Female Psychopath / "Love Bite"?

Stuart

Padawan Learner
Hello, I recently had a relationship with a woman for roughly 6 months, and I can only say I'm glad to be out of it. Before I met her I had two dreams: the first was about me with a small tanned girl with her hair tied back and I was sitting at a dinner table and when I looked up I noticed a black triangle type UFO above us (a warning?). The second involved me with an ex girlfriend who broke my heart, but we were getting back together.
A couple months later I met this girl who was small, tanned and with the face that was almost exactly the same as the ex that broke my heart - needless to say I proceeded to date her.
At first she seemed like a weak little mouse that had an ex boyfriend who mentally abused her, cheated and basically treated her like dirt. She had two children from this guy and he hardly ever spent time with them. She told me that all her other boyfriends had been on the "weird" side. So me being a nice guy I proceeded to treat her with the respect that she deserved and help her with her situation, including a debt of around $11,500, that she said was mainly his doing.
So I got "hooked" into this pity ploy of feeling sorry for this girl who would tell me endless tales of how the father of the children treated her so badly, and occasionally he would phone or text something that would make her cry and she'd come running to me to make her feel better.
My work suffered as well as my relationships with friends and family as I spent more and more time with her to save the "damsel in distress".
As the relationship progressed she began to tell me more about herself and it transpired that she beat up her ex boyfriend because basically he didn't pay her enough attention (although the original reason she gave was different). She also had a criminal record as long as her arm for offences of mainly theft - although she may have commited other offences that I didn't know about. I also noticed she drank a great deal and at every oppurtunity would take drugs and seemed very promiscuous in her past and would regulary flirt with men.
Now you're probably thinking I should have left at these warning "signs", but I rationalized staying with her because she seemed like she needed help. Oh, and her parental skills were shall we say poor to say the least.
Now it seemed that this female was displaying psychopathic behaviour - but she told me some things that made me think perhaps otherwise, such as when she was 13 and living at her mothers she said that an unexplained "smell", or "stench" would come in her room every night and stink it out - but the smell stopped at the doorway- if you walked just a few feet away from the room it was non present. Her mother told her some story about it being a dead bird or something and she believed it as she doesn't believe in the supernatural or aliens or basically anything like that. Also when she moved back in for a while when she was older every night big spiders would always be in there and she would squish them, but just in a small amount of time the room needed decorating from all the marks of dead spiders littering the walls. When she left the smell and spiders stopped.
Now like I said she never believed in aliens yet would tell me dreams of being taken aboard spaceships and regulary have sleep paralysis, and also a dream her ex had of her having an alien head, chasing him.
Then the ex boyfriend suddenly wanted her back badly so bad in fact he tried to kill himself (although she also had history of self harm and attempted suicide) and then I was for some strange reason thinking I "loved" her, but I couldn't think why - in fact I could hardly think at all when I was with her. And then she would start cheating on me with him and in the end she didn't know why, she just kept saying that he had some sort of "spell" over her.
My question would be do you think this was an obvious attempt by 4D to derail me and is she a psycho or merely manipulated and programmed to drain me from a 4D level or maybe some spirit attachments?
Oh, and the "smell" is back at her mothers house,only this time it's in her sisters room and only above her head.
 
A case with nothing in particular, I ask to myself how many men like us are living or lived something like this, and worst, in how many ocassions the wrong is not the women but the men letting ourselfs fall in this game by pity, that illusory sense of guardian and hero wanting to help or save the poor princes. Why do some of us do that, I mean, I had a same vision or dream whit a woman but we were on a spaceship and she ignored me with coldness. I was the one in love but not her, I mean, it was a love bite oh yeah, because well, she had too committed crimes, but she got to be completely different, I mean, reading her, as a parent. And hell I don't know if she is a good actress, because so many men wanted to help her, they felt the same feeling with her.

At the end this kind of relationships end to be a relationship where the only one loved by both is her/him, and they just ask and ask, and you never for ever receive a pice of love, just a leader telling you what to do, what is right and what is not... so please. I don't really know if she was a psychopath, I don't think so, the cs said that people in jail are souled, and very very good people in general are OPs.
 
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... so please. I don't really know if she was a psychopath, I don't think so, the cs said that people in jail are souled, and very very good people in general are OPs.
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Does anyone know where the Cs said this?

Stuart, she sounds like the classical feminine vampire. Glad you are out of her clutches and I hope you are okay!

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Stuart, I am also glad you are out of that relationship. I, too, have been in a few abusive relationships. I ask myself, why would I stick around this crazy person? Hindsight is usually 20/20, and now I know: I didn't know any better. I was attached to my suffering. Gurdjieff said a man will give up many valuable things but if you ask him to give up his (mechanical) suffering, he won't do it. That is so true.

I am thankful that I have a better eye to see with now. Because I have become much more ruthlessly honest with myself, I most times I can call a spade a spade rather than making up excuses to shape the world how I want it to be.

Once upon a time I made up excuses to be someone else's food. Go figure. :nuts:
 
Stuart said:
Hello, I recently had a relationship with a woman for roughly 6 months, and I can only say I'm glad to be out of it.
Hi Stuart,

After reading your story here, I'm really glad you are out of this relationship too! I think it's natural to want to come to the aid of someone you care about, but it can cross over to the point where it hurts you. Even then, it's not even "helping" them, because they are an empty helpless void just sucking on the energy of others, but they can never be full if they are always searching externally for food. (Just my thoughts on it, based off of my own personal experiences.)

Brunauld said:
A case with nothing in particular, I ask to myself how many men like us are living or lived something like this, and worst, in how many ocassions the wrong is not the women but the men letting ourselfs fall in this game by pity, that illusory sense of guardian and hero wanting to help or save the poor princes.

Yeah, I've played the "martyr" before and totally overextended myself by making countless failed efforts at "helping" my lovers. I learned a lot from reading Unholy Hungers: Encountering the Psychic Vampire in Ourselves and Others and In Sheep's Clothing: Understanding and Dealing with Manipulative People and am so glad I read these books before attempting to enter into another relationship with a man.

After reading them I better understand myself and how some people operate now and I'm working on not playing the "guardian/martyr/helpful" type that I've so readily turned into when I used to lie to myself and think I actually had the power to "fix" someone else's problems. I think you'll recognize this woman on some of the pages in these books and I recommend you read them if you haven't already.

Well, these are just my thoughts on it, but I'm just another learner on here like you and this is as far as I have gotten with understanding these dynamics. Just remember, "knowledge protects!" :)
 
Stuart said:
My question would be do you think this was an obvious attempt by 4D to derail me and is she a psycho or merely manipulated and programmed to drain me from a 4D level or maybe some spirit attachments?
Oh, and the "smell" is back at her mothers house,only this time it's in her sisters room and only above her head.

Stuart,

I'm not sure if focusing on this aspect of the relationship is the most fruitful. It's like Sandra Brown states in her book Women who Love Psychopaths, any amount of pathology ultimately does harm in a relationship. Even if the relationship partner isn't a full-blown psychopath, when pathology rears its ugly head, someone is gonna get hurt. Pathology is pathology whether it comes from 4D or is just a mechanical reaction based on childhood programming, or something else entirely.

I mean from what you've described, it definitely sounds like there are some 4D aspects to this dynamic. But given this gal's deceitfulness, it might be best not take anything she says at face value. For all you know these stories she's told you might just be part of the overall hook to keep you in the relationship; thinking there is something mysterious about her, when in reality she's just another woman who's picked up some nasty habits.

On the other hand, congrats for finally waking up to the reality of this toxic relationship! :) You managed to do so after 6 months. That's better than taking years (which was my case). As painful as I'm sure it's been, it might have been just the experience you needed at this point in time. If you take the opportunity to learn from these experiences instead of buffering the pain, you can really turn this experience into quite a gift in terms of the Work.

ADDED: I should have checked the dates of the post, I guess this one was really old. :-[ Well, I hope you're doing better now Stuart, either way! :D
 
RyanX said:
ADDED: I should have checked the dates of the post, I guess this one was really old. :-[ Well, I hope you're doing better now Stuart, either way! :D
Whoa ya, good thing to check! Stuart got advice five years later, lol, oops...:-[
 

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