Hi All,
First, sorry for my bad English, it’s very difficult for me to write in another language than mine.
I write this because I’m lost. Totally lost. In October 2016, my gynecologist dignosed a HPV. He advised me to make a chirurgical intervention to take off lesions, but I refused. Since October, I made a lot of things to try to cure without this intervention, because I know that will not solve the problem. Only immune system can win against virus. So, I made a lot of hypnosis sessions (to try to find psychological causes of the disease), I took a lot of food supplements (vit. B, C, D, chlorella…), I made irrigation of cervix with colloïdal silver (once or twice a day for 3 months), I took homeopathy and, recently, essential oils (but I had to stop after one month because of another problem, it was not possible to put anything in vagina). I had to consult my gynecologist again (because of the new problem) and it appeared that lesions had increased. Now, there are also external lesions and it extends to anus. So, doctor says that it’s time to make the intervention. I know that I won’t avoid this time. But I see it very badly. For me (just for me, no one understand me), this intervention is like a rape. Just thinking about it, I feel dirty ; speaking about it disgusting me. I don’t know for which reason I see this like that, but this feeling is very strong and everything in my body screams « Don’t do that ! » since 10 months, but this body didn’t do anything since that time to solve the problem on another way ! For which reason ?! (Sorry, I’m angry)
So, I’m lost, I don’t know what to do. I know that intervention will occur and I’m afraid of psychological consequences. I’m wondering how my body – who didn’t fight until now – will be able to win against virus when my mind will be devastated. But he’ll have to do it and I think it’ll be possible only if I find causes of HPV. I have assumptions : my doubt about having children or not and my tendency to not allow myself pleasure. If the cause is one of these, I will not find solution rapidly and lesions will appear again soon. I can’t imagine to suffer this intervention several times. My husband says : « It’s because you don’t want to have children but you can't accept this fact. » Even if it’s possible, I don't believe he's right. I think he says that many times because he’s affraid to be right ; he hopes that one day, I answer « No, you're wrong, I want children ».
I’m also wondering if iodine can be a part of causes. In June 2016, I tried to start iodine protocole (only ½ drop of Lugol 5% / day + all supplements) but only for 10 days because I had bad effects that I was not able to endure. Is it possible that I « woke up » virus at this time ? If yes, what can I do ? I don’t think I’m ready to restart protocole because of the effects I had last year.
Please, help. I don’t know what to do to cure. I don’t understand why nothing works. Many many thanks in advance for your advices.
First, sorry for my bad English, it’s very difficult for me to write in another language than mine.
I write this because I’m lost. Totally lost. In October 2016, my gynecologist dignosed a HPV. He advised me to make a chirurgical intervention to take off lesions, but I refused. Since October, I made a lot of things to try to cure without this intervention, because I know that will not solve the problem. Only immune system can win against virus. So, I made a lot of hypnosis sessions (to try to find psychological causes of the disease), I took a lot of food supplements (vit. B, C, D, chlorella…), I made irrigation of cervix with colloïdal silver (once or twice a day for 3 months), I took homeopathy and, recently, essential oils (but I had to stop after one month because of another problem, it was not possible to put anything in vagina). I had to consult my gynecologist again (because of the new problem) and it appeared that lesions had increased. Now, there are also external lesions and it extends to anus. So, doctor says that it’s time to make the intervention. I know that I won’t avoid this time. But I see it very badly. For me (just for me, no one understand me), this intervention is like a rape. Just thinking about it, I feel dirty ; speaking about it disgusting me. I don’t know for which reason I see this like that, but this feeling is very strong and everything in my body screams « Don’t do that ! » since 10 months, but this body didn’t do anything since that time to solve the problem on another way ! For which reason ?! (Sorry, I’m angry)
So, I’m lost, I don’t know what to do. I know that intervention will occur and I’m afraid of psychological consequences. I’m wondering how my body – who didn’t fight until now – will be able to win against virus when my mind will be devastated. But he’ll have to do it and I think it’ll be possible only if I find causes of HPV. I have assumptions : my doubt about having children or not and my tendency to not allow myself pleasure. If the cause is one of these, I will not find solution rapidly and lesions will appear again soon. I can’t imagine to suffer this intervention several times. My husband says : « It’s because you don’t want to have children but you can't accept this fact. » Even if it’s possible, I don't believe he's right. I think he says that many times because he’s affraid to be right ; he hopes that one day, I answer « No, you're wrong, I want children ».
I’m also wondering if iodine can be a part of causes. In June 2016, I tried to start iodine protocole (only ½ drop of Lugol 5% / day + all supplements) but only for 10 days because I had bad effects that I was not able to endure. Is it possible that I « woke up » virus at this time ? If yes, what can I do ? I don’t think I’m ready to restart protocole because of the effects I had last year.
Please, help. I don’t know what to do to cure. I don’t understand why nothing works. Many many thanks in advance for your advices.