Graduation

[Solar]

Hi forumers,
i have a recurring dream, which I would like to interpret and I would appreciate your help.
I am dreaming that I am still at university and I don't have my student's index with me (the booklet to where your notes are written at the end of a semester). The situtation is usually that I'd have to have a note written in it, or it is needed for some lecture which is beginning very shortly, or it has already begun and I am hours late.
I usually have to run like hell to get there in time, sometimes I run somewhere (home?) to pick up my index and get back in time. While I do that, I run after buses/trains which I miss.

Most of time this ends in me realising in desperation that I am not gonna make it, I am not going to get there in time, because I've lost so much time that it's hopeless. This realisation even wakes me up sometimes.
I've been having these kind of dreams for years, recurring, but only for one night and then they don't reappear for a while. This week I had this kind of dream on 3 consecutive days, so now it begins to bug me.

Just for info, I actually graduated at university 11 years ago. It was hard, but I never had any doubts that I could make it, and I accomplished it in time. I didn't do extra semesters, although once I skipped 2 subjects. Because of that, I don't think that the dream refers to the actual physical experience of going to university.

My GF's interpretation is the following: The soul/higher self/another level of my being is sending the message that it is not able to make certain experiences or undertake tests (graduation) which were planned before incarnation, becuase I am resisting certain life situations, which would allow these experiences. Or with other words: I am not ready to "graduate", although it's about time.

What do you think about this? Do you have any other ideas?
I am not so familiar with the Dream topics, so it might be that there already have been similar topics on the forum.

 

[Meg]

Hi Solar,
Due to the repetition, it sounds like it may be a thought loop of some kind or a spirit attachment? Have you watched the Knowledge and Being video series that Laura put together?

http://cassiopaea.org/2013/10/17/a-course-in-knowledge-and-being-part-1/

 

[Solar]

Hi Menrva,
thanks for the link. I haven't seen the video yet, and I haven't thought of spirit attachment being a cause of such dreams. I'm gonna watch it.

 

[lostinself]

Hi forumers,
i have a recurring dream, which I would like to interpret and I would appreciate your help.
I am dreaming that I am still at university and I don't have my student's index with me (the booklet to where your notes are written at the end of a semester). The situtation is usually that I'd have to have a note written in it, or it is needed for some lecture which is beginning very shortly, or it has already begun and I am hours late.
I usually have to run like hell to get there in time, sometimes I run somewhere (home?) to pick up my index and get back in time. While I do that, I run after buses/trains which I miss.

Most of time this ends in me realising in desperation that I am not gonna make it, I am not going to get there in time, because I've lost so much time that it's hopeless. This realisation even wakes me up sometimes.
I've been having these kind of dreams for years, recurring, but only for one night and then they don't reappear for a while. This week I had this kind of dream on 3 consecutive days, so now it begins to bug me.

I think you got the basic "message" of the dream, ie. the underlying emotions/feelings that manifest as particular recurrent dream themes. In fact these two situations - having something lost for school and missing trains, buses etc. - are both classic ways for our unconscious to express just what you describe in the last paragraph: the sense of urgency combined with the feeling of failure, "not making it", "being too late", "not catching up" etc.

The question is why do you feel this way and it's mainly for you to figure out. Dreams are usually merely a mean of expression for the emotional center. They're basically a symptom and carry no intrinsic, hidden meaning. They seem like enigma to us because we're enigma to ourselves. You should try to make a connection between them and certain things in real life (present, past or both).

Maybe try meditating a bit on those feelings just before falling asleep. First clear you're mind from the most immediate stuff, then simply recall said situations (school, trains) and ponder on feelings they invoke. Maybe a connection will appear between them and something that happened recently. It sometimes works for me.

Just for info, I actually graduated at university 11 years ago. It was hard, but I never had any doubts that I could make it, and I accomplished it in time. I didn't do extra semesters, although once I skipped 2 subjects. Because of that, I don't think that the dream refers to the actual physical experience of going to university.

You can lose it only when you have it... The last school-related dreams i recall having myself were related to my primary school that was quite easy to finish. I don't recall dreaming of harder stages of my educational path, with the exception of defending the final degree - which i had felt very confident of accomplishing. So perhaps there's some kind of inverse relationship here.

Also, a zeal to study may in itself be motivated by some unconscious, negative factors, like fear of failure, etc.

 

[Solar]

Hi lostinself,
thanks for your reply. A couple of thoughts came into my mind as I was reading your words.

A "zeal to study". The only studying that is currently happening in my life, is what I am doing here on this forum, and on this site. I am trying to "catch up" with others. I've recently realised that most of the forum entries that are currently relevant for me, are the ones that have been written 2-3 years ago. So I definitely feel that I am "too late". I am trying to implement dietary changes in my life, which others have accomplished yeras ago, and I am finding that it's harder than I thought.
For instance, I have been on Paleo for some 4-5 months, and recognizing the futility of doing a moderate/high carb Paleo diet for a long time, I am already "pushing" for the ketogenetic diet. However I feel intimidated of how hard it is. Cravings and liver issues hold me back and sometimes I definitely feel that I am "not gonna make it". I think I may even have become a bit obsessed with this. Although there is always a fine line between determinedly making changes and obsession.

Another explanation would be how I am unable to put the knowledge that I've gained in practice. It seems like I am still unable to get rid of my abusive and dominant role and certain programmed behavior-patterns in my relationship, although I am totally conscious of it, when these become active. Life repeatedly gives me opportunities to test what I have learned. I observe this and usually know when the moments comes where I could behave differently, and I still fail. It seems that my intellectual knowledge is way ahead of my ability to put this knowledge to use.

 

[lostinself]

A "zeal to study". The only studying that is currently happening in my life, is what I am doing here on this forum, and on this site.

Just to be clear - my "zeal to study" remark related specifically to education and career. What i meant was that one can be very successful at school or university, getting good grades and all that, but behind the resulting self confidence and the sense of accomplishment there can still hide a negative load of some kind. This can be fear of failure, for instance, and this fear could be one of factors making the person successful, by motivating his/her increased efforts. This not fully realized fear would later claim an attention of the person by evoking dreams that can involve the school period (extensive in time and emotionally intense due to young age).

I'm not saying this is your specific case but dreams about failing at school, educationally or socially, *are* common. And no wonder, given how narcissistic and accomplishment-driven is the society we're part of.

I am trying to "catch up" with others. I've recently realised that most of the forum entries that are currently relevant for me, are the ones that have been written 2-3 years ago. So I definitely feel that I am "too late". I am trying to implement dietary changes in my life, which others have accomplished yeras ago, and I am finding that it's harder than I thought.

Perhaps you should take it more easy and do what you feel you're able to do. Did you see this thread:

https://cassiopaea.org/forum/index.php/topic,9623.0.html ?

Another explanation would be how I am unable to put the knowledge that I've gained in practice. It seems like I am still unable to get rid of my abusive and dominant role and certain programmed behavior-patterns in my relationship, although I am totally conscious of it, when these become active. Life repeatedly gives me opportunities to test what I have learned. I observe this and usually know when the moments comes where I could behave differently, and I still fail. It seems that my intellectual knowledge is way ahead of my ability to put this knowledge to use.

Trains in dreams are considered to symbolize (opportunities for) change. So maybe you're on the right track here :)

 

[Solar]

A "zeal to study". The only studying that is currently happening in my life, is what I am doing here on this forum, and on this site.

Just to be clear - my "zeal to study" remark related specifically to education and career. What i meant was that one can be very successful at school or university, getting good grades and all that, but behind the resulting self confidence and the sense of accomplishment there can still hide a negative load of some kind. This can be fear of failure, for instance, and this fear could be one of factors making the person successful, by motivating his/her increased efforts. This not fully realized fear would later claim an attention of the person by evoking dreams that can involve the school period (extensive in time and emotionally intense due to young age).

I'm not saying this is your specific case but dreams about failing at school, educationally or socially, *are* common. And no wonder, given how narcissistic and accomplishment-driven is the society we're part of.

Ok, I see what you mean, and this could be my case, it's just hard to imagine that these things manifest in dreams so long after the physical experience. If this is so, my guess would be that my burnout and my lack of interest in my profession (that has reached critical levels this year) is what could have triggered the surfacing of such memories.

I am trying to "catch up" with others. I've recently realised that most of the forum entries that are currently relevant for me, are the ones that have been written 2-3 years ago. So I definitely feel that I am "too late". I am trying to implement dietary changes in my life, which others have accomplished yeras ago, and I am finding that it's harder than I thought.

Perhaps you should take it more easy and do what you feel you're able to do. Did you see this thread:

https://cassiopaea.org/forum/index.php/topic,9623.0.html ?

Yes, one of the threads I've found motivated by my own "lack of time" issues in daily life.
Thanks for your ideas. They make me aware of some things I would have swept under the rug otherwise.