Thought I'd share a couple of dreams.
Last night I dreamed that a woman showed me two levers on a wall, and she asked if I knew about the plot of a movie currently showing, regarding those levers. She said that in the movie people were given a choice of pushing one of the levers down. The one on the right would make them re-live past difficult or traumatic experiences, and although they would be aware of everything, they would suffer as much as they did the first time. But they would be compensated with a bunch of money when done.
The second lever would let them go back to the same experiences but would allow them to make different choices than they originally did, changing their own history. But they would get no money and there would be no guarantee that the outcome of their new choices would be any better, and they would still have to suffer for their mistakes as much as they would have suffered back then if things went wrong.
I started to wake up at that point, and in a semi-asleep state began to wonder at which points in my life I would have made different choices. I went through several possibilities, and contemplated how things would have been just as hard, if not harder, no matter what I did, even if I was in different countries and with different people, because I would still have had the same weaknesses that I had back then. Sooner or later I would have encountered the same or similar situations as I actually did, because that is what my nature was calling for. In other words, that I couldn't escape my lesson plan! I thought it was an interesting reflection and in a sense comforting, as it helps letting go of the feeling of guilt of making so many mistakes (because I would have made them anyway until I learned!).
The other dream I had last Wednesday night after an EE group session. I was a character from the Lord of the Rings - my own character. We were fighting the army of evil, and our leader was the son of Aragorn, and his name was Alethiel. But as the battle went from bad to worse, it became clear that we were going to lose our base as only a dozen of us remained defending two open sides. So Alethiel said he was too important to die or be captured, and decided to leave us alone. That was his betrayal to the cause, and as a result he was either captured, killed or changed sides.
Some went into despair asking "What hope is there now? What shall we do?" And I replied "Now we keep on fighting - that's what we do!" There were a few action-scenes with me fighting bad guys, and then at the last minute Gandalf and Legolas came on horses with reinforcements to prevent our forces from being destroyed. Once regrouped in the camp, more reinforcements came from many places. One was a delegation of horses: An exotic chariot pulled by horses was carrying three more horses. But the horses being carried had beards, they could speak and were as smart as people, as opposed to the regular horses pulling the chariot. The bearded ones were a father and two sons; they were kind and wise creatures.
That's it. I'm just sharing that one because I thought it was very cool. :)
Last night I dreamed that a woman showed me two levers on a wall, and she asked if I knew about the plot of a movie currently showing, regarding those levers. She said that in the movie people were given a choice of pushing one of the levers down. The one on the right would make them re-live past difficult or traumatic experiences, and although they would be aware of everything, they would suffer as much as they did the first time. But they would be compensated with a bunch of money when done.
The second lever would let them go back to the same experiences but would allow them to make different choices than they originally did, changing their own history. But they would get no money and there would be no guarantee that the outcome of their new choices would be any better, and they would still have to suffer for their mistakes as much as they would have suffered back then if things went wrong.
I started to wake up at that point, and in a semi-asleep state began to wonder at which points in my life I would have made different choices. I went through several possibilities, and contemplated how things would have been just as hard, if not harder, no matter what I did, even if I was in different countries and with different people, because I would still have had the same weaknesses that I had back then. Sooner or later I would have encountered the same or similar situations as I actually did, because that is what my nature was calling for. In other words, that I couldn't escape my lesson plan! I thought it was an interesting reflection and in a sense comforting, as it helps letting go of the feeling of guilt of making so many mistakes (because I would have made them anyway until I learned!).
The other dream I had last Wednesday night after an EE group session. I was a character from the Lord of the Rings - my own character. We were fighting the army of evil, and our leader was the son of Aragorn, and his name was Alethiel. But as the battle went from bad to worse, it became clear that we were going to lose our base as only a dozen of us remained defending two open sides. So Alethiel said he was too important to die or be captured, and decided to leave us alone. That was his betrayal to the cause, and as a result he was either captured, killed or changed sides.
Some went into despair asking "What hope is there now? What shall we do?" And I replied "Now we keep on fighting - that's what we do!" There were a few action-scenes with me fighting bad guys, and then at the last minute Gandalf and Legolas came on horses with reinforcements to prevent our forces from being destroyed. Once regrouped in the camp, more reinforcements came from many places. One was a delegation of horses: An exotic chariot pulled by horses was carrying three more horses. But the horses being carried had beards, they could speak and were as smart as people, as opposed to the regular horses pulling the chariot. The bearded ones were a father and two sons; they were kind and wise creatures.
That's it. I'm just sharing that one because I thought it was very cool. :)
