Its indeed the worst to feel as you had. I too, go through it from time to time and I never get used to the intensity. But I know I can come here, even if I don't say anything. Sometimes its so paralyzing I forget theres a swamp I can actually go to and vent it. Sometimes it scares me at those times, because any little suggestion that feels harsh can feel like a knife. I haven't felt that lately here, and feel safer because of it. It does take guts, and a willingness to want to live well. You have it because you shared and now we know and that helps me. You helped me like we do with each other. What a most wonderful place to be able to go that were lucky to have. Be well Lara, and thank you. And Laura and co. to be born into our midst.