this

Lara, sorry to hear you're going through rough times. I second Gawan's suggestion as to perhaps opening a thread in the Swamp, where you can lay out your situation, vent, and ask others for input. There's no need to feel isolated and alone, and what you're feeling and thinking will be feeling much lighter once communicated to others who care. Remember that internal thought loops and emotional loops grow when we're feeling isolated and then take on a much bigger, distorted form and a much heavier felt weight than need be.

Please send me energy to help me continue towards the light. I need help.

I send you some

Same here, take care, Lara!

 

[Gary]

Hi Lara,

You are not alone! :)

Most, if not all of us here, have experienced a Dark Night of the Soul. To receive more accurate and helpful feedback, means giving more information about your particular issues. The Swamp is an ideal, safe place to unburden and share whatever fears, issues you may want to share. If you read SOTT and the Forum regularly, you will know the importance of diet, EE and networking! Finding the courage to share our deepest hurts is never easy - but it is necessary, to receive objective and compassionate responses.

We reap what we sow :)

Take care.

 

[Alada]

I’d like to second what others have written above. It really can help tremendously to share if you feel able to - post to the Swamp section for a little more privacy.

Sometimes we need to just let it out, have a rant within reason. If we let others know that that is where we’re coming and choose to do it consciously then why not have that healthy release? Sure it might need a bit of tidying up / course correction afterwards, but no big deal, isn’t that how we learn? Its when we rant and write unconsciously, aimlessly that things can go south and rules have to be reminded.

But, if we stay too rigid, never share or hesitate to post out of fear (I have the t-shirt for that one), then we stay as we are, nothing changes. We to choose what we wish to be and then do our best to try to be it. Nobody is expected to be perfect, I don’t think we’d be here if we were!

 

[Anthony]

If you have trouble sharing your problems on the forum,
you can always do the writing exercises on your own. And then when
you're ready you can open up a thread in the Swamp section.

http://www.sott.net/article/239884-Writing-to-Heal

 

[Kisito]

I have been a member of the forum and daily reader of SOTT since 2006 or so. I am thankful and blessed to strive to continue to learn and maintain my objective loyalty to the process of the esoteric school of this fourum and family (community). I believe that my interaction and input to this forum has given me an objective vehicle to evolve. I want to thank you all, from Laura and the community at the Chateau, all the Mods of all levels and of course all of us who dare to interact.
I must admit that I have been afraid to post and have posted in the past at times when I was in a place that nececessitated admonishment from the "keepers of the rules".
I am here and going through the most significant evolution of my soul. At times I feel it is unbearable, however my spiritual guide reminds me that suiside is a perminant solution to a temporary concentration of physical and emotional pain.
I do the POTS and I Breath and move in the light of the sun to combat these thoughts and the depression.

I am committed to survive in order to witness all the horror and pain that I feel many innocent human beings are suffering. I constantly strive to be present emotionally in my earthly physical existence because I chose to be here on earth at this time in my quest to expand.

Please send me energy to help me continue towards the light. I need help.
L

Hi Lara4unow, I think it is dangerous for us to send energy. Because the energy exchange, it's better. If you're lacking energy, is that it may have been you steal. So I think what you do is good, you observe your pain and you begin to understand it. This will give you other ways to capture or draw energy from new projects. Energy is the project.

 

[Ollie]

If you have trouble sharing your problems on the forum,
you can always do the writing exercises on your own. And then when
you're ready you can open up a thread in the Swamp section.

http://www.sott.net/article/239884-Writing-to-Heal

This, indeed, is a good place to start to heal, and to gain energy.

Hi Lara4unow, I think it is dangerous for us to send energy. Because the energy exchange, it's better. If you're lacking energy, is that it may have been you steal. So I think what you do is good, you observe your pain and you begin to understand it. This will give you other ways to capture or draw energy from new projects. Energy is the project.

I agree, just observe your pain and begin to understand it - even write about it,and possibly facilitate yourself about it. Asking yourself:

In creating my own reality:
What am I ignoring consciously?
What is my conscious mind refusing to acknowledge?
What is my Subconscious mind/Higher Self observing and 'trying' to bring to my attention?
What observation in my Subconscious mind/Higher Self making that my conscious mind is refusing to acknowledge?

This may help, or not.

 

[Laura]

If you have trouble sharing your problems on the forum,
you can always do the writing exercises on your own. And then when
you're ready you can open up a thread in the Swamp section.

http://www.sott.net/article/239884-Writing-to-Heal

This, indeed, is a good place to start to heal, and to gain energy.

Hi Lara4unow, I think it is dangerous for us to send energy. Because the energy exchange, it's better. If you're lacking energy, is that it may have been you steal. So I think what you do is good, you observe your pain and you begin to understand it. This will give you other ways to capture or draw energy from new projects. Energy is the project.

I agree, just observe your pain and begin to understand it - even write about it,and possibly facilitate yourself about it. Asking yourself:

In creating my own reality:
What am I ignoring consciously?
What is my conscious mind refusing to acknowledge?
What is my Subconscious mind/Higher Self observing and 'trying' to bring to my attention?
What observation in my Subconscious mind/Higher Self making that my conscious mind is refusing to acknowledge?

This may help, or not.

Actually, I think that is a bit demanding for someone struggling or suffering. Best advice is to open a thread in the swamp and talk about it.

Lara, are you a member of FOTCM with access to the private board? That is another excellent support system that goes much further than the public forum.

 

[lara4unow]

Thank you All

I agree with all responses to my needy post and will make use of all of your suggestions and kind advice. I am in a pickle, so to speak, and will deal with it via your suggestions.

Thank You All for being there it made me feel hope and resolve

Laura

 

[Gary]

Best wishes to you Laura. Take care :)

 

[lara4unow]

I have moved forward with my pickle thing. I do not feel I need to go into more detail. The swamp is a good thing and I want to thank you for even having it. I will share more in appropriate forum topics but for now I am in the gratefull mode and out of the pity party.
Thanks again to all of being there for me always in a collective energy that helps me to expand, grow and learn. There is nothing in this world that even comes close to the unconditional love and guidance I get from all of you.
Laura

 

[Tigersoap]

I have moved forward with my pickle thing. I do not feel I need to go into more detail. The swamp is a good thing and I want to thank you for even having it. I will share more in appropriate forum topics but for now I am in the gratefull mode and out of the pity party.
Thanks again to all of being there for me always in a collective energy that helps me to expand, grow and learn. There is nothing in this world that even comes close to the unconditional love and guidance I get from all of you.

Glad to hear you're feeling better Laura !

Don't hesitate to share further about your situation.
Sharing your burden is also part of the healing process and it will certainly benefit other members of the forum who might be in the same situation as you.

 

[Alada]

Glad to hear you're feeling better Laura !

Don't hesitate to share further about your situation.
Sharing your burden is also part of the healing process and it will certainly benefit other members of the forum who might be in the same situation as you.

I agree with Tigersoap, glad to hear you’re feeling better. Sometimes it really helps to push a little against resistance to sharing. If we can share and connect with others it does lighten the load. When it happens to me, I have to remind myself that if I keep doing what I’ve always done, I’ll keep getting what I’ve always got – nothing will change. So sometimes we have to be a little bold, dare to do things differently and as has been said many times before here: “do what ‘it’ does not like”.

 

[Gawan]

I agree with the input from Tigersoap and Alada, sometimes it also helpful to write about a situation also when it doesn't bother one anymore - been there and done that myself too -, because it may help for future situations if it is a program for example.