I was a Teenage Vivisectionist

dennis

Jedi Council Member
I was a Teenage Vivisectionist

I went to college in the mid seventies and majored in psychology. My individual studies were in physiological psy, thinking that I would go into neurology. The fad at the time was BF Skinner behavioral conditioning, and most students went into that field using lab rats and pigeons as experimental subjects.
There were few students in physio, it was viewed as nerd land. It also meant surgery on the subjects and most students were grossed out by that prospect, preferring to administer bloodless torture like electric shock, fear and food extortion in their investigations.
My senior project was assigned to me by the prof and titled “Electric Spike Potential in Thalamic Regions”. The lab was enclosed in chicken wire to shield against EM interference and had a stereotaxic unit (something like a drillpress with accurate graduated mounting device for holding a precise location of the subject’s head and oscilloscope to record E activity inside.
The rat subjects were kept in their ‘dorm room’ in shoebox sized cages. Most were absolute pets of the students who worked on them, having names and occasional cuddles and snacks. But when they got too old or too wise to participate in the bloodless torture sessions, they fell into my hands.
When I entered the rat dorm they all would stop in unison their scurrying in the cages and look over their shoulder as if to say ‘Oh shit, its him again’.
The profs would decide who my victim of the day would be, usually an oldster who had gotten fat and dingy yellow. They were the ones who knew all the various experiment procedures and were thus not reliable to be conditioned because they didn’t react to terror and bribery as readily as a youngster or ‘virgin’.
The rat had to be first anesthetized. We had a bucket with a lid that we put ether in and threw the rat into. Knocked him out in seconds. Then I had to administer an injection of interperitoneal Nembutal. Translated into English, that’s stick a needle into its stomach and push the drug there.
Then the skull was shaved with electric razor. He was mounted into the drillpress precisely to coordinates. The scalp was bisected and I used a ‘dremel’ type tool to remove a section of the skull. The recording electrode was a home crafted glass pipette extruded to a 1 to 3 micron diameter and bathed in a saline solution.
Once the Electrode was positioned in the Thalamus, various stimulae such as light and touch were administered and the scope recorded the activity. It was really fascinating to watch and hear over the speaker. It crackled like a Geiger counter. Different locations of the thalamus responded to different stimulae in various electrical intensity and frequency. It was very much like flipping a light switch on and off.
The experiment concluded, a problem arose. The rat was still alive but a likely vegetable. There was no place for him back in the old rat dorm. The solution was to inject alcohol into the brain. A quick squirm and stillness. Rat goes into trash can and you write up the experiment.
I thankfully got sick the first time I did this and puked in the lab sink. My freshman assigned helper soon never showed up for lab sessions and I heard later went into the priesthood.
But I had to pass this course to graduate, and I was as trapped as the damn rats. Too late to drop and add. The whole psy department was a big experimental rat maze and I was stuck in the darkest corner you could imagine.
My solution came after about half a dozen sessions into the semester. In the terminology of the times I said “Fuck It, I ain’t doin’ this no more”. I decided to fake the results and squirt the ether and Nembutal down the sink drain (it was strictly accounted). But a rat had to disappear.
I took the old boy out of the building and liberated him on the railroad tracks behind campus. He just sat there looking at me like “what the hell is this”. It was freedom and life and he couldn’t see it, but I left him there anyway. Some mangy stray dog probably came by a few hours later and ate him but my conscience was clear.
If you don’t think this goes on at larger levels and effects your life then you truly are asleep. All you then can hope for is to win the rat lottery and be let go like #7.
But if you wake up a bit you can look over your shoulder before the bastards come into the dorm. Then all you need is a hole in the cage to escape.
Dennis
 
Hello Anart,

This was a true life experience for me and I thought it may be profitable and entertaining for others. Maybe I was surfing a little too close to the rocks when I wrote it the other day.

d
 
dennis said:
If you don’t think this goes on at larger levels and effects your life then you truly are asleep.


Hi Dennis, when you wrote the above what did you mean exactly?
 
dennis said:
Hello Anart,

This was a true life experience for me and I thought it may be profitable and entertaining for others. Maybe I was surfing a little too close to the rocks when I wrote it the other day.

d

Well, just so you know, my subjective interpretation was that I did not find it entertaining. I actually found it rather disturbing and it left me wondering why you would choose to write such a thing on this forum. Perhaps it was to entertain yourself? Perhaps, in the future, before posting, you could consider whether or not what you are writing is noise or signal - whether it adds to the objective understanding or whether you are simply posting to entertain yourself or to just write random thoughts down? This way, you could minimize the noise that you introduce and maximize the signal - it might be something to consider.
 
While I can't be entirely sure, it seems to me he was making an analogue in the latter part of the post of his personal example to "the situation" we find ourselves in - as above (said situation), so below (his personal example) - being not only (though this would seem to be the main thing behind it all) food, but also (as suggested in places in the cass-related material. I remember reading somewhere the suggestion that anything, no matter how horrible, that can be done to a lab animal can be done to a human - this is quite evident - and so, very well might have been) lab rats to both shady sorts of organizations - and that which comes into the lives of everyday people due to their influence - near the top of the STS power-pyramid here in 3D, and to various 4D STS types.

That, at any rate, is what it reminded me of; perhaps his post could have some benefit in reminding someone else who makes that connection of "the horror of the situation" - or part thereof - and if that someone is more sensitive, perhaps providing a little bit of shock.

Still, if this was the point, then something more descriptive than "If you don’t think this goes on at larger levels and effects your life then you truly are asleep." could have been written to point it out. As for "All you then can hope for is to win the rat lottery and be let go like #7.", on the "larger levels" we would be dealing with psychopathic (3D) or pure-STS (4D) types, so there probably won't be any "rat lottery", no queasiness or mercy - instead, there is the possibility that "they" ultimately mess up due to their wishful thinking, not seeing things clearly enough to succeed in their goals.

dennis said:
But if you wake up a bit you can look over your shoulder before the bastards come into the dorm. Then all you need is a hole in the cage to escape.

And this would be what people are trying to accomplish in this here network.
 
[quote author=dennis]But if you wake up a bit you can look over your shoulder before the bastards come into the dorm. Then all you need is a hole in the cage to escape.[/quote]

Maybe this would be best understood by what dennis posted here.
 
CC You are right on target a) about this being an example of analog identification, and b) the last paragraph needs extrapolation. Touche' and thank You for seeing this. This is an example of how networks work. Like a synaptic transfer from one neuron to another. Please take it and run with it, finish the paragraph for us, at your convenience.

Anart is also correct in his observation of signal to noise ratio. I need to improve, and I thank you. Your role as supermoderator charges you with the responsibility to separate wheat from chaff. That too is a valuable network component, but be careful you don't throw the baby out with the bathwater. Your job is very much like guarding the yard against a swarm of bats in the night air.

The analog is that each event in our lives is fit into a pattern after it has occurred in our lives. When you realize this you 'wake up' and go looking at the patterns everywhere. But the patterns are by nature in entrainment mode, gathering in. The Gods demand worship. The flow is perceived as the frenzied uptake of knowledge from out of unfamiliar sources. You are not in control of this flow, you are in its rip tides. Overstimulation in pattern entrainment, like all things, is best taken in supermoderation. There is a limit, the passing of which is like the wine bursting the wine bottle. Runaway condition is like nuclear fission, you get a big bang but the aftermath for others is hell. This is what happens to a psychopath. He explodes outward as a result. (But as he lives he seeks an elusive grasp of control, and never finds it).

What if one day you hear that there existed the ability to direct your course and choose the patterns you think best? You would seek this out, and if you find it off you go forging things ahead of you as best you can, trying to become your own God. But you must realize that you are really quite devoid of knowledge and creative energy, and the consequences of a mistake are deadly. You only have what you brought along or find along the way. Groping in the dark is not enlightenment, it is a dangerous waste of energy. Relying on the charity of strangers is not a strategy. So you then realize there are others like you, and bonding together in common results in the whole being greater than the parts. Fusion is the analog, and like the fusion bomb crossing the limit of supermoderation here is an implosion. Runaway condition here is that it is a closed loop system that begins to repel all elements not approved by all the common members. It spins the same energy around the circuit of the members, and being a fixed amount available the spin gets faster and faster. Implosion inward is the result, the wine bottle collapses from the bitterness of the old wine. This is what happens to a religious fanatic. He commits suicide not because he seeks God but because he does not find him in his closed loop system and his will to live collapses from exhaustion. Like a rat running faster and faster around the cage. (But as he lives he seeks an elusive grasp of control, and never finds it).

Ain't life a two edged sword? We are damned by the duality curse indeed. Battered back and forth like a ping pong ball, and the tempo of the game is really at near frenzy pace nowdays.

My purpose is to suspend the ping pong ball above the net for a moment, find the third way between the frenzied poles. That is the joystick of control. I offer the intimate details of my life to you as an example of my seeking this joystick only for your benefit. You get a peek under my skirts and you might say I ain't wearin no drawers, i post under my real name. You can get in my face or stand beside me, it doesn't matter to me. You can put me in the noodle bin if you like, or publish this in my local newspaper. I know that I must put a foot somewhere, and I have noticed that for some strange reason I have two. But I am here to tango, not stand around as my father used to say 'with your finger up your ass and your mind in Georgia'.

Hugs and kisses,
Dennis
 
dennis said:
Your role as supermoderator charges you with the responsibility to separate wheat from chaff.

Not at all - it simply requires that moderators attempt to reduce the level of noise on the forum so that those who came here, sincerely, to learn and to contribute can do so without being distracted.

As far as the rest of your post is concerned, Mountain Crown's link to the forum guidelines might help you understand how such behavior is interpreted here and why.  It might also be beneficial for you to consider the following:

Gurdjieff said:
A decent man will behave decently even if he thinks that he has been treated unjustly or wrongly. But many people in such circumstances show a side of their nature which otherwise they would never show. And at times it is a necessary means for exposing a man's nature. So long as you are good to a man he is good to you. But what will he be like if you scratch him a little?
 
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