Had a very odd and disturbing dream/wake experience to share while away last week for work. During the experience, I tried to remain objective of what was happening, yet could not navigate the feelings - yet something interesting came in to help me as you will read.
The hotel I stayed at is by a lake, so the view is good and I’ve been there many times before. One thing that was often noted there were the dreams I’ve had – often strange. In this respect, tried to always look to them as Lethbridge accounts; is it the proximity to water, to old happenings there, I’m I catching fragments of memory, entering into a information stream not of my own making? I just don’t know, as the dream world is so often very confusing.
Anyway, this night at the hotel, had trouble with the Internet connection, which is usual there, and started to watch a SotT posted documentary on the Titanic, aka the Olympic that I’ve seen before. I smoked a few cigarettes outside while the film buffered and then decided on sleep. Took a Melatonin and Boswellia falling asleep around 11:00 pm after setting the alarm for 6:00 am the next morning.
Sometime around 2-3 am April 17th became aware I was in a dream that had a number of people in it, yet not central, almost like they were not there - however there was disjointed dialogue. The real focus was upon a central figure, humanoid, yet not exactly. A sense of manipulation was going on, which was being understood like seeing beneath his mask, and the more this became apparent, his exceedingly tall stringy body started to take on elasticity. His arms and legs seemed to flow; wraith-like, they undulated as if blown by wind and I started to become afraid, as he was not what he appeared to be – there was some sort of evil intent imminent.
I awoke in a semi conscious state with a very sudden start, not only that, there was a loud buzzing in my left ear. I could not speak, yet my mind was talking, processing, trying to sort out the details. Looking around at what could be seen in the dark room, noting seemed exactly out of place – no one was there and yet something about reality was way way off, something about the space felt invaded and not connected to reality.
Anxiety started to swell within, and I felt the need to get out of bed and find my vehicle to get away, yet also at the same time, there were these wave-like feeling of disjointed frequencies, of two differing realities overlapping – felt powerless to move, felt lost and adrift like the reality that was known could not reassemble. Not only that, it occurred as a feeling that should I try and leave, consciousness would end.
I started to speak in my mind - no, no, I do not accept this, this is not allowed, and suddenly the 'Prayer to the Soul' crystallized into my mind; "Oh divine conscious mind…" and I started to go through the words with complete focused attention. This I repeated three times and then there was nothing, reality cycled back and the strange disjointed reality and feelings suddenly evaporated.
I was not aware of anything further and drifted off into restful sleep, waking in the morning at 7:00 realizing I had not, for some reason, activated the alarm as thought and quickly readjusted the morning schedule.
The hotel I stayed at is by a lake, so the view is good and I’ve been there many times before. One thing that was often noted there were the dreams I’ve had – often strange. In this respect, tried to always look to them as Lethbridge accounts; is it the proximity to water, to old happenings there, I’m I catching fragments of memory, entering into a information stream not of my own making? I just don’t know, as the dream world is so often very confusing.
Anyway, this night at the hotel, had trouble with the Internet connection, which is usual there, and started to watch a SotT posted documentary on the Titanic, aka the Olympic that I’ve seen before. I smoked a few cigarettes outside while the film buffered and then decided on sleep. Took a Melatonin and Boswellia falling asleep around 11:00 pm after setting the alarm for 6:00 am the next morning.
Sometime around 2-3 am April 17th became aware I was in a dream that had a number of people in it, yet not central, almost like they were not there - however there was disjointed dialogue. The real focus was upon a central figure, humanoid, yet not exactly. A sense of manipulation was going on, which was being understood like seeing beneath his mask, and the more this became apparent, his exceedingly tall stringy body started to take on elasticity. His arms and legs seemed to flow; wraith-like, they undulated as if blown by wind and I started to become afraid, as he was not what he appeared to be – there was some sort of evil intent imminent.
I awoke in a semi conscious state with a very sudden start, not only that, there was a loud buzzing in my left ear. I could not speak, yet my mind was talking, processing, trying to sort out the details. Looking around at what could be seen in the dark room, noting seemed exactly out of place – no one was there and yet something about reality was way way off, something about the space felt invaded and not connected to reality.
Anxiety started to swell within, and I felt the need to get out of bed and find my vehicle to get away, yet also at the same time, there were these wave-like feeling of disjointed frequencies, of two differing realities overlapping – felt powerless to move, felt lost and adrift like the reality that was known could not reassemble. Not only that, it occurred as a feeling that should I try and leave, consciousness would end.
I started to speak in my mind - no, no, I do not accept this, this is not allowed, and suddenly the 'Prayer to the Soul' crystallized into my mind; "Oh divine conscious mind…" and I started to go through the words with complete focused attention. This I repeated three times and then there was nothing, reality cycled back and the strange disjointed reality and feelings suddenly evaporated.
I was not aware of anything further and drifted off into restful sleep, waking in the morning at 7:00 realizing I had not, for some reason, activated the alarm as thought and quickly readjusted the morning schedule.
