So I've been doing E.E. more frequently, and this dream happened after last monday's session, well, tuesday morning. The dream was split into three parts that were almost seamlessly put together.
Part I:
I'm in Newark, on MLK st, down the block from where my fraternity house is. (No longer involved, I graduated) Out of nowhere, I see a guy who I haven't seen since 5th/6th grade, who I never particularly liked. I kinda disliked him, actually, because he was mean and rude to some degree. Now he is older, and I noticed that he is heavily injured and bleeding a lot. He is walking around like he was intoxicated. So, with a group of people that were nearby, we take him down to the hospital that is on that block. I try asking him questions to find out what happened and if he had consumed any drugs, but he wasn't able to respond. As we are going through the entrance of the hospital, I remembered that on me I had a medicine bottle filled with weed (I stopped smoking a week ago) and I decide that I wasn't taking that in the hospital and dropped it at the entrance. After leaving the person with the doctors, I am in another room in the hospital and I find out that he passed away, and his family was there mourning him. At that point I left the hospital, deliberately not going back for the weed, and not wanting it back. (Usually, when I stop smoking, I have dreams of me giving in to temptation and smoking. This is the first dream where I just throw it out like that!!!)
Part II
Now I'm in my bedroom, and I see a guy who I never liked, but had to be around at times because he was the best friend of my best friend's brother in middle school. Let's call him Josh. (Josh possesses MANY psychopathic traits, something that I noticed at first, but didn't really know for sure until years after when I spoke to people who had suffered because of him. I wouldn't be surprised if the whole city hates this guy. Anyways, one of my biggest associations of him is with promiscuity). He is on my bed having sex with some girl who I do not know. I warn the girl that he is dangerous and not to get involved, then walk out. Immediately I turn around, asking myself why this act is happening on my bed, and drag him out by his hair, and proceed to rough him up by hand. Next thing I know, I'm in a hospital again, still fighting him, but now we are armed with knives and other cookware type tools. I injure him badly, and walk away, leaving him to the doctors.
Part III
In the hospital, I notice a girl sitting on a hospital bed. She had an incision on the right side of her chest that allowed her to reach into the chest cavity and remove her heart and put it back in at will. There was no blood and no mess, it was all a very simple and clean even that she demonstrated a couple of times.
Now for an interpretation of what I think they mean:
The hospital, I think is a symbol representing a healing process that I'm going through, and the people involved in dreams one and two are parts of me that are being changed. The guy from dream I represents the part of me that craved alcohol and weed, while Josh represents my sex drive. Although I wasn't as promiscuous as everyone around me, I still had casual sex every few months, but I always had some interest in the ladies'(10, throughout my life, only two of those i had actual relationships with) as people and always tried to get to know them. Only one encounter was totally empty, and it felt horrible, and I was ashamed of myself. I caved in to the cravings when the chance arose, because the cravings were pretty strong, and would otherwise be satisfied through masturbation. For the past few weeks, my sex drive, and thus masturbation, have decreased dramatically! I haven't craved alcohol in 4 years, and haven't craved smoking since I stopped a week ago. Usually, when I stop, I have to fight cravings for a few days, but this time there were none.
The girl from part III, I think is a friend of mine who I spoke with recently, who was describing to me her pain from her recent break up and how she doesn't believe she can love someone else, and gave me the overall impression that she was shielding herself from her own feelings. Perhaps the girl from part III also represents the part of me that used to stop himself from feeling to avoid pain (high school, early college), but I'm more inclined to think it was my friend, or so I think.
So, I think overall this dream is symbolic of the growing process I am going through right now.
Thank you for reading and any feedback is welcome!
Part I:
I'm in Newark, on MLK st, down the block from where my fraternity house is. (No longer involved, I graduated) Out of nowhere, I see a guy who I haven't seen since 5th/6th grade, who I never particularly liked. I kinda disliked him, actually, because he was mean and rude to some degree. Now he is older, and I noticed that he is heavily injured and bleeding a lot. He is walking around like he was intoxicated. So, with a group of people that were nearby, we take him down to the hospital that is on that block. I try asking him questions to find out what happened and if he had consumed any drugs, but he wasn't able to respond. As we are going through the entrance of the hospital, I remembered that on me I had a medicine bottle filled with weed (I stopped smoking a week ago) and I decide that I wasn't taking that in the hospital and dropped it at the entrance. After leaving the person with the doctors, I am in another room in the hospital and I find out that he passed away, and his family was there mourning him. At that point I left the hospital, deliberately not going back for the weed, and not wanting it back. (Usually, when I stop smoking, I have dreams of me giving in to temptation and smoking. This is the first dream where I just throw it out like that!!!)
Part II
Now I'm in my bedroom, and I see a guy who I never liked, but had to be around at times because he was the best friend of my best friend's brother in middle school. Let's call him Josh. (Josh possesses MANY psychopathic traits, something that I noticed at first, but didn't really know for sure until years after when I spoke to people who had suffered because of him. I wouldn't be surprised if the whole city hates this guy. Anyways, one of my biggest associations of him is with promiscuity). He is on my bed having sex with some girl who I do not know. I warn the girl that he is dangerous and not to get involved, then walk out. Immediately I turn around, asking myself why this act is happening on my bed, and drag him out by his hair, and proceed to rough him up by hand. Next thing I know, I'm in a hospital again, still fighting him, but now we are armed with knives and other cookware type tools. I injure him badly, and walk away, leaving him to the doctors.
Part III
In the hospital, I notice a girl sitting on a hospital bed. She had an incision on the right side of her chest that allowed her to reach into the chest cavity and remove her heart and put it back in at will. There was no blood and no mess, it was all a very simple and clean even that she demonstrated a couple of times.
Now for an interpretation of what I think they mean:
The hospital, I think is a symbol representing a healing process that I'm going through, and the people involved in dreams one and two are parts of me that are being changed. The guy from dream I represents the part of me that craved alcohol and weed, while Josh represents my sex drive. Although I wasn't as promiscuous as everyone around me, I still had casual sex every few months, but I always had some interest in the ladies'(10, throughout my life, only two of those i had actual relationships with) as people and always tried to get to know them. Only one encounter was totally empty, and it felt horrible, and I was ashamed of myself. I caved in to the cravings when the chance arose, because the cravings were pretty strong, and would otherwise be satisfied through masturbation. For the past few weeks, my sex drive, and thus masturbation, have decreased dramatically! I haven't craved alcohol in 4 years, and haven't craved smoking since I stopped a week ago. Usually, when I stop, I have to fight cravings for a few days, but this time there were none.
The girl from part III, I think is a friend of mine who I spoke with recently, who was describing to me her pain from her recent break up and how she doesn't believe she can love someone else, and gave me the overall impression that she was shielding herself from her own feelings. Perhaps the girl from part III also represents the part of me that used to stop himself from feeling to avoid pain (high school, early college), but I'm more inclined to think it was my friend, or so I think.
So, I think overall this dream is symbolic of the growing process I am going through right now.
Thank you for reading and any feedback is welcome!
